Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Laugh My Head Off

hahahaha.... dun believe it... andy ang from BDSS SJ has a profile on LoveHappens!!!

haha

but the funny thing is the person he is helping....

ANDY GOH MIN JIN!!!!!!!

and u noe his description?????

SINGAPORE HUNK!!!!!

SINGAPORE HUNK wor... dun pray pray lehz... HUNK LEHZ.... ok la... i'm evil... BUT SERIOUSLY!!!! aiyo... hahahaha so funny

hmmm... i wonder how many ppl will noe who i am talking abt...

haha... maybe only faifai...

or maybe i should say is the andy that ahroy keep saying abt to me last time...

*faint* singapore hunk....

hahahahahahaha

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:49 PM

Zhu's POP

zhu's POP is on december 5th wor.... hmmm... so long... sianz... getting bored... zhu nv call me today... hmmm... tml if he nv call or sms me the need to call his mummy le... hmmm... see? i'm the nice gf wor... call the mother say son hp no batt... ask her dun worry... me this kind of gf go where find... haha... so BHB... argh... super sianed...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:26 PM

Ya Wadeva...

juz go fuck urself... i shall not remove my tagboard... becuz still got nice msg from my frens... few bo liao tags from fucked up ppl wun bother me... haha... and faifai say maybe the person lyk me... then trying some innovative way to get my attention... haha... well... i guess u are really catching my attention le lehz... haha.. zhu say if is a gal then muz be jealous of me... cuz i got BF... if is a guy then muz me lyk me... hehe... hmmm... since u say i BHB... then jiu BHB lo... i really think u lyk me... cuz u try so hard to come to my blog to read abt me... including sourcing for my password... hehe... budden... i got zhu le.. i dun lyk u... and will NEVER lyk u.. SORRY!!!!

back to happier things.. i bought 2 magnets today... and instantly regreted wasting my money... budden who cares la... shall give it to zhu... hehe... and sylvia and qian hui gave me a lolipop!!! heart shape de... BIG as my palm wor... so nice rite? love love love...

very sian la... the chinese ppr sucked... but wadeva...

I WANT THE LG PINK CHOCOLATE PHONE!!!!
(have to use purple cuz no pink color... =( )

but i am not going to get it... haha... dun really feel lyk blogging le... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:36 AM

Monday, October 30, 2006

Lost

suddenly i got a very lost feeling... lyk i dunno wad was i doing.... i'm tired... and i have no idea why those ppl are hurling insults at me... why is she so pissed off everytime i dun tell her that i have got a bf... why does she sy i'm dumb for having a bf thats in NS... she dun even noe him.... i'm lost... i'm thinking wad is he doing now... i keep asking myself wad is there to worry abt... budden i cant help but worry... i hate feeling so helpless.. everything is so out of control... maybe the car accident is not a bad idea huh... and then there is blogger fucking up and refusing to post my entry... grrrr

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:13 PM

Juz Get Lost

i juz dun get it? why there are always ppl who are so bo liao... seriously irritating... i'm not in a good mood and u juz pissed me off even more fucker

i dun care if i got small boobs can? wad has that got to do with u anyway? u are so pathetic u noe? insulting ppl and dun even dare to put ur name there... then u try to act cool lyk u are so perfect... maybe u got even smaller boobs than me... and honestly.. i think mine are too big for me.. i wouldnt honestly mind if they were slightly smaller u noe...

i dun tell everyone i got a bf... i only tell my frens... and not ALL of my frens noe i got a bf ok? but i rite abt him here cuz this is my personal space alrite? if u are not happy abt me talking abt my bf then dun come here la... i oso nv tell u rite? in fact i even went to the trouble of putting a password script to DISCOURAGE u from reading abt my bf in case it hurts ur puny pride... in case i accidently rub the fact that someone out there actually lyks me in ur ugly face... ME lehz... NOT YOU wor... poor thing... even ur mummy cant bear to see ur face rite? u poor poor idiot..

i bet u tasted ur dad's "sperm juice" b4... my my... wad a crude word to use... "sperm juice"... ur english is really really bad.... wan me to recommend some tuition for u? there's a really good one at Novena u noe... budden u need to pass a test to get in... and itz not easy lehz... maybe u shouldnt go... u'll juz embarrass urself.... back to my daddy's erm... "sperm juice"... i noe u tasted it b4.... u noe why? cuz u said it was delicious... budden i wouldnt want to believe u... cuz u got bad taste see?

