Thursday, August 31, 2006

Oh Shucks..............

me at home now!!!! hehe supposed to study chem but abit slacking la... haha... me slightly bored... hmmm... yesterday talk to ahroy... wa..... talk to him i gek sim arh.... my that glass!!!! argh... nvm... i going to get another one done later... lalalalalala.... i no money le... cry.... =( it seems that my sqaud always got communication breakdown de... so diao lo.... ahroy say he hope everyone will be there... then i say i ask guan if can monday la... cuz sunday louisa's bdae ma... then she most prob wun go de... then... i dunno la... then wen jie say no matter wad day he oso cannot go de... sian sian sian sian sian... bleahx.... i shall stop blogging and start studying... going to school at 10 to study chem.... blah...

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xoxo nikki
12:17 AM

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Oh No....

i juz read my post yesterday... and i was shocked by wad i wrote... oops.... cuz my mum juz scolded me and i typed that... then is lyk was still very angry... so sorry... lucky my mum dun noe i have got a blog... shag... anyway today got prelims... compo.... argh... both languages did very badly... lyk... i think the story line is alrite... not too bad... but i juz wasnt really in the mood to rite lo... then everythign was crap... i think nv really emphasize on the feelings part... otherwise would be nice... anyway for the chinese compo... is write abt u going to some event organized for the cancer patients then u join to give support to the children with cancer... adn then u shaved ur head for the patients who are bald due to their chemo treatment... or izzit the radiotherapy that cuz it? dunno la... they are bald thats it... then u shave ur head too as a kind of way to support them... everyone is clapping for u but u cried... describe ur feelings then... i was actualyl tempted to rite that i cried cuz everyone tot i shaved my head for the patients budden truth is cuz i found out i got lice thats why i shaved my hair off... haha... then everyone was mistaken and even clap for me and treat me so nice then i feel paiseh dunno wad to say lo... cuz they say everyone clapping BUT u cried... ya lo... budden they oso got say u shaved cuz of the patients then if i rite lyk tt abit wen bu tui ti... lyk diff from the qestion le ma... so nv lo... haha... otherwise rite... my compo's gonna be so memorable to the marker... haha... lalalala.... who's gonna jio me out on thurs? poor me... darling is working and i am left alone!!!!!! dun think going back to changkat.... cuz qianhui say the teachers got dinner after the celebrations... how how how.... everyone going back to primary sch... me how???? die la.... sad...

miscommunication again???? is there sth wrong with my sj platoon? how come always got this kind of thing de... so diao... so when exactly is the dinner? and how come the GOH dunno got dinner de.. ahroy dun even noe got dinner lo...

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xoxo nikki
8:26 AM

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

How Dare You

how dare u slap me and say its my fault... how dare you say i show u attitude when i din? u talk to me i still smile at u called attitude? how dare you say i was stupid to bring it home... how dare you say i was dumb to leave it on the floor... how dare you say that my room is part of ur hse and i got no rite to do anything in it... the only regret i have in my life is that i am ur daughter... the perosn i hate most is myself... u noe why? cuz for life i am indebted to u for giving me my life... but come to think abt it... u cursed my mother... cursing urself? with that disgusting ego of urs i dun think u can do it.... so maybe i am not ur daughter? i'll be so happy... and so fuck u... i dun give a damn if u are my mum or not... i din do anything wrong and despite being so pissed i smiled at u and said i dun wan dinner... not hungry now... u got no rite to do this to... mother or not... to hell with filial piety... heck to the gods who uphold them... u noe wad? so wad if i cursed my mum.... she cursed me too for goddamned sake... wad? u gonna strike me down? firstly i dun believe in u wad can u do? secondly... i dun gve a damn... kill me then... wth.... in my entire fucking life there is only a handful of people who so far who i love and hasnt disappointed me yet.. YET! only yet... sadly these ppl dun incule 3 of the most impt ppl to me... so ya... fuck it i say...

I DUN GIVE A FUCK.

