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Friday, August 31, 2007


Stressed Out

i was so stressed yesterday i couldnt sleep... and when i did... my dreams were all abt work.... i'm going crazy.... how can they make me do closing alone? my first week only lehz... and my thrid time doing closing.... how can they let me do it alone? thats crazy la... plus stupid customers and stupid managers.... all fucked up....

intense headache... i cant wait for the weekend to come... i miss baby so much....

gotta do closing again today.... haiz...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:19 AM

Wednesday, August 29, 2007


Buying Stuff

ok i have juz spend a 3 digit amt of money on clothes... itz damn sinful... and hor... i haven even get my pay yet and i'm spending nearly all of it off le... haiz...

and alot of then are really nice so i'm lyk... adding more clothes to my already bursting wardrobe of things that i probably wun wear very often.... and i refuse to throw them away too!!! okok... so i gotta pack my room and my wardrobe for the extra clothes i bought.... shucks...

but still.... no regrets there... hehe...

and poor darling gotta do nite pt for his sir for no reason... so dumdum... then he cannot talk to me le... sad... nvm... i'm gonna sleep soon too... tired..

i miss lynn alot and i cant wait to find a day to meet her... and she's rite... y did i out of the blue make myself so busy for nth? when i still have so many things i wanna do? silly dumdum me...

i gotta brace myself for the tiring 10 hour shift tml... pls dun let me find out who the person who is not going... becuz unless he/she has got lyk a perfect excuse or he/she is really super shuai/chio or cute rite... i'm probably gonna kill him/her.... cuz i yesterday work 10 le!!!!!!

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:10 PM

Bless Me

omfg.... tml i'm worign double shift again!!!! yesterday was horrible... but tml's gonna be worse!!! lyk... tml is wed... wed would mean more ppl... and i work double cuz someone is not going to work... means i'm gonna go crazy!!!! omfg.....

hmmm... i'm not gonna work weekends le anyway... lucky me... nvm... tml... is wed... so wed oso mean one more day closer to seeing darling... which is a good thing... and silly him din go his blog... and din notice i took something off his blog... and silly u... fancy going to his blog and press that... thats not me la... i'm tired... talking to dear on the phone and not gonna blog anymore

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:36 AM

Super Tiring Day

oh gosh... i missed my laptop so much!!! for the past few days it has been staying at baby's hse... so ya... i missed it... past few days with baby was super happy!!!! i saw a weird gothic couple and a bunch of crazy angmohs! haha... but yesterday wasnt so fun...

yesterday.... i had to work but dear din have to go camp... so sad... i spent the morning with him... and we watched Hairspray! Zac Efron is so cute... haha... and silly me mixed up the time i was supposed to start work...

yesterday was super hectic.... afternoon was still ok... but at nite only me and my shi fu working cuz one person nv go... then left us to manage the crowd... but shi fu got things to do then lyk... only me doing... and i first time have my own counter so lyk super stressed la... and i'm oso very slow... then even the manager muz come out and do box oso...

i first time sit down there til my legs got numb and my butt ache lehz.... then hor... i keep repeating the same until at nite i become dum le... i keep making mistakes cuz i was so tired... but lucky the money nth wrong... they at first say got variance... budden after tt nv say anything so i think it was sorted out... lucky me.... at the end of the day i nearly have no voice le... zzzzzzzz.......

somemore after tt i msg dear and he tell me he got fever.... i tot he very bu dui jing le thne keep asking him anyting wrong then he dun tell me... angry.... then i reached home after lyk forever and juz switched on my com for the sake of it and played some music and went off to sleep... so juz now... i woke up to lyk and overflowing email inbox and blinking msn msges from the very late sleepers and the very early risers....

i miss my darling alot and i hope he's ok... i'm really sleepy cuz i lyk reached home at 12 plus... suppose to go off at 10.15... but so many things to do we can only leave at 11 plus.... i hate doing the closing... super irritatng and boring...

oh well... but i got a super cute shifu... haha... he is very nice... but abit pompous... but he has worked there for lyk so many years... 2 years as a part timer and 5 as full time staff... so crazy... i cant imagine the rest of my life doing this... at least being sales promoter i dun worry abit money... as long as i sell can le... dun sell kanna nag tts all... and i down 19$ tt day!!!... sad...