erm... and a woman has got to be preggers b4 she can produce milk... ur mummy nv tell u b4 har... or during ur sex ed in school u too busy watching the soft porn to listen to the constructive knowledge ur teacher was trying to sink into ur mercury filled head izzit?

pigs are not ugly lehz.. they are cute hor... if u liken me to urself then i will freak... SO UGLY!!!!! dun look into the mirror kkz? cuz if u see urself u will get nitemares de... i mean well hor.. really...

and i am really not into SM lehz... dun slap my nipples hor... and they oso not for u to stain with ur dirty hands... wan oso let my BF touch la... the one that U DUN HAVE...

i dun portray myself as well loved and popular... becuz i nv fail to forget that ppl lyk u are ard... and thats the point of my password script... to stop ppl from mistakenly thinking that i am well loved and popular.. =D

and i DO have a life... thats why i am blogging abt the life that i DO have... not lyk someone who DUN have a life and keep spamming other ppl's tagboard.. and spending time to get into my blog even when u DUN have the password... if thats not call no life... or rather... low life.. i dunno wad izzit called la hor.. otherwise if i noe u... and gave u the password... then erm... why dun u tell me who are u... and i really promise i will keep out of ur way... really.. budden i'll juz blog abt u la... then the little frens whom i have reading my blog will noe... thats all la... only abt erm.. less than 10 ppl have the password here lo.. ya... not many ppl will noe de... see? i'm NOT popular! i only have 10 frens lehz...

i'm riting this under the impression that this bo liao person is a gal... cuz i cant believe a guy would talk lyk tt... SO BITCHY!!!! even more so than me... and this person has a REALLY weird penchant of looking at other ppl's boobs... YUCKS!

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:02 PM

Oh Well......

today was a super sian day...

tried really really really hard to study...

the only highlight of the day was zhu calling me and me reading my blog...

i decided i shall dedicate a post to the dumb person...

cuz i am BORED!!!

oh... and i juz told my mummy i got a bf...

she din scold me... but she wasnt really thrilled too... SAD

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:42 PM

Sunday, October 29, 2006

I Miss You

hmmm... juz hung up on the phone with zhu... hmmm... haha... he reported sick yesterday.... and the doc there tot he chao geng... make him wait for 20 mins b4 seeing him... haha... budden got give him 2 weeks of... erm... dunno la... excuse use of upper body...

anyway i juz realised that b4 i was with zhu there was always a flurry of blog post de... then we got tgt become very very little... haha... then now he in NS suddenly got alot again... haha

hmmm... din i meet u almost everyday b4 u went to NS? how come they seem so long ago now... when i last saw u on wed and now is only saturday?

pls dun fall asleep during ur training again... otherwise i wun see u for one more week le...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:12 PM

Juz Go Away

i dun understand which part of i have a bf do u not understand? that i dun lyk u... that even if u were to ask me that long time ago to beur gf i wun wan to?

dun irritate me le can?

lyk u are so long suffering or sth lyk tt...

all along i nv say i lyk u lo... and i cant stand the way u seem to feel whoever u lyk muz lyk u back and when u ask the person to be ur gf the person will definitely agree...

ur singing sux u noe... stop acting lyk u are so pro in singing lyk tt can? practising how to sing? YUCKS!

i'm not trying to be evil or anything la... budden i dun understand how come u have to keep bugging me...

calling me... im-ing me.. sms-ing me... itz fine if u juz talk to melyk a normal fren... not talk lyk u so chi qing lyk tt... wanna wait for me... missed ur chance... all that crap...

i hate liars and the first thing u did when we got to noe each other was to lie to me u bastard... asshole... i hate u can?

stop acting lyk u noe me so well oso la... and how u keep wishing me and zhu good luck is juz so shit lo.... disgusting... and how u keep saying that u are lyk so cool... got such good fashion sense... u look so ugly still keep wanting to jio all those chio bu...