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xoxo nikki
8:35 AM

Stunned

oh man... when i got home mummy tell me she broke the cup i bought for ahroy!!!! argh... that stupid glass with sand figurine and jelly inside cost me 18 bucks la.... of which i was so unwilling to part with rite... budden for my mentor of 4 years i did la... and she broke it!!! argh.... and i juz went to buy a nice ribbon and wrapper for it... wth... worse.... she say is my fault i put on the floor.. i was scared she or my bro go in my room and accidently hit it so it drop on the floor then i put on the floor lo... then lyk... wth... i cleared the area around the cup so that it is very obvious on the floor lo... lyk... an island of neatness amidst an ocean of mess la... then she say wad carefully pick it up then it drop and it break... so easy drop arh... wth... i took the cup to a very crowded Pasta Mania with me to eat... took a 45 mins bus trip with it home on a crowded bus.... hugged and kissed my bf with it... AND IT DIDNT BREAK!!!!! how careful can u be???? and further more the whole thing is lyk shatter la... is drop from high place lo... my fault? or maybe is she kick it one lo... wth... i dun care whether accident or not la... but its not my fault it broke lo... u dun blame me can? i totally din noe wad to say lo... i am lyk at a loss of wad to do... i even asked royston when he free i pass him a present!!!! and now wad am i going to give him? i blew my money on that thing la... left with only 4 bucks of which 2.90 went into the ribbon and the wrapper... i dun have money le lo... if not for my darling... now got to use my own money to buy another present... and have to fork out money again for the dinner with him... damn shag la... wad i am most pek chek abt is she say is not her fault is mine for putting it on the floor... budden that time i put a crystal pig my fren gave me on my dressing table... then she accidently swept it onto the floor... my table so big i put inside she oso can find things on my table and sweep it to the floor... i really dunno wad to say le lo... now i put on the floor then she say cuz i put on the floor she wan pick it up then drop it... lyk tt my fault.... argh.... i am lyk damn sad la.... haiz... wth... i feel so.... so bu fu lo... how can she say is MY FAULT????? in wad way is it my fault? why muz everything be my fault... i got a present to make for darling... but i dun even feel lyk making it le lo... in case she somehow destroys it... ARGH!!!!!!! so pek chek... that time make a wax hand for my mum then my bro oso break it... wad kind of hse is this man? why cant they juz keep out of my room and leave my stuff alone? or are they on a quest to break everything breakable in my room? if they are well then they are doing a damn good job of it... and that stupid present for ahroy is not a cup... is a champagne flute... i din even get to take a picture of it!!! and she juz threw it away lo... wth... i am still damn pek chek...

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xoxo nikki
7:58 AM

Monday, August 28, 2006

Erm.......

today was a total shag day.... why? cuz first thing in the morn i got so pissed!!!! argh... budden after that ok le la... anyway... i am lyk totally tired... soem bastard got himself a concussion.... hope that idiot dun become more stupid hor... he's dumb enough... sian-ed... totally... hmmm... sept 2 got dinner with ahroy.... haish... lazy me dun feel lyk going... next week hils le... so happy... hmmm... days passing by.... hope they are slow... hope they go fast... i am rambling.... zzzzzzzzzzzz..... i shouldnt blog anymore le lo... cuz some fat pig say he read le will get wrong idea de... =p maybe i really should blog le... anyway.... irritating ppl keep posting dumb stuff on my tagboard....

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xoxo nikki
11:15 AM

Saturday, August 26, 2006

1 Hour Sleep

i am friggin tired can? got lyk 1 hour of sleep last nite... supposed to sleep early lo... at abt 9 plus lyk tt.... i juz switched off my lights and lie on my bed... then fei zhu called me... ok la... my darling call me is ok lo.... then we talk.... til abt 10 plus... once again i switch off my lights and lie on my bed... then someone called me... both times is juz nice lie down le phone ring... so diao lo... then dumbshit say wad the guy she was so crazy abt that time now lyk another gal.... after she tried so hard to get close to him he treat her lyk a close fren only... pek chek lo... then make me talkt o her til 4 plus... FOUR PLUS lehz... she my wad... aiyo... i 5.30 wake up go school de lehz... damn shag... and stop complaining i keep singing can? i noe my singing not nice la... budden rather we got that awkward silence between us meh? u dun talk i sing lo... this is called self entertainment... or wait for u entertain me arh... i think i tkk oso dun have arh... anyway i am so swearing off pasta mania.... this time wanna eat i call for delivery... staff there are much too scary.... keep cleaning windows beside u while u eat.... later the cleaning liquid get into ur food how? damn pissed and sleepy... tml going to skate... hmmm... need to face up to reality soon la.... i oso very pek chek i spent 30h and $100 still cant skate... wtf... and my bf is skating instructor? i need a hole to hide myself... and i wish the irritating ppl will juz shuddup... y dun u brainless nth better to do scums go fuck urself?