i am steven's first tudi in ps lehz... haha... he very funny... cuz we muz smile and show at least 8 teeth when we greet... budden he say he can only show 4 cuz otherwise cannot see his eyes... ahaha... alrite.... i'm sleepy again... tml still need to slog somemore... sianz...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:40 AM

Friday, August 24, 2007


First Day of Work

super tired!!!... i juz got home and bathed... omg... today is lyk the worse!!! i worked at the box office... and there is lyk... i dunno... so many things to rmb... and lyk... stupid customers see the trainee badge on me and purposely bully me.... fucking idiots... i hope they all die and go to hell... hmmm... tml i got work... but dear can go home early... saturday i got no work... but dear need go back camp... sunday i got no wrk.... but dear got to work... monday i got work... dear got day off... haiz.... and u noe... sometimes i wish u will trust me more.... or do u think that i'm so fragile? or do u think i'm that petty? y u think they are such a sore topic lehz.... i admit i dun lyk her... becuz i think she is a selfish fucked up bitch... itz doesnt really matter wad u think... i din lyk her form the start and wun lyk her now... but i wish u would be honest wiht me... i'm more petty with u than with others cuz i fucking CARE! sometimes i wish i dun....

i'm glad not many ppl visit my blog... but the numbers do appear to be increasing as the hols draw closer... NOT GOOD!!! the numbers in the two meters are so different...weird...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
4:12 PM

Wednesday, August 22, 2007


Golden Village

wheee!!!

i got a job at gv! so fun! the pay's not very good... 4/h but itz not the pay that i wan so it doesnt really matter... wad matters is the manager say is ok that i dun work weekends but i gotta work on midnight on friday at least... i can live with tt... i juz hope she really wun let me work on weekends and public hols so i can spend the time with darling!!!

COOL!!!

i think they quite need ppl... so.... anyone wans the job too? be my colleague!!! hehe... silly yongjian say wait then maybe he go... aiya... i hope during the hols many many many of my frens come ps to watch movie... then i can say hi!! i'm so childish... nvm...

i start work on thurs!!! cant wait... happy happy happy me... wahaha...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:04 PM

Monday, August 20, 2007


Lies

ok... now is lyk 5am and i cant get to sleep... freaking tired and irritated... but nvm... since i cant sleep i decided to blog abt some mundane stuff that has nth to do with me again... basically abt this gal whom i dunno but i noe she lied...

itz really weird y u decided to lyk... lie abt ur age... lyk really very weird... for some reason la... only u will noe i wouldnt noe... lyk how long are u gonna last with this lie? itz not lyk ur 40 pretending to be 30 or 30 pretending to be 25... i guess u can get away with those cuz lyk... the difference is not tt big in their lifestyle ba...

but.. ur 18 pretending to be 21!!!!! ok... the difference may not be big la... but the thing is... ur gotta study... and wad r u gonna say? wad yr are u gonna study in if ur 21? and the even more weird thing is u lie to ur bf abt ur age too.... and how long do u think this relationship is gonna last? and more imptly... wad if he ask u to watch R21 movies?!?!

i noe i'm being lyk super kpo abt this subject... and i'm terrified that lyk one of those ppl involved will some how find my blog in the way i nv noe how to find... but i really cannot take it lehz... i' really curious... y would u lie anyway???

damn... i'm really kpo... i would actually ask her if i noe her... but i dunno her... and she looks super fierce all the time la! and she even more chao lao than me... she definitely dun look lyk shes only one yr older than me lehz... hahahha.. so shiok... got someone more chao lao than me... i'm evil but happy... haha...

and i really really wanna get a job and eat Popeye Chicken!!! yongjian my jiu xing!!! WHERE ARE U?????

that was very random... but nvm... i should try to slp again... and i'm super glad my blog traffic has remained in the minimum!!! so happy... i guess cuz exam is coming so THAT person wun be viewing my blog often since THAT person always pretend to be the very guai person that THAT person is definitely... evil backstabbing THAT person... hate u!!!! anyway i haven had news from u recently.... so ya... keep outta the way ba... but since ur that bitch is even more kpo than me i bet that bitch encourages u to read my blog ba... ANGRY!!!

and baby.. if u read that part dun ever get jealous kkz?cu zi still love my one and only u... hehe.. not that ur gonna read this anytime soon... haha... i oso need a part time BF!!! i'm deprived... hahahaha... but is actually not that funny...

and i find it very fustrating if ppl dun type smses or blogs or speak in proper english!!! is very fustrating to listen and to read... lyk... u get all ur grammar and verbs wrong... lyk... how to say... the sentance.... but it not funny... it gives a a headache... and thats y aft typing my posts out i nv read them... cuz i'm guilty of that too... i'm going crazy from slp deprivation...

