Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Someone Is Juz As Bored As Mehahaha.... how can anyone tahan everytime go someone's blog to disturb and insult someone so often... i muz say i wouldnt have the endurance la... muz be cuz the person is very bored...
miss my darling carmen so much... =) and my beloved lynn and baby lishi...
hmmm... deardear is so angry with that person... haha... cuz that person say he wanna see my boobs... deardear say i cannot let him seee. haha... dun worry la deardear.. i wun let anyone see it... esp not him... =DDD
hmmm... so boring... lalalala.... and i am thinking of quitting YGM.... sucky sucky sucky.... i shall blog abt y i quitting next time... now i shall go to find my deardear.... lalalala then i wun be bored le.... =)))
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:57 PM
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Hmmm....oh well... lets welcome back my tormentors today.... they seem to have missed me alot... and... since when did my deardear ask for sex from me? next time... if u wanna talk abt this kind of stuff rite? please have more creativity can? and dun disturb my deardear la.... the poor thing scared later i angry with him and was so angry with u...
and i would nv comply to having sex with u hor... stop dreaming....
and i am so freaking bored....
deardear say got a surprise for me.... actually... it seems he accidently let slip abt it... but i cant figure out wad is it....
and the other i saw ryunkiat bryan and alvin at somerset S11... muz be cuz of church la... the other time i oso saw junwei and dennis.... so qi guai.... cuz the 3 of them has the exact same hair style... haha... and the guy... i forgot wads his name..... this Robinson's staff was laughing his head off.... lalala... i'm bored bored bored....
SO DAMN SIAN LA!!!
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:45 AM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Should Stop Blogging...one day he's gonna come and read everything... maybe juz change another blog add or sth
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
4:59 AM
I'm So Damn Hurti feel so indignant abt it... after so much time and effort he thinks i dun care.... and that hurts me so much.... ya... i went out with my frens... but b4 i went over to ur house i wanted to buy better bandages for u.... i dun wan u to keep hurting when u remove the bandages.... i gues itz my fault that i am so dumb and couldnt find it.... and that i took so long.... i dunno.... or maybe i'm juz very very very dumb and stupid and idiotic or somthing.... but he din have to hurt me lyk that
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xoxo nikki
4:49 AM
I Shouldnt Have Given A Flying Fuckwhy do i have to care? y do i have to run all over the place looking for bandages that wun stick to ur skin so that when u remove the bandages it wun hurt u... i spent so much time looking for them til it was too late to go ur hse... i guess i was juz too dumb... and now u say i wasnt there for u when u needed me.... in the end i still din find that dumb bandages... and thne i shouldnt have worried so much abt u that i couldnt sleep... i dunno wad did i do all these for.... i dunno for whom did i do all these
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xoxo nikki
4:39 AM
Fucking Get It Out Of Mei'm so irritated and this time blogging cant even get it out of me.... izzit juz me or r we having more disagreements than usual??? fuck la! i dun wann talk abt u anymore... why do i have to keep doing this to myself??? y cant i be lyk some ppl and juz get over with it? y the fuck does it keep playing over and over again in my head? y the hell muz ur mum keep nagging??? y muz she always make me feel inferior when i NOE that fucking hell i'm rite???
i wish i could juz sleep and not think of u... cuz until now i fucking cant go to sleep...
and y the fuck am i using the word fuck so often? y the hell do u alwys bring out the worse in me? i should have juz damn it agreed to go out with them instead of thinking of u and deciding to spend time with u..... next time i should juz fucked up plan my own time for myself without u in mind... cuz everytime i think and plan sth to do.... u are the one that always has sth wrong.... of cuz i wanna meet u... i always do wanna meet u and spend time with u... but sometimes u make me feel so tired that i dun wanna meet u cuz u make me feel lyk itz a hassle for us to meet... and too much trouble to make the effort.... itz lyk u say u wanna meet juz to humor me... juz to keep this little spoilt gal happy... and when i DUn meet u... u make me feel lyk itz my fault cuz i dun wanna meet u...
and now i have fucking no one to go out and i have to damninfly stay in this fucked up hellhole...
and i noe wad u are gonna say.... i ask u to come over le ma
u asked me to go over in such a tired tone... lyk u are juz trying to humor this little kid by giving in to her.... when u are so tired and dun wan to.....
and y the fuck am i complaining so much???
i hate myself... cuz i keep feeling that u deserve someone better.... someone older....
i juz miss u so much...
i wish i could stop crying over spilt milk
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xoxo nikki
3:37 AM
So Fucked Upi juz wanna freaking spend more time with u... am i so fucking wrong????
fuck it...
i juz dun wanna stay at home... dun u get it? i dun wanna stay with a bunch of ppl who tells me they dun give a fuck if i died... or they rather i died than if i came home paralysed cuz they wun fucking look after me...
i sorry i din go look for u yesterday.... i lost track of time... and since it was so late i would have to rush home later.... so i din look for u....
i am so sick of worrying for u... damn it... who cares that ur wound gets infected? that u were in an accident? I NOE.... ur MUM...
who wants to go ur hse anyway? and hear her talk to me in that despising way... i was juz worried that the bandages that were kept for so many years would be dirty k? and ur wound is sich a big patch can u imagine if it got infected? cant she please look at the bandages??? they turned yellow already!!!! and she insist they are clean.... i din even say anything k? and the way she keep asking me to stop u from taking cold drinks and dun eat this dun eat that... lyk itz my fault u eat them... lyk i FORCED u to eat them...
u keep sayign ur wounds dun hurt cuz u dun wan her to worry... and then the way she acts when u wince cuz ur wound hurts is juz so irritating... an idiot would noe that such a damn big wound would hurt can? there's nth wrong with showing that u are hurt wad....
how often izzit that u get so many days of MC? cant i even see u? on the rare days i am not working??? cuz every weekend u are out i got to work.... today i off and u MC... cant i even see u? i dunno wad the fuck is happening... ya wadeva.... u ask me why last nite i cant sleep? i keep thinking how are u? is ur wound alrite? can u clean ur wound urself?
i guess i am juz dumb to keep myself awake worrying abt u.... thinking that i can see u today....
my fault.... i shouldnt have been so fucking dumb...