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pls dun say i am vulgar.... i need a way to vent my anger... damn pissed with someone... i am so not at fault!!!! argh... disappointed in u... u will nv noe my hurt... damn u bitch..

anyway... i got a little sth for royston... a little bo liao farewell present that din exactly come cheap to a student lyk me who has $5 per day for pocket money k... but the all time record is still held by the fat pig... =x

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xoxo nikki
11:57 AM

Friday, August 25, 2006

Long Time No Blog

hmmm... last few days nth to talk abt... come home late... cannot use the computer lo... juz go study with sze yan... then yesterday got sth to blog abt de... budden i couldnt log on the blogger... sad... haha... anyway yesterday i tempted fate... and i lost!!! argh....

first... got a guy sms me... dunno wads his name... hl teck or sth.. weird name... anyway... apparantly he noes me... say either i gave him my number or his fren gave it to him... then lyk... i definitely didnt give him my number lo... muz be he took from someone de... then he ask if i got bf... i say have la.... then he was lyk then we better stop sms... he said things lyk ask ur bf treat u nicer later ppl snatch u away... then i say my bf treat me very nice le... then he say he wil treat me nicer... i was totally lyk dots.... then he say i sound lyk a nice gal he will probably lyk me.... so diao la... i say got so easy lyk one meh? then he say we dun sms le la... cuz sms le oso cannot chase.... dumb guy... he ask me if my bf same school as me... then i say my bf 4 years older hor.... then he say i oso give my bf my number one... i was lyk... wtf???? he make me sound lyk i damn despo or sth can? which i am so not la... my bf is my inline skating instructor for a course i attended for 30 hours and whom i later kept in touch with and went out with 4 months later... so juz shut ur trap la...

hmmm... next... went pasta mania... dave... was jzu wondering y his sudden dissappearance.... then stupidly sms him... then suddenly appeared behind... so diao... me and carmen came up with save the pasta game... cuz lyk dave keep cleaning the window next to us... then i was lyk damn scared that the cleaning liquid will get into my pasta lo... haha... then carmen was lyk can play xbox or handphone game... haha... press 2,4,6,8 to move the hand up down left rite to blokc the cleaning liquid from getting into the pasta... press 5 to grab the liquid when there's a chance to win the game... haha... so lame...lynn is disgusted with dave and thinks he looks lecherous... haha... i agree!!!! hehe

some fat pig say wanna close down the blog... -_0"'

i dun wan do compo le.... itz driving me crazy!!!!!!!!!!

i missed my blog... and my darling... xp

itz fine if u dun lyk me... dun have to be so vocal abt it de... i feel blessed not knowing... cuz it upsets me a lot to see that there are some really dumb ppl out there who use my name and pretend to be me in such a damn obvious way showing that they are so not me...

and i cant stand u!!! i cant believe that there are guys who can be so bitchy... u are lyk.... even bitchier than so many gals... u should be proud that ur tongue is sharper than gals... cuz that juz so that u are more of a shrew than they are.... u should be embarrassed to be a shrew and so un-gentlemently to not give in to a gal...

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xoxo nikki
12:27 PM

Monday, August 21, 2006

Not At Home

oh... hmmm... not at home rite now... kinda bored... nth to do... no one to talk to cuz some pig is sleeping lyk a pig... and then some ppl are juz ignoring me.... feeling really sleepy... but cant get to sleep... kept wondering if i did the rite thing... maybe i was wong lehz... i dunno la... there are so many thigns that i could do in so many other ways... i guess on some points i am juz lyk real dumb or sth... haiz... anyway... wads done is done... cannot change le lo.... maybe if time were to turn back i would have done it differently... but time wun turn back... there is no way to do it differenetly... i'll juz have to live with the mistake i made ba... budden... i wasnt wrong alone in this... i dunno la... somehow i feel its my fault... budden i myself cannot make that happen wad... i mean u noe karma? the way things turn out? there is always a force pushing it ma... if that thing did not happen in the first place i wun have made the mistake i made lo... or am i juz trying to find an excuse for myself? giving myself a real headache thinking abt it... and after wearing my contact lens for so long and sleeping with it in my eye i oso got headachele... so tired... dun wad to do lo... founf out qian hui is in the same primary sch as me... AMAZING... god i am freaking bored...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
9:33 AM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Pissed Off