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My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
8:30 PM

Sunday, August 19, 2007


Popeye Chicken

omg... it SO rox!!!!

itz super duper nice can? KFC can lyk juz hide in one corner... today me and baby went to Changi Airport to eat... juz cuz i say i wanna eat... so happy... I LOVE U!!!!

and anyway... cuz i noe they renovated the airport and Popeye Chicken has since moved... but i tot it was still in Terminal 2... we ran abt lyk headless chickens to look for it... AND WE COULDNT FIND IT!!!!

i was SO sad.... so i decided that since we were both not hungry... we shall walk ard the airport... actually it was an excuse for me to continue looking for it... cuz if dardar would sya i was juz being stubborn... haha...but the walking ard very yi si qian qian... haha... but he obliged... hehe...

then for the fun of it... we took the new skytrain!....actually is not very new la... but new to me!!! cuz i nv go there for super long.... we went to Terminal 1...

AND I FOUND MY POPEYE CHICKEN THERE!!!!

i'm so darn happy... itz impossible!!! i love the dun look crispy but super crispy chicken... i love the chunks of i-dunno-wad in the mash potato... i love the slightly sour coleslaw... and i love the crispy and super nice french fries!!!! Popeye Fries!!!

i was SO happy.... my day was perfect... until silly deardear argue with me abt slly signboards... haha... then i refuse to admit i was wrong... and we keep walkign thru and fro until we forgotwad exactly we were bickering abt... haha... and i keep sayign as long as i dun admit i'm wrong i'll always be rite... hahhha... naughty me...

but we muz have looked weird to other ppl... laughing and ignoring each other and walking back and forth at the same place... silly us... haha...

anyone free to go out with me? lets go eat POPEYE CHICKEN!!! wahaha...

mr yong jian!!! i dun treat u fish n co la... i treat u POPEYE CHICKEN!!!! u sure will lyk more de... okok? hahha

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:26 PM

Saturday, August 18, 2007


4 People

YEA! only 4 ppl view my blog yesterday... which means that not many of the undesirables come my blog often! so happie!!! wahaha... =D

nth much to blog abt except that i'm lyk bored out of my mind... going crazy... =(

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:15 AM

Thursday, August 16, 2007


Meters!

Wheee....

i got meters on my blog! haha... and i ambitiously put a FOUR digit counter lehz... wahaha... i've always wanted to noe how many ppl come my blog! wheee! now i will noe... hehe... happy... it doesnt matter if only one digit or 2 digit ppl come in... then i juz change the thing lo... hahaha... happy happy happy... lalala...

oh well... recently i'm not sleeping well.. i only feel tired at lyk 3am! and then... i sleep and wake up at 8 or 9 lehz... super early can... and is automatically will wake up de... i last time... even if i sleep at 9pm oso only wake up at 11 the earliest lo... usually is 1 plus de... now... sleep late wake up early... i got eye bags le!!! sad...

and i got alot of things i wanna eat! TP the erm... Temasek Culinary Something... haha... yongjian told me but i forgot le.. the food looks very nice! and yongjian say he will treat me... but only if i return him the fish and co treat from last yr! grrr...ok lo...

i oso wanna eat Hao Jian and pasta! anyone noe where got sell nice Hao Jian??? tell me tell me tell me ok? and deat promise we will cook pasta ourselves at home! so happy ne...hehe..

and i oso wanna eat Popeye Chicken! u noe the whole Singapore only got ONE pathetic outlet? at Changi Airport Terminal 2... so sad lehz...i love their mash potato and biscuit! superb! hehe... dear oso promise to bring me there this saturday... hmmm... i think we will go... haha.. see how ba... i ate the chicken there since lyk YEARS ago... and i simply love it! then there was one time the airport got renovation... then we couldnt go in... i wad so sad lo... cannot eat nice chicken... budden aft they open i keep wanting to go... but din get the chance.. i'm SO excited!