Bu Yao Lian!!!!

keep saying dunno which gal to chose cuz u lyk both of them... ever tot if they wanted u to begin with not? so wad if u are rich... go die lar!

and hor... tell me u dunno which of the two gals to chose le then turn around and tell me u lyk me and dun wan them... pathetic idiot!!!!!

argh!

hmmm.... he cant read this tirade anyway... dun have password...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:14 AM

Sick?

zhu reported sick in camp... say his rite shoulder hurt... wonder wad happened...

and hor...

he say his phone no batt juz now then suddenly hang up...

then if he within next week nv sms me for one day hor...

i need to call his hse...

and tell his mother....

his phone no batt... so cannot contact her...

and ask her dun worry...

scary!!!!!!

pray pray pray that his batt will miraculously last til next saturday ok???

pls pls pls hor...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
4:43 AM

Studying

talking to zhu rite now...

er... he suddenly hang up on me...

nvm...

one more week to go and i can see him...

happy..

yesterday go study with lynn at MPL

so sian...

BAH!

i shall have to go study soon...

lalalalala...,.

maybe not so soon...

i wanted to blog abt something de...

then zhu called... and i forgot wad i wanted to say... nvm... rmb then i blog again..

he call me again... bb

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:52 AM

Friday, October 27, 2006

My Tears

ahhhh... shedding my tears quite often recently..

Goong is so touching... sobz...

the way the stupid Xin keep hurting Caijing juz cuz of his pride is so bad...

he obviously cares can???

why keep hurting the woman he loves with his dumb pride?

he is worried for her cuz she cant eat and cant sleep... but she cant eat and sleep all cuz she was worried for him ma...

dumbass

then still keep jealous of his cousin... dumbshit...

then see her lyk that super sad can?

and i start crying...

haha... i keep emoting!!!! how? later 4th of nov i cry again... haha...

oh... talked on the phone with zhu juz now... most prob cant go see Tanglin School performance le... ahhh... shall miss Melissa... hehe..

i'm evil...

haven taken off the ring yet...

my room so messy... scared later lost...

oh oh oh... jolvin slim down alot lehz... seriously... he's lyk all skin and bones.. haha... almost la... but not so bad... chengwee looks the same lo... kiddy kiddy lyk tt...

and that day... actually is juz yesterday.. cuz zhu wanna send me home ma... then he at first say stay in the school awhile.. pass them some things then leave... budden then the end he stay til quite late... so he was walking quite quickly to send me home la... then jolvin was behind us singing Tian Mi Mi VERY loudly... cuz he was quite far behind budden can hear him very clearly.. then furthermore was raining ma... then very cold.. super funny... reminded me of the time in Nitec Camp royston walk with me back to camp from East Coast under the rain then the guys say we yu zhong man bu... haha... budden i rather zhu than ahroy.... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

haha... i was saying that jolvin very childish... camparable to me... then zhu say jol has always been comparable to me in terms of childishness.. haha... and i say no la.. compared to jol i lose hands down... haha... jol is super funny can? laugh til i can cry...

ehhhh... i'm getting dehydrated.... cuz keep crying... shall go drink more water now... in case later i watch Liao Zhai and cry again... hehe

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
11:23 AM

I WANT TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!

i wanna complain about ppl who complain that their life is so horrible.. how they are always bullied by others... taken advantage of...

SIMPLY BECUZ THEY DUNNO HOW TO HANDLE STUFF PROPERLY

all these problems... u dun be so dumb and let them use u la...

IDIOT

at least when i say that ppl dun appreciate me and all those things hor... i oso say that i am very dumb becuz i ALLOWED them to do so... i CHOSE to LET them make use of me... i say that my life sux cuz i got so much stress... but is i JIU YOU ZI QU... i say i hate u... but i still talk to u and i still dun lose my temper at u... becuz i made a choice and that is to suffer cuz i hope that it will help in the long run...

ok... i say til lyk i am some Samatarian... or however u spell the dumb word la... but my point is wadeva decision we make there is always a conseqence to suffer... itz not lyk all those times when i was complaining abt royton and guan and sj in general i din noe that THEY have their own problems and stress...

please stop talking abt urself lyk u are the ONLY victim and ALL others juz PRAY to see ur downfall... juz shuddup and brush the dust off ur sorry ass that accumulated from ur kicking of legs in the air...

seriously irritated

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:28 AM

I Hate Tekong

the evil tekong... took my frens one by one away...

and now u take my BF!!!!

hate u hate u hate u

so evil...

even more evil than me...

hmmm... yesterday zhu gave me a ring that he always wore... told me to keep it for him til he is out of NS...

haha... ring so big he put on my thumb oso loose lehz...

he told me he gave my number to his bro in case anything happened and his bro could contact me...

hmmm... wad can happen rite? itz juz tekong ma.. ridiculous... every single male of age has been therema... and nothing happened to them rite? wad COULD happen? actually i dunno la..

i miss him already... argh...

today i xia ding jue xin wanna go school de... budden i fell asleep... and din wake up til 6 plus... then i din wanna go school so early le... then my mummy in the end say i cannot go out.... sianz... cannot even meet sze yan to study...