some idiot used my name to ask my faifai go die!!! argh.... evil bastard.... hate u.... u freaking hellspawn... anyway... lucky faifai din believe u... spent my last few days sleeping lyk a pig... too lazy to blog... hmmm... i'm a lazy bum lyk u always call me... still wan me? i still wan u not matter how blur u r kkz.... haha... love ya... anyway now u play ur bball take care wor... good luck... muz take good good good care of urself hor.... dun get any more bruises and ur legs and cuts on ur chin le k? and ur back hurt so be careful and ur knee.... gosh... i becoming so naggy!!! die die die.... should stop nagging le.. lalala.... my lips cracked... so painful!!! ouch... so sad.... got sore throat... wads wrongwith me lehz... recently keep getting sick.... muz be the exam stress... haha... got so many pimples oso!!! argh... ugly me... ate maggie mee juz now.... haha... so sian.... i am bored!!! miss all my darlings... lynn... lishi... amanda... louisa.... rujin... jean.... faifai.... carmen... huilin.... jess..... ken.... zen.... kel.... think i got everyone.... oh ya... my beloved kor kor wenjie... hahahahahhahhahhaha.... supposed to go out with him today but lazy me went to sleep... very long never talk to alot of ppl.... alvin sha... weien... jasmine... jojo... esp ali... my foreva love alicia.... miss her so much!!!! go jc le jiu nv talk to me!! at lest meiying got sim.... got talk to me... budden.... is abt something i dun lyk to talk abt...!!! him! and i osovery long nv talk to him le... wadeva... my carmen got hand foot mouth disease... oh no! miss my les partner so much..... i still hug her the other day.... when she got fever... haha... aiya.... this post is crap... lalalalala

hmmm... honestly i am afraid... very afraid... wadeva thats gonna happen i hope it's wad i wan... becuz i dun ever wan this wonderful dream to end... i'll never forget how it start... if one day i have to wake up... i hope i wun feel the tears on my face...

i hope that u guys will be happliy ever after... best wishes...

loving u lots and lots.. get well soon darls...

my path to my utopia is lined with chocolate, marshmallow and pig...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:45 AM

Friday, August 18, 2006

Sleepy

wasnt intending to blog today... too sleepy le.... anytime i am going to fall asleep typing halfway.... so tired... i oso dunno why... argh.... i haven do lots of stuff yet... so many things i need to do but have not done... hmmm.... gonna love my faifai every nite... cuz he say my boiboi love me int he morning then he take the nite... haha... wondering.... u dun update ur blog maybe i should stop too.... hehe.... every post that u put up i shall put oe too.... se if u will start blogging again..... yesterday is u blur lo... i nv make fun of u lehz... argh.... i cannot make it le.... gotta sleep.... i need sleep....

Will you still love me in the morning?

Forever and ever Babe

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:35 AM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Fuck You Bastard

u noe wad... seriously now i hate u.... hate u so so so much u noe..... cuz u hurt me.... and hurt so many of my frens.... u now with her better treat her good.... i tell u.... otherwise i will skin ur damned body with u alive.... dun ever let me noe u hurt her a second time or i will fuck u upside down and screw the fuck out of u.... u fake egoistic lying no brained bastard....... how many of my frens are u still going to hurt? u better treat her well or fuck u ur gonna get it from me man.... she's so innocent la.... maybe she din love u lyk she did or i used to.... but dammit she oso got feelings de lo.... u lyk tt treat her.... be with her then lyk tt treat her.... argh! u are such a jerk!!!! u dun deserve her lo... budden since she lyk u i got nth to say!!! but be nice.... otherwise i wun be nice too....

u FUCKING ARSEHOLE

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:20 PM

Missing You

oh no.... god i miss u so much... should stop thinking abt u so much... its driving me crazy... nonononono... anyway u said u were going to update ur blog..... but being the pig that u r u din.... =p haha... hmmm.... bring ur dar to wadeva outing it is??? haha.... its damn funny lo..... ur fren's gonna wonder y u calling ur gal fren dardar.... haha... lyk all my frens did when i called him tt... lalalala.... time flies and ahroy going to NS in 23 days ler..... gonna miss him???? i think so.... going to xiang lian him sending me all those nice nice songs and pei me talking on the phone til late into the nite when i cannot sleep... going to miss his ugly hair.... white skin... irritatingness and all the things i hate and love abt him.... no more he complain to me everytime abt how i nv give him is farewell party.... and no more i complain to him abt sj!!! gonna so xiang lian him when he go NS... hmmm.... my love/hate relationship with ahroy i hope wun be over when he go into NS.... i nv fail to say at least once in a month that i hate him and nv wanna talk to him again.... but somehow i always still do... haha...he's the best and the worse senior to have lo.... the best officer to have in the corp.... the best trainer but not the best liked one... crazy antics will nv be forgotten..... Nemo..... Dory.... the pumping on the road outside the CCA block now the innovation centre... Nitec.... the '05 POP... the time he left us to fend for ourselves.... the time he stood up for us... the steamboat..... the time we spent at nite talking.... how he insulted me a year ago... my Long Pa Pa.... the guy who made the video.... the time i spent trying to get more posts on the forum... how he kept asking me to stop spammingt he forum... comp training this year.... how he came back for us... the time he LIED to me... cheated my feelings... hurt me deeply.... make me hate him.... how he keep teasing me... adri... most imptly... how he introduced us to Airbourne Skate Hub for our NYAA Physical Recreation.... =)

i make it sound lyk he's dying or sth.... haha... CHILL GAL!!! he's only going to NS.... not leaving u foreva la.... haha