i oso wanna eat fish & co! i guess when i treat yongjian tt time i can oso eat ba... haha... he wait lo... maybe i will... hshahahha... and if i do... he BETTER treat me eat the yummy looking food at his sch! wahaha!

and i oso wanna go along siglap there... along the bus 12 route got alot of very nice looking cafes lehz... i keep wanting to go... a number of my ex oso promise me bring me there... i wanted to go since lyk i first saw them in sec 1... now i grad le still haven eat... ANGRY! nvm... haha... got chance de... hehe...

hmmm.. that is juz lyk our nursing outing... keep sayign go fromsec 1 til now... we grad le still haven once EVERYONE go out tgt... super sad lehz... nvm... there's stil always 2015..love ya all... take care and pls dun forget 2015... =D

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:17 PM

Wednesday, August 15, 2007


My Confident

I would like to invite someone into my confidence.

This person has to
- be there for me 24/7
- always listen to me grouse
- cannot complain to me
- must be nice to me
- can only say the right thing at the right time
- remember everything about me
- shower me with TLC

If interested, please contact me in whatever way convenient to you. =D

wahahaha... where got lyk tt de... izznt that supposed to be wad i should wan for my bf? but simply cuz he is my bf so i'm nice to him... hmmm... but seriously... who dun wish that there's someone lyk tt for them? but then... i'm sure if darling is not in NS he will fufil the above criteria... but for now... someone else?

today i'm really sad... becuz i find that i'm drifting apart with lots of my old frens... and i dun reall have a steady relationship with my new frens... how i wish i can juz easily trust someone... i mean... i'll trust u with anything... absolutly anything... but me..thats juz me i guess... i dunno...

deardear is busy in NS.... and i wan him to get more rest.. and... all of my frens... i'll feel damn evil if i were to juz grouse to u.. cuz u are oso super busy... i mean... i'm the kind of person who will throw everything one side if one of my frens need me.. no matter if we're close anot.. but i dun expect anyone else to me lyk me... i'm juz crazy ba...

i noe there are nice ppl lyk lynn and faifai... only these two i'm sure will be very nice abt me complaining to them... lynn cuz SHE always complain to me... faifai... i dunno... i juz think he's that kind of person...

of anyone else... i'm sure u'll listen too! but juz that those two above will give me the... erm... i dunno how to say... the kinda reaction that will make me feel better? hahha... becuz... they noe me well ba... every other fren are oso probably too busy... hahaha.. i wun wanna add on to their troubles la...

but still.. tell me if u dun mind me calling u up rite now and start complaining! itz still nice to noe that ppl care... hahha... altho i probably wun grouse... cuz...i will still feel bad... haha!

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
4:02 PM

Whats Wrong With Me?

ok... i noe i hurt ur feelings when i said it... but u noe wad? i really dun care... neither am i sorry that i said it... becuz u noe wad? u have no rite to feel that i was rude and unreasonable... or even raise ur voice at me... all these times the things u said to me and did to me... i kept it quiet and nv once did i tell anyone... there are times that i couldnt take it and and do confide in others... but i nv say the things that really really really hurt me...

everytime u degrade and embarrass me... i merely smile and act stupid... becuz i still RESPECT u... but u always say i dun... normally i would nv have said wad i said... but when i did juz now... i finally struck me how much ur words have hurt me... juz becuz i always smile and act crazy doesnt mean nth gets thru... u speak without consideration of my feelings... and for once... i did the same...

hurt u? anger u? hate me? wadeva... becuz... i've been living this life that i hate for so long... i hate myself... u noe how it feels to hate urself so much? to despise urself becuz u owe everythign to them... to feel inferior all the time...

looks can be deceiving... ppl always think i'm the kind of ah lian who smokes drink and club all the time.. but anyone who noes me will noe i'm not lyk tt at all... i'm juz slightly louder wilder and more open than other average ppl... but lyk every other average person... i get hurt too... yet i have to always face u...

i dun understand how can u be so considerate to others when u ur own daughter... ur worse than crap... i really dun get it...

i said i found out things abt myself... yup... i realised that i really din care... i din care if u noe wad i'm doing... becuz rite now... ur views dun matter anymore... doesnt it hurt u that half the time u have no idea wad ur daughter is doing? no... not half the time.. ALL the time... doesnt it hurt u when u see other parents with their kids with them and think where's my own child?