YEA!!! juz received zhu's msg... he can come out on 4th of nov.. then we going tanglin school to see their performance... hehe... can see Melissa again!!!! hehe... happy happy happy... (1301h)

lalalalala... hmmm... decided change back to my old handy 7610... cuz the k608i is seriously irritating me with itz lack of memory... grrrr....

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
4:05 AM

Day 14

ahhhh...

today is when zhu go to NS...

in fact he is in tekong now...

no pics of chocolates today

cuz i put the last piece of chocolate into the coin bank and gave it to zhu... he ate it this morning...

itz heart shaped lyk the one i ate yesterday.. only itz white chocolate instead of milk chocolate

itz been 3 hours 45 mins plus since he boarded the ferry to tekong...

hell... wadeva..

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:46 AM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Yesterday Today Tomorrow

yesterday had no time and no mood to blog abt anything...

spent the entire day with zhu...

i reached his house at 2am lyk that.. then sleep lo... wake up... then we give his mum the chocolates he bought... then we watched tv... his mum ate the chocolates... haha... 5 at a go... wa... so ex chocolate... then lyk tt eat... haha... then we go his room watch Sky High... hmmm... nv finish watching... we nv finish watching any show at his house de... think cuz we both got short attention span... then.... his bro drove us to Swensen's at Orchard next to Paragon for dinner... cuz his mum bdae ma... wasnt really hungry... budden need to eat ma... then eat fish and chips... erm... i din eat much... haha... then his mum say how can dun eat... eat so little.. haha... and his bro say "she slim ma"... haha... then his wife was lyk... "not lyk me fat rite?" haha... they so cute... after that we went to a temple at loyang... hmmm... i realised i very long nv go temple le... and i had NO idea wad to do there.. cuz i everytime lazy lazy then my mummy do everything... budden they do til very complicated... haha... i oso confused le... my mummy do lyk very easy lyk tt lehz... zzzzz.... then they drove me home... talk to zhu on the phone for awhile... then he pei his mummy play mj... then after that he call me again... and i din slp the whole nite cuz couldnt get to slp... his mummy very cute... say when he in NS wanna slp in his room... cuz miss him alot... hehe...

today.... reached his house at round 8 lyk tt... was msg-ing faifai... budden i got to zhu's hse... and fell asleep then nv reply faifai for a long time... SORRY... then 11 plus lyk tt wake up... his mummy bought McSpicy for us... zhu wanna eat de lo... he cannot take spicy food still eat.. then he in the end stomache =x haha... then zhu do his invoice for his company or sth... then i help him vet thru... ALOT of mistake lo.. haha... then i do the drawing for him for Tanglin School's performance... i very nice kind and helpful de hor... hehe... then his sis in law drive us to the childcare where zhu going to have some new lessons or sth... then we took MRT to Tanglin School... i look at some of the kids there i feel so sad and inferior can? they can do so many things on skates... i cant even move lo... all the skills i picked up were chopped into 4 pieces and returned to my four instructors le... haha... then after that... haha... i was standing beside zhu... when one of his student... Melissa... itz one of my most hated names... argh... cuz all the Melissas i ever knew were horrible ppl... this one oso horrible lo... she go up to zhu and say "korkor gei ni de" haha... and i saw something orange that looked suspiciously lyk a heart lo... haha... and zhu looked so terrified and refused to take it... then he run away... hahahahahha... so funny... then she look so sad lehz... keep staring at the stage where zhu was with jolvin chengwee and jolvin's fren... super funny.. she left... budden turned back cuz she left her water bottle behind... i was so tempted to go over to her and ask her to give it to me and i pass it on to him... budden when i walk towards her she run away... haha... then turn out the orange thing was really a heart... and the TIC of the CCA say zhu til he lyk a super good instructor lyk that... he oso teach me b4 lehz... how come i dun tink he that good lehz? haha... then zhu say he teach ppl then got admirers cuz all his students fall in love with him... his ex... me... melissa... haha.. horrible..

hmmm... tml he going to NS le!!! shall be very very sad.... argh... later i cry how? zzzz... recently keep crying... die... sad sad sad... hmmm.... he should be home le now... but he nv msg me... hmmm... maybe he out with his fren or sth...

admittedly... we only met almost once a week when i was still in school... and we can continue that even when he in NS... budden the diff is that i knew all this time that no matter wad he will surely still be there whenever and wherever i need him to be... but now he will be in tekong... and he wun be there le... that mental assurance is not there anymore... haiz..