Y THE FUCKING HELL SHOULD I CARE ANYWAY????
y am i giving a fuck anyway? u dun wan me to care wad...
i'm so pissed off and i dunno wad to do to get this fucking irritating damned feeling out off me....
juz damn me.... fuck it la
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:04 AM
Monday, January 22, 2007
Working Better Than Studying???ok la... wad i feel is that working is easier lehz.... or maybe is juz my job la... budden this is really much easier lo... cuz studying.... can nv finish studying... go home still muz study... the time taken for studies nv end de... but for working as a sales promoter rite? everyday go work... then finish work and thats all... u dun have to think abt work all the time... work is only the hours u are working... off the hours u are free to do wadeva u wan... and u get paid for doing it lehz.... so i shall declare that working is better than studying... lalala... =p regardless of wad those adults say....
and hor... SJ chung cheng is going to get airbourne to teach them skating for NYAA.... then i was asking deardear if i can go oso.... haha... TO TEACH!!! wahaha... then their skating will all suck lyk mine.... hehe... then hor...deardear say can lehz... for the first 2 lessons... so bad rite... =(
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xoxo nikki
4:21 AM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
You Are... IMPOSSIBLEjuz becuz i noe some nicer guys out there doesnt mean they lyk me ok? why cant a guy walk a gal home? lyk so many guys do that la... they all lyk me? wenjie... tidus... chris... and ur very own bf walk me home b4... they all lyk me????
*faint*and anyway... i decided when i finish work.... i shall do a post.... dedicated to awful customers...
Close Encounters Of The Awful Kindsounds nice.... i'm not saying that they are bad... i'm juz saying that i dun wan to be lyk them... and that post will serve to remind me to not be a awful customer to the promoter...
Even though customers are always right, they should understand that promoters know best.
went out with carmen today to get her school stationary... i kinda forgot how to spell that word.... nvm.... and i bought a v cute pencil case that says "hand over the chocolates and no one gets hurt" haha... and carmen got a bag that totally matches my phone... my NEW phone... 7390.... nice nice nice... 3mp cam... sound quality not bad... is CLEAR lo... so happy... i'm gonna get that bag too... wahaha... then i will have the same pencil box and bag as my darling... hahaha
rite... i shall go watch tv le... soOooOooo long nv watch tv... lalala...
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xoxo nikki
1:40 PM
Friday, January 05, 2007
Max I-Dunno-Wadhaha... i forgot the name of the place... is at esplanade.... and it sells almost nth but chocolate... and itz damn nice!!!! chris brought me there.... then the me chris and sean spent lyk dunno how long reading the menu trying to decide lyk wad to order cuz everything juz sounds so nice lehz... haha... anyway... thats the only highlight of my day cuz the rest i was juz working...
oh... and tidus went off to korea le... he promised to buy chocolates and a big cute present for me... i cant wait... hope he keeps his promise.... off to sleep le... tired....
i miss my dear dear so much lehz...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:30 PM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
In A Rutitz been a damn long time since i last blogged really miss blogging... anyaway... for the record... Puva is no longer with us... gone to dunno where le... and... i got 3 new partners... permanent workers Auntie Annie and Michael... and a part timers lyk me Tidus Low Wei Xian... i think he's got a nice name lehz... haha... hmm... he work from erm... 28 dec? today he's last day...hmmm... tml he going korea.... i asked him to buy me sth cute... haha... he say buy a pig for me... and that i look lyk a pig.... =( and... hmm... he lost a bet to me... owe me lots of chocolates... wahaha... hahha
my life's in a rut.... everyday go work... go home... sleep... go work... go home... sleep.... aint it boring?
hmmm... miss dear dear alot... the last week was his block leave.... but cannot meet him... cuz of my work.... sad..... and i changed my phone le.... now is 7390... happy lehz.... got good camera... can take lots of nice nice pics with dear dear.... haha... and deardear is jealous of someone... aiya... trust me that he dun lyk me de la... i where got so you mei li... he juz treat me lyk his sis lyk tt de.... i oso dun noe him for long... how can he lyk me lehz? so my dearest baobei.... dun lyk tt de.... anyway.... thanks alot for sending me to work... i noe u dun really wanted to go... budden still pei me go... thanks wor.... juz so can spend mre time with u and see u more often ma... really miss ya lots..
2 incidents happened during these time that i din blog... sth not so nice... sth not so sweet.... sth i wish wun happen again... sth i will nv allow to happen...its juz that itz so much harder now....
one more thing... they always say how NS men worry that their gf will run away.... actually i realised itz not exactly easy for the gals oso u noe.... but i shant say more....
deardear... these 2 years will pass quickly and b4 u noe it it will be over le... rmb ur promise u to me... rmb wad we hope to fufil by 2015....
and speaking of 2015 my dear gals... u noe who u r la... how can i address u as nursings now that most of us are no longer in SJ? 01 01 2015 dun forget hor.... at wherever CCHMS may be at that time.... we haven gone out for a long time le.... we keep sayignt hat we muz all go out tgt since sec1... but til now that we are no longer in CCHMS we haven gone out yet lehz.... if anyone of u still reading my blog jio me out someday ba... i sure make time for u de...
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xoxo nikki
3:10 AM