i do... i get so jealous when ppl tell me they are going out with their parents... i am so envious of other kids who can tell their parents everything... i feel sad... when my frens tell me their parents say they dun have to go school cuz their sick...

becuz...these are thigns that we nv do... but to be honest? now i really rather we dun interact so much... at least we can be polite to each other... recently there has been no sad posts in my blog... becuz i am hardly ever home... and... i dunno... i'm really tired...

i noe someone is gonna Da Xiao Bao Gao again... but this time i'm really upset i can cant keep this in me... I HATE U
u noe.dere r tyms wen i reali wanna confide in u wen i'm upset.everytime wen i'm unhappy e 1st person tt comes 2 my mind is u.but,i noe wad ur gonna say.i dun wan advice n i dun wan opinions.wad i wan is simply sum1 2 tell me its ok.tell me u'll always b dere 4 me.n juz 2 simply hold me tight n tell me u wun ever let go.cuz every other thing,i can give myself.i dunno u coming 2 my life is a good or bad thing.u keep me rooted n sane.u give me hope.but itz simply sis rootedness n hope tt makes everything so hard 2 let go.if it wernt 4 u.i probably wun b blogging out dis post.juz e tot of u keeps me sane.but sumtimes,i wan more den juz e tot of u.i wan u.cuz i reali reali reali nid u

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:46 PM

Tuesday, August 14, 2007


Plaster of Love

hehe... cuz of the cute plaster on my msn nick joyce tot me and yongjian tgt! haha.. so cute! i tot alot of ppl have? hehe... oh well... and darlign is pretending he's not at all jealous/bothered/angry/displeased with it... SO CUTE!

but thats besides the point...

i'm bored and sleepy...

recently i cant sleep! lyk everynite sleep late wake up early... so silly... =( oh well.. nvm... i cant wait til i grad from poly... i have lots of plans from there... plan that are perhaps not ethical not feasible... but is still sth i wanna do anyway...

but becuz of SOME of the ppl reading my blog... i cannot say wad isit!!!! so irritating! grrr... nvm... i shall cherish this plan of mine... and i shall be childish and not tell THAT person reading my blog wad isit... becuz dun lyk u!

i noe i'm childish... but i still dun lyk u... i nv did... i dun think u lyk me too... so ya... please dun read my blog... isnt it a torture for u to read my blog knowing that i'm now happy? grrr... angry!!!!

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:42 PM

I Don't Understand

hmmm... i find it really weird that ppl actually enjoy reading other people's blog... i mean people that they dunno la... unless itz lyk blogs catered for the public... lyk xiaxue and kennysia and mr brown and mr miyagi... otherwise i dun see y there are ppl who lyk to read stranger's blogs and comment on them...

i mean... u dun even noe these ppl so y are u commenting abt how they are so bad and everything? maybe they are juz lyk tt in their blogs and in real life they are not lyk tt at all... who noes? take laozharbor for example... i personally think that her blog is juz jteam's publicity stunt... but that's juz wad i think anyway... becuz i dun see how an old lady who can barely speak and understand english can type so fluently in english... and she can blog in chinese oso ma... if she's really that keen on blogging... y go thru the trouble of getting someone to blog for her in english? weird...

and i oso dun understand the ppl who lyk to critisize others by insulting them... take my blog for example. if those ppl can so happily type things lyk insulting my looks, my figure, my character til i'm lyk so worthless, they muz hate me alot wad... so y they keep dun put their names lehz? it scares me that someone i think is my fren can do that to me... haha.. maybe that is their pt... but if they really hate me so much y they dun wanna tell me who are they? lets all si po lian tgt la... then fun ma... u dun feel very xin ku that u might have to everyday see me and smile at me even tho u hate me so much?

and anyway.. i think so called private blogs lyk mine are lyk a super boring read. becuz we are all really self centered ppl so we type and blog abt all our tots and feelings that are of no concern to u... izznt it really boring? except for ppl who noe me la.. muz read my blog and see if i got gossip abt u... wahaha... if u read lyk kennysia for example... he's lyk damn interesting becuz he talks abt alot of things in a really funny way... becuz they are meant for people to read ma...