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:14 PM

Day 13

seriously...

ooo... heart shape wor... hehe... nice...

hmmm... juz pure milk chocolate... nothing much... but very very nice...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:32 PM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Day 12

haiz... wad can i say?

i've been eyeing this chocolate for a long long time wor... looks nice...

hmmm... see the layers? actualyl are all juz chocolates of diff flavor.. nice lo... wad else can i say...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:49 PM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Let Me Tell You Whats Love.

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't love, it's LOYALTY.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
It isn't love, it's CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
Then it's LOVE.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts??
Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there?
Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's LOVE.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love?

Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony?

Why is it all we long for? This torture, this powerful death of self?

Why?

The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE.It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish toexperience it and share it with others as well.

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:34 AM

Yesterday And Last Night

yesterday arh...

hmmm... went to zhu's hse first... cuz he got something to give me...

he made brownies!!!! hehe... so nice!!! day b4 he go malaysia... come back he play mj... then he rush home bake the brownies!!! he nv sleep lehz.... poor thing...

then we went to vivo city... and zhu spoilt my shoe... -_-" then got to buy new ones lo... from charles and keith... humph... not happy at all... grrr....

u noe the trouble abt buying things is u can nv find them when u wan to... lyk u always see coin banks everwhere rite? i wanted to buy one for zhu... but i couldnt find it ANYWHERE!!!! then finally after a 3 hour search i found it... zzzzzzzz....

then yesterday.... looking for a shoe shop... u noe how women's shoe shops are always everywhere???? haha... yesterday we couldnt find ONE at all... so hard to find u noe... sianz...

at 5 plus we bought the tix to a Deathnote show that's at 7... got so long lo.. then we go buy present for zhu's mummy which is tml... the same Godiva chocolates zhu bought for me.. so ex lo... $58 terrible...

anyway... we watched Deathnote... erm... even though i badly wanted to watch the show... and it looked quite nice... but din turn out very nice... dun really wanna talk abt it... zhu was sleeping thru the whole show..

after that.. we go home lo... then somehow i wasnt feeling well.. i felt really faint... dunno wad happened la... think i got zhu really worried... haiz...

i got home... erm... went to bathe... then i slept... was a totally horrible nite... i kept waking up every once in a while... and my knee hurt alot.. and i keep having nitemares... but i could nv really wake up completely... juz drifting in and out of sleep... all the way til this morn at 5.30 when my alarm rang... and then i couldnt even sit up... everything was juz swimming infront of my eyes... and i kept breaking out in cold sweat thoughout the nite... i sms-ed szeyan that i wasnt going to sch cuz was supposed to meet her in the morn... then i sms-ed zhu... he called me and we talked awhile on the phone... so horrible... his voice kept hurting my head... got a terrible headache... then i went back to sleep... budden oso still keep having nitemare...

all i rmb is that they are all in black and white... but i cant rmb wad they are abt... i juz kept having this cold fear that seize my heart eveytime i wake up... so horrible..

i'm still shivering... later still need go to josh's house.. tired... then maybe go zhu's hse... haiz... i hope i will be well soon...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:10 AM

Day 11

hmmm... 72% this time... hope itz not TOO bitter again...

innocent looking thing hor... hehe... but eat le not so bad la... quite ok.... even though i lyk the other one better... hehe... the 50% one... hehe...

wa... how come lyk tt??? .... dun care... haha..

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
4:00 AM

Monday, October 23, 2006

Day 10

ahhhh.... my fave day... so eat the nicest chocolate

hehe... nice rite? wahahhaa

hmmm.... the best!!! cuz the yellow yellow thingy???? caramel!!!!! wahaha!!! so happy wor....