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xoxo nikki
11:20 AM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Wondering... Thinking... Comtemplating...

hmmm... me should trust u rite... but how come i feel u dun deserve my trust lehz... i think u are lying!!! how can lyk tt? lie to me? y..... u noe i am so fucking sick of these lies? i am juz wondering when is it going to end? lyk goddamn u and juz fuck out of my life... seriously... i dun need ppl lyk u in my life to hurt me more u noe... i think my life is messed up as it is... and thats enough lo... juz... FUCK OFF!!!! argh..... ur driving me crazy.... pissed off... u noe how long i nv used the word fuck? how long i nv cursed someone lyk tt? ahhhh.... juz get lost lar... u are messing up my already messed up life... u noe wad... i am not going to let u take away the one other thing important to me le kkz? argh.... irritated freaked up argh... u no life loser!!!! argh!!!!

okok... i think tt was crazy... lalalala.... feeling much better le lar... shouldnt let insignificant ppl lyk tt ruin my life.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:51 AM

Monday, August 14, 2006

Birthday

hmmm... went blog surfing... proved how bored i am... anyway... after this i am seriously ogingt o start studying... gonna lock my self in my room... b4 that.... hmm... i saw huan yuet's blog... did i see wrong or am i born on the same day as her??? juz that she is one year older... haha... hmmm... y lyk so many of my frens got ppl born same day as them i dun have.... =( haha... lyk u noe she's the first perosn i noe to have to same bdae as me... anyway... muz thanks dardar for the promise he gave me... hmmm... dun break ur promise to me hor... haha... hmmm... broken promises sux... hmmm... this year my bdae is most prob not goingt o be very fun... am i sad... of cuz... cuz after my bdae fei zhu going to NS le... then... o's gonna come le... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..... this year total not looking forward to my bdae...

Promises are not meant to be broken...
REMEMBER THAT

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xoxo nikki
7:01 AM

I'm Jealous

haha... i am soooo jealous... but shant say abt wad... go guess urself... argh... sometimes i wonder lo... wads the point... i think.... i am too crazy for my own good sia.. i hate planning... becuz sth can still always go wrong even for the best laid plans... its not fair... honestly... wad is there for me to be pissed abt la... nth.... maybe lyk wad they say i am suffering from depression... *gasp* zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...... last nite went to watch fireworks with ken jess jojo kel and js.... was nice nice nice.... haha... then after that... go to ken's hse... swim in the dark.... so cold and scary lo... eeeeeeeeeee.... then that dumb kelvin still go scare me... swim under me and grab my legs... and drag me under water summore... argh... freak me out lo.... then we play somemore then go watch dvds in ken's "theater" haha... eat popcorn! and nachos!!! my fave nachos... haha... lucky i din eat the popcorn.... think ken added too much salt... haha.... poor jess looks lyk her tongue is very parched... we watched so many movies lo... ahha... ok la... not much 3 only... then was abt 4plus in the morning le... then jess and me insisted on watching the powerpuff gals as the last movie... haha... then the guys gave in to us lo... then.... ahha... we alll fell asleep watching it halfway... ahha... then when i wake up at abt 6 plus they all playing majong... at least the guys were la... jess still sleeping... hmmm... sianz lo... haha... i dunno how to play mj... or not very well la... haha... noe the rules... noe how to watch... cannot play... haha... zzzzzzzzzzz.... anyway... in the end i was lyk... whoever i was watching at the point of time won... haha... the the guys were dragging me around asking me to stand next to them... so diao... then finally at 10 plus in the morning ken drove me home... haha... i'll nv siwm in the dark again... haha... and jess asked me a weird question... ever kissed a guy in the dark in the water??? haha... hmmm... of cuz nv la.... i'm thinking i will be lyk frozen and how to kiss??? then jess went lyk... well... u should be feeling hot when u kiss ma... haha... then i was lyk then the water will start boiling??? haha... sad.... most prob i not going to see them anytime soon le... o's coming... got to study... but i haven start yet!!! hmmm.... better start now then...

loving u and missing u lots and lots... should be going to meet ur fren for the tornament soon ba... have fun...

lalalalala...