but there's one thing i dun lyk abt those so called public blogs.. i mean of cuz there's not many interesting to blog abt everyday la... but itz still fustrating to open up their blogs and see that itz not updated... very sad de lehz... haha.. i rmb there was once that i keep blogging.. and faifai was very happy abt the multiple posts per day... being single and unavailable really makes me interact with my computer more than ppl...

hmmm... i love to blog abt really mundane stuff disguised as super chim stuff... becuz... when i read back i will noe exactly wad i'm talking abt... there's a code in this post ok? that only the closest will noe.. but even so... they may not understand!



i love mysef, my baby, lynn, lishi, szeyan, louisa, evon, grace, and lots of other ppl



p.s. pls note that i put my name first, i'm fair dinkum narcissistic.

p.p.s fair dinkum means seriously. got read Newpaper ytd?

p.p.p.s i dun get y would u assume that someone is swearing at u when they use a word u dunno.

p.p.p.p.s fair dinkum

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:11 AM

Monday, August 13, 2007


9th August 2007

August 9 is a special day for me... in a way that no one else would nv understand... not even my darling... hmmm... and this year's national day has been very fun...

wed we had or ITAB test... which was simple enuff... cuz lyk.. erm... there's nth to study... then after that we went to Krystle's house... and ate very nice chicken rice... and watched very boring Polar Express... but it was ok... after that we went back to school for the NDP in SP... haha... it was... surprisingly interesting enough... and after that i went to darling's house... so it was overall quite nice... even tho i wore a pair of new shoes that gave a horrible blisters.. but nvm...

for the next few days... i went to darling's house every day..

baby.. i really dun mind that i spend everyday at ur house not going out.... juz being with u is very happy for me le... even tho ur mummy keeps cooking weird stuff that i dun dare to eat... i mean itz really weird la... i never have problems eating anywhere else except at ur house... but nvm...

itz ok that we juz watch dvds and sleep all day long... itz ok that we keep playing silly games... and itz oso ok that u keep playing ur Football Manager on my laptop... i really dun mind...

Because
every day
every nite
every hour
every minute
every second
spent with u is a great blessing itself.

over this one year i have matured alot. in terms of everything. age, love, thinking and feeling. i've changed alot and so have you. we changed to complement each other even more... thanks for being there for me all the time. even tho sometimes i wake up hot, bothered and cranky, u let me vent my anger on you and throw tantrum. hehe.. and u nv once got frustrated with me... thanks for ur patience and ur tolerance..

baby i nv wanna leave u... no matter wad happens...
these 4 days resulted in a remarkable change in me... i realised things abt myself that i din noe...

baby i love you... no matter wad happens...
without you, the sun will nv again rise on my horizon

baby i wun ever let you go... no matter wad happens...
because i noe, without me, you will lose not only me, but ur life, ur faith, ur everything.
because i noe i am ur everything.

so baby...
tell me once again ur promise to me.
tell me once again our hopes for our tml.
tell me once again that we will love each other forever and a day more.
because we are living in the heart of our love, and paying no rent.

i love u



My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:39 PM

Friday, August 10, 2007


Fustrated

there is so much i wanna talk abt... but becuz of the people who are reading my blog i cant post it and itz making me feel increasingly irritated.. wadeva

even tho i repeatedly tell u sth... u always nv rmb... i really dun get it... do i mean so little... theres so much i wanna say but i dunno how to go abt telling u...

if there is sth i learnt... that would be to not be nice... itz not worth being nice... not to anyone... nice ppl always lose out... and... if u dun wanna be lied to... then dun trust... itz all the mindset thing... if u nv trusted that person then how can that person lie to u? i rather i let everyone on earth down... than have anyone let me down again...

y are jokes always made at my expense? and becuz itz meant to be a joke i have to laugh with u and pretend everything is fine? i treat u the same way u treat me... and i dun lyk the person i've become... how can u enjoy laughing at people's expense... i dun enjoy it at all... i dun understand how people can get a kick outta this... unless i really disliked this person... even then there's still always that tinge of guilt... dun u feel it? or do u really hate me that much?

i find myself having the knack of rmbing things that i find meaningful to me easily... and if it is that impt to me i can regurgitate it exactly as it is... the exact words that u say... the actions u did... everything... i dun expect anyone to be the same as me... but... at least... a little bit... or do i really mean that little?

and now i find myself rmbing less and less.. i dun get it... i hate feeling lyk this... hate feeling inadequate... hate feeling inferior...