P.S. itz 11.59 b4 the day end i shall end this

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:59 PM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Whats Wrong?

there MUZ be something wrong with me...

i cried watching a cartoon!

and the cartoon is Over The Hedge!!

the part where Hammy hugged RJ? i started crying...

wads wrong with me...

nv used to cry at all

now i keep crying and crying abt irrelevant things...

argh!

and i cried twice yesterday when i was with zhu zhu...

and i almost cried another 3 times!!!!

wads wrong....

i'm killing myself...

sobz...

i'm desperate...

cant eat
cant sleep
cant stop crying...

zhu say is stress...

wad am i going to do???

mummy thinks i'm anorexic...

oh well..

at least that means i'm gonna slim down ya?

YIPEE!!!

argh!

to hell wih the world...

n the bastard who invented exams should hang himself... and get killed at least 10 times by each person who ever existed once in the world...

y is a cert impt? character more impt ma...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:25 AM

Day 9

this is the chocolate that is good frens with the horrible red one...

see? same pattern de... juz diff wrapper only.... scary!!! budden i decided to try it anyway...

oops... hehe... the inside is all empty le... cuz its so nice i eat it all up le... hehe... inside is liqour.. with a berry inside... this time the liqour is very very very nice!!!! not lyk the red one... horrible... so sweet... this was juz nice... and got the warm warm feeling... nice nice nice... the berry oso not too sweet...i gobbled it all up! hehe... maybe the other one was a bit spoilt... hehe...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:09 AM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Mahjong...

hmmm....

seems lyk my life is destined to be the one sitting next to ppl playing mahjong... haha...

today i nv go school.. went to zhu's house...

erm...

they played mahjong...

i sat beside zhu...

i FINALLY got to noe that herman...

hahahha... he din look lyk how i expected him to look lyk... but somehow i think he is a nice guy la...

budden he today play mj til super pek chek...

if i were him arh... i would be oso lo... the whole game he din win a SINGLE time... so poor thing... the only time he won was kenny let him win de... so sad...

hmmm...

after the mj session hor... zhu's mummy say she wanna go tampines... say she goign take mrt with me...

wa..

I ALMOST FAINTED!!!!

so scary can? take mrt with her... sure damn weird and uncomfortable de...

although she very nice la..

then zhu still keep laughing at me!!!!

i started calling for my mummy.. then he say my future mummy outside...

-_-"

oh well... in the end zhu make me take cab home...

today was quite horrible for me...

i almost wanted to break with him...

thinking abt it now i muz be out of my mind...

but i really dun wanna see him always so upset over me...

haiz...

juz gimmi some time... i promise i will be fine...

itz juz that my o's are coming.. and u are going NS... and so many ppl is expecting me to do well.. i dun wanna let them down... budden i dun think i can do well either... i juz feel so helpless in so many things... i nv lack so much confidence in myself b4... i'm so sorry...

i juz wan to... let everything go...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:57 PM

Day 8

this chocolate has a super elaborated design on it...

the thing sticking out is some sticky chewy chocolate... hehe... very nice wor... hmmm... haiz..

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:47 PM

Friday, October 20, 2006

Day 7

after yesterday's fiasco i decided to play safe...

milk chocolate... will nv go wrong with that...

the side abit broken off... =( but still taste great!!! hehe

hmmm... surprised zhu read my blog... u shouldnt read!!! make me sound lyk i so despo lyk that... NOOOOOO!!!!!

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:04 PM

Day 7

after yesterday's fiasco i decided to play safe...

milk chocolate... will nv go wrong with that...

the side abit broken off... =( but still taste great!!! hehe

hmmm... surprised zhu read my blog... u shouldnt read!!! make me sound lyk i so despo lyk that... NOOOOOO!!!!!

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:04 PM

My Day Today

had my o lvl science practical today...

not too bad la...

first time i do a ppr and have confidence that wun do TOO badly...

budden karen say her physics "wan dan le!"

then i how???

i was super stressed this morning...

somemore suay suay this morn tio my period...

and i usually dun have cramps de... very rarely get cramps... and when i do they are super bad...

then oso damn suay... got super duper bad cramps today... SO SAD!!!!!

haiz...

after that i went to zhu's hse... cuz i bought something nice nice sweet and cute...

hehe...

nice ribbon
nice box
sweet marshmallow
cute coin bank

hehe...

actually i wanted to juz give him the stuff then go le...

then he ask me go in...

he tired ma... then sleep lo.... i juz wanna pass him the present only ma...

then he insisted... so i go in lo...

then after that he say wanna send me home..

i say i go home alone...

then he ask his mum if he should send me home...

then his mum say he should...

argh!

i noe he dun lyk the long long trip home from my house to back to his house... thats why dun wan him send me home ma... then he gimmi money ask me take cab...