Mo Ri Zhi Lian... nice nice nice song... thanks lots and lots to Da Fei Zhu who help me make the ringtone..

twinkle twinkle little star... wondering wad u doing now... how u getting along with her? i hope fine... gotta treat her well ok? dun keep gaming and playing ur bball and neglect her kkz? lemme noe u treat my bao bei badly i'll nv let u see daylight again...

sometimes for no apparant reason u feel lyk crying... hmmm... then... i guess... juz cry? cuz holding back ur tears is a terrible feeling... but if u dun wanna cry... its alrite... i hope i am doing the rite thing

dun thikn this post makes much sense to anyone but me... maybe a month later when i look back at this posti would noe wad it means either... i hope so...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
4:28 AM

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Fireworks

hmmm... kor kor juz asked me pei him go watch fireworks later... haha.... watched le... juz wanna sleep now... haha... sianz... tonite gonna sleep early... tml... i going to sleep in then start studying le... muz pia pia pia le... then finish all my hw thats not done... and... hmmm... and... i dunno la... juz study lots lo... then if next time wanna slack and go out can do it with a peace of mind... argh... not my ear hurts lyk hell sia.... the earhole lyk burning up!!! argh!!! so pain sia... eeeeeeeeeeeee..... dunno wad to say la... juz damn bored now... kor kor going out le.... aiya... muz thank kor kor lots and lots for his chem notes... and physics note... and his endless patience for the question i keep asking him that he feel is nth to him... u smart ma... argh... kor kor ask me if i got bf... oso dunno wad to say... i completely avoided his questions.... haha... then he oso nv notice i give an answer that dun answer his question... later lyk last time he tell my mummy... that time i can go die sia... zzzzzzzzzzzzz... hmmm... thinking.... thinking.... thinking..... of wad i shant say... haha... =p i'm bored... gonna play games... play sian le maybe come crap somemore... hehe

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:36 AM

O Levels

hmmm.... today got o lvl english oral... did damn badly la... feel so sad lo... totally didnt perform... then i short term memory... two parts to question i answer the forst and forgot the second part... wanna jump down the building le... hmm... then got back chinese o's results.. B3.. so lousy!! got distinction for oral lehz... that means if i completed my compo properly will get at least A2 lo... argh... pek chek... i quite long nv blog le... hmmm... recap abit..

er... national day arh... haha.. was a very special.. erm... dunno if i did the rite thing or not lehz... i thik it is rite ba... but i can think of all the ppl who would tell me its wrong...zzzzz... nvm... as long as i happy can le... well... hmmm.. took bus to my grandfather's hse wif my darling fei zhu... supposed to mit my mummy there then watch fireworks with her de... budden... toopid president... cuz of him they close up the road then i cannot reach there on time... then watched the fireworks on the bus with fei zhu... nice nice nice... second time i watched fireworks with him le... the first guy i watch fireworks alone with lehz... hehe... so happy... usually is watch with a bunch of frens de... hehe.. hmmm... then he actually wanna go play bball with his frens de... budden cuz of sending me there he cannot play... SORRY! bu shi gu yi de...

then next day... hmmm... yesterday la.. went to watch My Super Ex-Girlfriend.. not bad la... lame plot.. but the humor is there... haha... imagine having sex and the cuz of the super powers the bed crash thru the wall to ur neighbour's living room... haha.. hmmm... supposed to go skating de... budden we two lazy pigs nv go... haha... in the end go to the office and juz slack there... hmmm... there very hot... on fan le still sweat lyk siao... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..... then go eat bak kut teh... hehe... me very long nv eat le... was nice nice nice... haha.. then i think darling supposed to go play bball with his frens de... budden send me home le so late he nv go again!!! sorry sorry sorry... always cuz of me u nv go play ur bball...

anyway yesterday fei zhu make me so angry!!! hahahaha... he ask me when we got together de... haha... i ask him he noe meh.... then he think think think and gimmi the wrong date!! grrr... hahaha... then he came up with so many funny excuses... haha... dunno to laugh or get angry at him lo... haha... budden its ok la... haha.. if not for the countup timer on my blog here i think i will oso blur de.... haha.. hmmm... these 5 days lyk pass very very very slowly... its lyk foreva... cuz everyday go out... with fei zhu... and juz have fun... hmmm.... not good... o's coming le... prelims coming le... but he going NS soon le... gonna miss him so much...

hmmm.. yesterday supposed to go study with lynn de... then she pangseh me... then i meet with another fren.. budden i pangseh her... oops... hehe... then supposed to watch Helen and the Baby Fox with fei zhu... budden only two places got show... hmmm... then change show to watch lo... hmmm... my blog's becoming so.... i dunno... keep gushing abt him... haha... nvm... 2 more mth i wan say things oso nth to say le...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
9:25 AM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

