Monday, April 24, 2006
Karmawadeva happened on friday i had no idea.. the std 3s juz came to sj not wearing their uniform saying that they din noe that got training... i cannot do anything but express my disappointment in them...
y have they turned out lyk tt? uniform very heavy? wad abt us? we oso brought our uniform to sj every friday wad... wad abt ur juniors the std 2s? they oso brought their uniform to sj wad... u say dun wan bring cuz uniform too heavy? then fine la.. dun bring lo... then sj dun wear uniform lo.. close down sj lo.. wads the point of having sj in chung cheng corp? its ruining at our hand... we cant even control our juniors.. we cant even lead them properly... we cant even get them to respect us... wads the point of continuing this corp?
i once tot that the std 3s will be much better trainers than us.. but they turned out lyk tt.. is it our fault that we caused them to be lyk tt? if chung cheng corp dun end at our hands... it will end at theirs.. we now have to resort to using dunman high officers to help with our corp... i feel so embarrassed..
embarrassed that we have to get help from other corp cuz we cannot handle our own corp.. embarrassed that we have to let utsiders take our corp... i feel even more embarrassed that all we have to show for wad my squad has done is our std 3s... the std 3s who dun respect sj... dun respect us... at least not enough to think that it is worth them bringing their training materials along to sch for training lyk the rest of us..
i look at dunman... i look at chung cheng.. i wonder... how come they can be so good? how come they have so many officers? how come they they dun have problems of insubordination? how come they dun have cadets telling them that they dun wan bring uniform to sch? how come my std 3s are still privates when thy should be at least lance corporal? more importantly... where are my officers?
wad were u thinking when u left us? did u think we could cope? then u thought too highyl of us.. why did u cancel JNCO? why are the ppl lying to me... between the 6 of u someone is lying to me... i wanna noe who... but no one is willing to tell me... i am so sick and tired... wad happened to the sj i joined in sec 1? wad happened to my frens in sec 1? wad happened to my officers and seniors in sec 1? why have things turned out lyk that? why is my std held responsible for the turnout of the events? things are beyond our control..
i guess this would be wad ppl call karma...
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xoxo nikki
2:56 AM