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xoxo nikki
2:31 PM

Wednesday, August 08, 2007


What A Silly Test

aiyo... wad kinda test is this? so silly... hmmm.. but the teacher was very nice la... haha... oh well... bored...

i'm watching Wei Xiao Pasta... cuz i watched it with my fren last week and itz super funny... budden... i'm oso watching it cuz i'm bored... cuz i started watching it and i wanna finish wad i started... silly rite? the story is kinda boring ths far... still funny... but abit boring... oh well...

on the train back home juz now... i saw this couple that was very much lyk me and dear dear lehz... make me miss him more... oh well...

today is offically i broke my record for the longest relationship i ever have! cuz is more than a year... hmmm...actually not really... cuz according to dennis that time we lasted longer than a year... but i dun really rmb... anyway... darling and i are going to last forever and break both our records! hehe...

i used to think that if u lyk someone is juz that u care abt him... but now then i noe i'm wrong... love izznt something that can be simply put into words... =) absolutly cliche i noe... but itz the truth... wait til u fall in love man... hahaha... then u will noe... lalala...

and yongjian is very nice and funny... haha... i'm really touched by ur personal msg on msn for me! hehe

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xoxo nikki
2:28 AM

Tuesday, August 07, 2007


Thanks So Much Yong Jian

hehe... wa! u make me sound lyk really pro lyk tt.. haha

"so touching..or should i say romantic? more like envious of Issac! jiehui actually remembers all the little things. lalala" <xdextral@hotmail.com>

hahah... oh well... anyway... the past 3 days have been lyk sth out of the world for me... i had no troubles no unhappiness at all... haha... no test oso... so i forgot abt it... =)

and yongjian paid me a too high compliment la... ahhaha..

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xoxo nikki
1:37 PM

SillySilly BlurBlur Me

ok... having completed my previous post using a number of hours... and my head filled with tots of today being our anniversary... i completely forgot that i have a test today... not even with jinwei mentioned it to me... i vaguely rmb that i have a test but dun rmb when is it... so silly of me... so anyway... thanks to my very nice teacher... he scheduled another test for me tml... 11-1 at t2151... thank god... but wadeva... i dun really mind missing that test... abit sad... but still not at all worried abt my marks.. since i think i did pretty well the last few times la... so ya... not trying to be concited... budden... i really think missing a test with a 30% weightage is not gonna make a huge difference to my marks... i mean... got different but wun fail la... i think... but i'm still thankful i've got a second chance...

anyone can go out tml with me????

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xoxo nikki
5:42 AM

One Year's Memories

Time passed so fast! One year has passed between us. It may not be the longest time i've been with anyone, but it has certainly been the happiest and most fulfiling.

The first time I met you, it was during skating lesson. From my teacher, you became my friend. We talked, and chatted. We went out with other people. We broke up with them.

I finally asked you out to pay back the birthday present that I was supposed to give you a long time ago. Perhaps if I did it that long time ago, to watch Da Vinci Code with you, we would not have wasted so much time and gone such a big round to find each other.

But silly us when we went out did not check the cinemas that was showng Dragon Tiger Gate. So on July 29, we met at Bugis and went to Suntec to catch it. You ended up paying for the tickets. And that day, you became my korkor.

So I asked you out again the next week on August 5 to watch Click so that it will finally be my treat. But once again you paid for it. We went to Thai Express for dinner after the movie and we watched fireworks together next to the Esplanade. We walked along the Singapore River after dinner. That night after you sent me home, we chatted on the phone til you reached home. And I got freaked out by a lizard in my room.

I told you I liked to play with puzzles and you said there was an uncompleted puzzle at your house. On August 6, I went to your house to complete that puzzle with you. But you ended sleeping while I did the puzzle. You tried to bully me to call for Macdonald's since we are two lazy piggys who did not want to go out and eat. You tickled me, but we ended up kissing. And I bullied you to order the food because you are my korkor and you should not kiss me. Incestuous.
But still, on August 6, our story began.

We met each other everyday til my school started again on August 14. And on August 9, something nice happened besides National Day celebrations.
We celebrated my birthday together on October 10 and you bought my favourite food. Chocolates! We watched World Trade Centre and had our favourite numbers on the ticket.