National Day

happy national day to everyone... hehe... thanks to all the ppl who wishes my happy national day last nite... hehe... even though i din get to sleep properly from 12 to 3 cuz of all the msg-es it was worth it.. hehe... hmmm... staying at home today... now waiting for my da fei zhu to come... hmmm... today muzh better le.. no more fever le.... erm... headache almost gone... flu oso... so happy... budden need to start pia-ing hw le!!! *gasp* so much work not done yet... and so many days nv go sch le... hmmm... tml going to study with lynn... she's in trouble! i got so many things dunno how to do then got to ask her... hehe... so sleepy... i sleep so much le yesterday still sleepy now... yesterdat aft blogging talk abit to royston online then go sleep... all the way til 7 plus my fei zhu sms... zzzzzzzzzz... then at nite nv sleep properly... now wake up very tired le.. haha.. hmm.. i go watch my DVD le... hehe... Just Like Heaven... so nice!!! hehe...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:46 AM

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

National Day Eve

hmmm... nv go school today... sianz la.. stay at home today... then for some reason my heart keep beating very fast... haha... feeling breathless all the time... hmm... talking to u as i blog... erm... wondering am i disturbing u... u tell me u are sick... better take care of urself kkz? hmm... faifai says i will forget him now tt i got a bf... no la.. will always rmb my faifai de.. haha.. go take neos again.. hmm... tired... so tired lo.. wan go sleep... woke up at 6 give him morning call... then couldnt get back to sleep... blocked nose and headache... not so easy to sleep lo.. hmmm... i maybe blog again later tired le...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:44 AM

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

I'm Wrong

okok... so all of u are correct... me is wrong again... so din last til after o's to have a bf... =p sry lo... hehe... added some things to my blog... fun fun fun... today go sch for lyk 3 hours then go home... fever flu headache nausea and gastric pain... ahhh.... stay in class teacher talk so loud make headache worse... so sickbay so frigging cold inside... ten go outside audi so much echos... argh.. headache is not nice... til now still haven eaten yet... sad... feel lyk vomiting all the time scared eat or drink le will really vomit... dun eat dun drink at least nth to vomit out... so tired... for the first time my mummy tell me tml dun go sch le.. cuz she take my temperature was 39.2... newest high... hmm... lucky i sleep for 5 hours le then now only 38.5... whole body aching... changed my phone le... K608i happy... my mummy using my phone now... haha.. happy... so happy..getting a worse headache looking at the com screen... argh... going to sleep le... feeling very terrible...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
9:52 AM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Who I Am...

sometimes i wonder if i turned time back to 8 years ago when i found out that u lied to me... would i be who am i today? perhaps my life would have changed completely.. i would not have been a trusting person if u had failed to lie to me... then wad would my life be lyk? if u... my first best fren were an honest person then i would probably had been an innocent person and continued trusting everyone in my life instead of scruntinizing them carefully b4 trusting anyone at all.. or perhaps it is with the one who forced me to see the truth.. if u had let me carry on my ignorance then i wouldnt have to worry abt ppl hurting me... budden if u haven i would probably have been hurt even more the next time.. karma... how irritating... all the wad ifs... if it had not happened lyk tt... then perhaps i would treat everything in my life as a gamble... and throw so much away... then i would force myself to grow up so quickly... and be so careful in everything... so afraid to make desicions in case it is the wrong one and it would be my fault.. honestly i am so tired... all the perhaps... argh... i am so not satisfied with my life... all the things i could do differently... but honestly wads the point of thinking abt all these? zzzzz... take life as it is ba... no matter how sucky it is its ur life... and there are nice ppl ard who care... loving u all who cared for me... geniune or not u gave me support at the time i needed it...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:03 PM

Issac's Blog

Wat will u do if u hav feelings 4 more den a person at e same time?? who can ans me this question.

If there is chance for u to choose
-e person u love most
-e person who love u most
-e person who u could spent e rest of ur life with
which would ur ans b...

for me... well... the person i love most dun love... then i will rather he be happy and i will not stick myself to him... i mean... at least then we can be frens... otherwise we cannot even be frens even worse rite? the person who loves me most... i wouldnt be with him... cuz i wun wanna hurt him... esp cuz he love me so much... last one? i wun choose that either... it will be lyk having my best fren as my bf... and i wun get a bf anytime soon anyway... haha... kor kor and mei mei will always be together...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:52 AM

Ouch That Hurt!!!