WASTE MONEY!!!!!

argh...

then in the end i take cab home alone lo...

and he now playing ball with his fren...

sianz

and got this gal sms him say wan be frens with him...

noe his name and his occupation

haha... super funny... then i help him reply the gal..

i'm horrible

damn tired and sian

so now jolvin darwin and chengwee noe we tgt le...

how very weird... their noeing makes our relationship lyk suddenly becoming reality for me...

why lyk tt lehz?

and zhu and chengwee has decided that that long time ago darwin actually wanted to jio me...

how very funny..

everytime u hold me in ur arms...
i wish time would stop...
so i would foreva remain in ur arm...
and u'll nv let me go...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:39 AM

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Day 6

6 le!!!!

ahhhhh!!!!!

no....

sad....

hmmm... nice wrapper... red! hehe... should taste nice rite? nice wrapper nice taste ma...

woah.... nice smooth chocolate ya??? cant wait to taste! hehe

hmmm... weird tasting liquid that stung my tongue... i tot was liqour... budden liquor where got so damn sweet de... the bottom was some really hard chocolate... i suck the liquid out... SUPER sweet... yuck yuck yuck... SO awful.. got a berry inside... YUCKS!!!!! awful awful awful!!!! lucky i haven eat the chocolate outside... super hard... but super nice chocolate... hehe... lalala... hehe... still nice la... cuz of the chocolate only... =p

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
11:31 AM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Day 5

ok... another day le... sad...

itz a square piece of chocolate... with a weird lump on top... hehe

hehe... turns out that weird lump on top is a nut! a maecadiamia nut... i dunno how to spell lar!!!hehe... budden it got this weird weird salty coating de... slightly saltish only la... the bottom is some weird sweet thing... itz lyk got little bits of caramel pieces... budden the pieces oso lyk sugar lyk that... then itz held together lyk a biscuit lyk that by a yellow coloured chocolate??? haha... cuz taste look an smells lyk chocolate ma... but is yellow colour only... haha...

but itz still very very very nicE!!! but still a piece of weird chocolate...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
8:20 AM

So So So Very Tired

i juz wan this time to pass over...

so much stress and pressure...

i dun wanna do this le!!!

i shouldnt have to place so much pressure on myself... i hate the world...

y muz i feel so damn freaking upset all the time???

i wish this phrase was over

iwish 20 nov will come quickly...

then this will all be over...

headache....

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:36 AM

Whatever

hmmm... last nite my phone suddenly switched off... i din wake up this morn... too lazy to pia cab down to school... shall not go school... i hate my life...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:07 AM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Feeling Inferior...

i hate feeling inferior...

i mean i dun wanna do it...

but i cant help it...

i cant help but compare myself to them...

and i feel so inferior to them all the time...

itz like they noe so much yet i noe nth...

i keep wondering wad will happen...

i feel so stupid...

argh...

today i had a hard time looking for something...

spent abt 30 plus on that thing...

overall today including eating spent near 50 bucks..

i fell so lousy...

and then it made me feel even worse cuz i feel so inadequate...

haiz...

why izzit somethimes u can love someone so much that it hurts
why does love hurt so
i feel so small and insignificant
yet i have no reason to feel this way
putting too much pressure on myself
but so afraid to lose u
nv believed in foreva
u made me believe in foreva
pls dun hurt me

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:10 PM

Day 4

almost the same wrapper as my first chocolate... but this time round not dark chocolate... juz milk

the chocolate... first bite was ok la... but as u ate more it got sweeter and sweeter.. abit too sweet la.. but i think zhu will love it... he loves sweet stuff..

nice wrapper...

so tired... haiz...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:56 AM

Monday, October 16, 2006

Day 3

another chocolate...

hmmm... nice looking...

the side... is in two shades of colour... milk chocolate on top and dark chocolate below i think...

i bit off part of it... there's nuts inside... sry la... my photography skills not that good.. the chocolate was sweet... and the nuts made it crunchy... the taste of the chocolate melting in ur mouth with the little bits of nuts was heavenly... not too sweet... not too bitter de..