But soon after that, you had to go for your National Service. I bought you Baby and put a white Heart-Shaped chocolate inside and told you to only open it on October 25. But dumdum you cheated and opened it early.

On October 26, you went to Tekong and made me miss you terribly. And you came back to me with a shaven head.

We celebrated Christmas Day together at Eatzi in Eastpoint and took silly pictures with the goodie bags that were given to us.


You gave me a bad scare on January 22 when you got involved in an accident. Such a big ugly wound. We had a bad quarrel on January 23 but luckily it is over.

Chinese New Year came and we were contemplating on whether you should come visit my parents. But in the end we decided that you should not come.


On Valentine's Day, we did not do anything special, but we still spent a very happy day together because you fufiled my wish of going to Yishun together. And you bought me a super expensive and nice necklace from Citigems.

Your birthday came on April 25. I actually wanted to go to the Zoo with you because last year you wanted to go on your birthday, but in the end we did not go because you held your chalet.

So we had a private celebration on April 21 at Bugis Fish & Co. And I bought you a very nice piggy couple tee.


May 14 was one of the the happiest times I spent with you. We went to the Euro Funfair and spent alot of money. But we had great fun!
May 20 was a day for you to worry about me. We went to see Lynn's harmonica concert with Ziqing, Lishi and Ru Jin. I wasn't feeling really well that day and after dinner with them i was in a terrible state. In the end I fainted outside my house. Despite the time and the fact you did not really like being with my parents too much, you still stayed with me throughout the night. Holding my hands, helping me, comforting me, reassuring me.
You came by early on May 21 to spend the day with me even though you did not like tocome my house when my parents were home. You bought lunch for me and took care of me. Thanks alot for it zhuzhu.
June 1 was a pretty sad time for me. Thank you darling for being there for me when my grandfather died. Thank you for holding my hands when the doctor pulled the plug. Thank you for holding me and telling me everything's gonna be fine.

And now is once again August 6. Itz been a year since you tickled me to order food for you. But it feels like just yesterday. The last few days with you made me very happy. Even the failed attempt to watch the sunrise was nice. Thanks alot for everything you've done for me. I love you alot and there will be many many many days more of August 6 to come.

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xoxo nikki
3:38 AM

Friday, August 03, 2007


Voiceless

OMG... i'm completely lost my voice... perhaps the constant inability to keep food down has permanently damaged my throat! grrr.... nvm... so i cant tlak... big deal... i probably talked enuff in my life so far to last me many lifetimes... but if in other lifetimes i oso talk this much then.... and if in this lifetime i am supposed to talk this much... then....

NVM!

wad matters is how the hell am i going to present tml!!!...

SOBZ... i juz have to start croaking to the audience then... and maybe they will throw flies at me... grrr.... and i cant drink more water... cuz taking water til i feel full... not bloated... full ok.. i will also vomit! damnit...

oh well.... the poor hungry voiceless pathetic me shall go back to study my MOB... suck suck suck... SO many chapters... so wad am i still doing here? nvm.. i'm goign crazy...

P.S. i dun lyk the way i am currently typing.. y all of the sudden i seem to be tyoing for an audience? unhealthy... =(

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xoxo nikki
5:35 AM

Wednesday, August 01, 2007


POP'07
i've been composing this nice post for quite long le... haha.. ever since i got the photos... first lets see some nice normal pictures..



now for some scandals! hehe


Louisa thinking "Jiehui so chio today, I shall RAPE her!"



"NO, LOUISA! Dun RAPE me!!!" Jiehui screams



Jiehui sobz "I'm so traumatized...."




"How am I going to pay Louisa back???"



Evil plan forming in my head.

"I'm coming Louisa....! hehehe"

Louisa better watch out......!

RrRRrRrrRah!!!


But itz ok... Louisa likes it too.. =D



hahaha... so dum... nvm.... sometimes wad u see doesnt mean its true... wahaha... the photos are juz random shots la! not even taken in sequence... thanks to my pro skill then got this nice story!! but i had a bad hair day... my hair looks super terrible in the photos... i meant the dialogue to be in the picture with photoshop... but i gave up half way... i'm much too lazy...


back to study MOB... boring!


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xoxo nikki
7:58 AM

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