hmmm... headache... spliting headache... argh... so i overslept... nv go sch... wa... actualyl wake up le de.. then go headache so i was lyk... lie abit more... maybe wun headache le... then when i wake up was 10 plus le... uh-oh.. haiz... ms lai going to kao pei again... no mc!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... damn tired... ni ai de bu shi wo... darling i miss u... nv see u today... u got miss me? i miss u... and ur sweets... got save some sweet for me? haha... tml still need go do sj stuff... so dumb lo... for the NYAA silver... zzzzzzzzzz... makes no sense at all... lyk i alreadi passed out then oso not signing on slog so hard for sj still for wad? i dun wan do le!!! when can sj be truly out of my life and i dun have to crack my head and work my ass over it??? til now still doing sj stuff... heart pain arh... gek sim gek sim gek sim... its not worth it lo... work so hard for ppl... only to have them say u wad... irresponsible... cuz last min collect stuff from ppl... wth... u last min give us back our stuff lehz? by july muz hand in the books... then u 31 july give us back ask us edit... tt one not irresponsible arh? u held the books for nearing a month le lo.. very responsible? talk cock... wan critizie ppl think abt urself first lo... u come scold me for nth tt time then still say my fault... my ass arh... go lick other ppl's ass lo... suck their cock maybe? but u so ugly they probably vomit all over u lo... bitch!!! i hate u loads and loads... the more i think abt it the more pissed i feel lo.. argh... evil evil evil woman....

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:02 AM

Friday, August 04, 2006

My Juniors

dun lemme noe u are giving them a bad time k? if not whether i in sj or not i will sure kao pei u de... anyhow scold them? wad kind of senior are u? u give instructions to them then they nv do on time u scold them all til lyk tt? u guys do stupid mistakes we oso nv scold u all til lyk tt... argh... irritated... how can scold them til lyk tt? say we very pamper them? u nv see us scold them then shut ur trap ok? u oso dunno wads happening last time in our training so dun be noisy lo... complain ur training tough... noe how we train last time? was much tougher la... complain so muz... call them cowards if they quit? wad rite u have to call them tt? even NCOs dun have the rite to insult trainees lo... ur squad last time very good meh? they now got 10... u last time lehz... only recently then all come lo.. otherwise last time oso a few only... dun come talk cock can? u think u so good izzit? dun come and fuck la...

some ppl nowadays are so irritating... i think the next person to piss me off will be so suay la... i'll fuck that person upside down and screw the brains out... arseholes

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:32 PM

My Les Partner

to my darling carmen... i'll love u foreva!!! haha we'll freak huilin out with our craziness and all everyone else.. haha... at least till my o's and ur o's is over!!! haha... i'll nv let sean take u away!!! haha... that evil guy will nv have my draling de... NEVER!!! haha... if someone better comes along then can... haha... muackz... haha hmmm.... oh... i forgot abt xueshen... hahah.... oops... i too hua xin le... hehe

oooo... and baby!!! dun sad le kkz? mummy loves u foreva... get a new phone soon hor.. otherwise next time mummy cannot contact u again... hehe... lalala...life rox today! tml not rocking so much le... cant wait for saturday to come... watching CLICK!! hehe

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
11:32 AM

Irritating

how dare u bitch abt me lo... lyk u are the one irritating me in class lo... dun see me arguing with sylvia abt dumb things all the time rite? then i have to endure u kao pei at daryl and zhang chuan all the time lo... 6 weeks le lo... its damn irritating can? and still say i say u... lyk ur evil high pitched voice keeps drilling into my head lo... u lyk more irritating than gals la... its driving me crazy sia... if ur voice lyk daryl's low pitched is better lo... ur voice so high... lyk drill lyk that unrentlessly drillign into me head.... argh! wan ignore oso cannot... i think u noe who u are... bitch abt me somemore la... lets see whose bitchier lo... and being a guy i sincerely hope u dun win me... and dun say i am childish... u are not much better lo...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:57 AM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Weird Feelings

hmmm... how to explain the extremely weird feelins? i keep feeling light headed recently... maybe i am getting sick... hmm... and these weird chest pains i am experiencing... these few days they are juz lyk getting more frequent.... hmmm... they werent so frequent last time... and how can u not believe me that i wil remain til at least after o's dui me so mei you xing xin!!!! how can? muz believe me... haha... hmmm... royston going NS soon... 9/9... haha... 39 more days... issac lehz... slightly later... haha.. 26 oct... 16 days after my bdae!!! royston cannot celebrate my bdae with me le.. haha... he will be in tekong and i will feel his wishes in my heart.. haha.. issac lehz... better get me a bdae present cuz i am getting urs!! soon anyway... i noe it is 2 months and 5 days overdue... haha... actualyl i should pay for the movie as ur present one lo.. then u dun wan... =p my bdae.... not really looking forward to it... cuz it oso means prelims and o's are coming soon!!! feelingt he stress le... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
11:56 AM