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
8:53 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Day 2

the second chocolate... 85% dark chocolate wor!!!!

the chocolate... ate it... first taste was nice... bitter enough.... budden at the last bite... OMG.... TOO bitter!!! but still... not bad la... even though 85% was too much for me..the 50% one yesterday was much nicer...

the full wrapper... quite nice looking...

tml...

another chocolate...

another day...

haiz...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:18 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

i noe i am very foolish for doing this... but wadeva makes me happy ya?

Day 1

i ate the first piece of chocolate zhu gave me today...

nice wrapper ya?

chocolate... even nicer... tastes wonderful... totally melts in ur mouth...

the full wrapper...

i wanted to keep the wrapper de... budden decided it was too ma fan... to i took pics of it..

i really cant bear to eat the rest of the chocolates... cuz when they finish zhu will be in NS!!!!

sobz...

please... i noe i am being very childish... FORGIVE ME!!!

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
9:37 AM

Today What I Did

today went to study with szeyan... she say go school study... i din wan.... in the end we went to macdonald's near the kallang stadium

hahahaa... us at mac! hehe.. i think my smile got the Da Chang Jin de gan jue... haha.. thats y i put this pic up... otherwise i think i look damn ugly... my face damn lopsided can... eeeeeeee...

then we went to KFC for their Cheezito Pocketto and Cheesy Popcorn Chicken and Cheesy Fries...

sadly the Cheezito Pocketto got tomatoes!!! and lettues...

i not happy

i pick them all out..

and mash them up..

this was how they looked lyk after i was done with them...

us at KFC....

once again i look very ugly... awful hair...

i realised me and szeyan was wearing almost identical shoes! hehe

hehe... our legs so fat!!! and my legs are so badly scarred....

one more thing... it feels weird to noe that darwin and chengwee noe that i'm with issac... talk to jolvin yesterday... dun think he noes yet... haha... and today tlaked to darwin... he asked me abt issac... wad a weird question... =p and he say issac sux... hehe... although he said he was juz kidding after that.. haha

thats all... =)

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
8:06 AM

Blah Blah Blah

yesterday...

well i wasnt really sick... juz pon sch tts all...

and i got caught for it... dumb...

and on monday zhu lost his bball match...

i am evil..

cuz i am HAPPY he lost... cuz that means no more injuries for him...

=p

and yesterday i couldnt log on to blogger!!!

angry...

i decided i shall start eating the chocolates zhu gave me...

altogether 14 pieces...

one per day...

on the day i eat the last one zhu shall go NS le...

SOBZ....

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sobz sobz (there is actually 100 rows and 10 words in each row... hehe)

anyway....

i dunno...

i forgot wad i wanted to say after all the alots....

rmb le then i blog again...

=p

and today is friday the 13th...

yikes!

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:24 AM

Friday, October 13, 2006

Sick....

din go school today... tired..

i really dun understand wad i did wrong... hating the world...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:56 AM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

My Charmed Life

actually... to be really honest with myself...

i think i should stop being so fussy...

cuz seriously... i think i had a really good life...

there were ups in my life... and downs...

lots of downs...

but honestly... there were more ups than down...

i noe at least a few million ppl will tell me i got a good life...
(includes is poor ppl in the 3rd world country =X)

but thats besides the point....

point is...

MY LIFE HAS BEEN GOOD!!!!

from how i have got many many frens...

to how when i nv do my work and get away with it time and again...

i already lost count the number of times i din do my hw and the teacher decided not to go thru the stuff that day or the teacher did not pursue the fact that i din do my work...

and i noe i haev been very lucky in my life...

i should be happy...

i can almost always get wad i wan...

not cuz i can charm the pants off anyone...

but the fact that ppl are almost always nice to me and i can get my way...

i have never really known hardship..

my life has almost always gone my way...

i am instinctive abt lots of things...

and i usually get them rite...

SO I SHOULD STOP COMPLAINING!!!

actually that the point of my post...

that i should stop complaining...

this is the most self obsessed post ever... -_-"'

anyway...

PICTURES!!!!!

the three stuffed toys i got from 7-11

first up is.........................

kiki!!!! itz the toy jocelyn gave me!!!! haha... cute!

next is.................

bluey!!! the elephant that szeyan wanted... but cuz i am so selfish i dun wan give her... budden after that she say she dun wan le!!!! not my fault kkz?