Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Random Stuffhmmm.... took this off jess's blog.... who took it off someone's blog... who of cuz i would logically believe took it off someone else's blog....
| Your Birthdate: October 10 |
 You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it.You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter!You are very prone to love - hate relationships.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2
You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month. |
itz quite true la... =) i got short attention span ma.... and sadly deardear's birthdate is not there... hmmm... lets see my beloved's
| Your Birthdate: April 25 |
Calm and understated, you struggle to express your love with words.Over time, your partner learns to recognize your passion by the actions you take.You're good at wooing someone slowly, without them even realizing it!
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2
You are most compatible with people born on the 7th, 16th, and 25th of the month. |
What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?
hmmm.... wow.... chim.... haha... lets juz say i really din realise that he was wooing me.... haha... or maybe i'm juz too thick... i think is the latter.... blahz....
| You Are 76% Sexy |
 Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High
You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room.You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing. |
WA!!!! i got A1 lehz... *smug* i think now my self confidence is abt that high too!! =D
| Libra - Your Love Profile |
 Your positive traits:
You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.
Your negative traits:
You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.
Your ideal partner:
A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to.Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.
Your dating style:
Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.
Your seduction style:
Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.
Tips for the future:
Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.
Best color to attract mate: Green
Best day for a date: Wednesday |
aiyo.... thats the typical traits of a Libran izznt it? romantic... sensual.... and indecisive.... and sadly i dun lyk green.... even though the CNY mediacorp show oso say that green is my zodiac's lucky colour this year... =D and deardear is in camp on wed lehz... how???
| Taurus - Your Love Profile |
 Your positive traits:
You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad.You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice.Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak.
Your negative traits:
Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships.If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander...You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset.
Your ideal partner:
Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you.Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave.A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart.
Your dating style:
Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant.
Your seduction style:
Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy.Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either.Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time.
Tips for the future:
Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you.Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best.Lighten up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions.
Best color to attract mate: Pale blue
Best day for a date: Friday |
hahahaha... money IS a source of arguement... but not in the way they say it.... i always say deardear spend too much money on me.... lyk the NECKLACE..... so ex.... =) and friday oso cannot... he always book out v late... haha
| Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect |
 Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it.You have the confidence to make the first move.And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best.Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing! |
haha... my self confidence juz scored again... lalala... happy... haha
| You are 80% Libra |
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this juz proved that i am rite for my sign... haha...
| You Are a Natural Flirt |
 Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt.And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting.Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt.And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive! |
What Kind of Flirt Are You?
well that would explain alot..... zzzzzzz......... i hardly realise i'm flirting huh.... that would really really explain alot...
| Your Seduction Style: The Charmer |
 You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement.
You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you.
By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power.
And then you've got them exactly where you want them! |
this makes me feel lyk i should be a Psychiatrist... u noe the kind who always end up fucking their patients? =)
| You Are A Guilty Ex |
 You weren't the greatest to your ex, and you admit it.And now your remorse is keeping you up at night...While feeling a little remorse is good, your guilt is preventing you from moving on |
oops.... alrite alrite... i admit it... in the past i was a bitch to my exs and i din really care much abt them... sry sry sry sry sry... but ur wrong... i've moved on... and this time... i will try really really really hard to treat him good...
| Your Birthdate: October 10 |
 Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations.You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you.Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans.You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot.
Your strength: Your ability to gain respect
Your weakness: Caring too much what others think
Your power color: Orange-red
Your power symbol: Letter X
Your power month: October |
woah.... thats alittle heavy for me... the alpha dog thing i'm not sure... maybe ask my frens?
| Your Birthdate: April 25 |
You excel at anything difficult or high tech. In other words, you're a total (brilliant) geek.It's difficult for you to find people worth spending time with.Which is probably why you'll take over the world with your evil robots!
Your strength: Your unfailing logic
Your weakness: Loving machines more than people
Your power color: Tan
Your power symbol: Pi
Your power month: July |
What Does Your Birth Date Mean?
rite... although deardear is in IT... i really dun think he's a geek... zzzzzz.... so... i shall dismiss this quiz as LOUSY and UNTRUE
lyk i said... this is TOTALLY random and cuz i am really bored... later meeting lynn... dinner... yumyum... pasta mania anyone???
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:28 AM
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Happy Chinese New Year!!hmm... very very very long nv post le me... really really miss blogging lots lehz... shall blog day by day... cuz then lyk more pro lyk tt ma...more stuff to blog... =) and oso cuz i really nth to do til later when i meeting my beloved gals...
16th Febhmm... deardear today got CYN celebrations then he came out of camp lyk REAL early... so i went over to his hse lo.... then his mum go buy food to cook for CNY eve... then i went along with them... and for lunch oso... met some weird Minister at the Fajar foodcourt.... then we juz spend the day at his hse... =)
17th Febtoday is CNY eve... stayed home the whole day... clean up my room ma... mummy keep nagging... nth much to talk abt today la... then... dinner... i wanted to eat steamboat... but my didi dun wan... =( den daddy order the KFC Treasure Feast... then we oso got Yu Sheng.. Shark's Fin... Abalone... Salmon... and Tao Kua... =) of cuz my fave was the most most expensive dishes on the table... i got expensive taste ma... ^-^m i eat alot of the raw Salmon and Abalone.... it was THE BEST... the Salmon was super fresh from my Aunt.... lots and lots of nice nice Salmon... the skin and oil were removed somemore.... my aunt super high class de... her workers delivered the Salmon straight to our doorstep after they were done cleaning up the fish in wherever they clean it up... the Abalone was super nice... sweet sweet one.... was the expensive kind from my Grandma's shop... YUMMY!!! the Shark's Fin was superb... thanks to my mum's great cooking... lalalala
therefore my rich dinner wasnt really that rich cuz the Abalone and Shark's Fin were given by my Grandma... cuz she noes i love them... wahaha =)
18th Febthe first day of new year!!! mummy woke me up super early in the morn.... there goes my sleep... sobz... we had Bao and Huat Kueh for breakfast... my mummy made the pink Huat Kueh... super nice...
then we go to the Si Ma Lu Guan Yin Miao.... erm... juz a temple la... then daddy drove there and me and mummy and didi go pray while daddy waited for a parking lot... damn crowded... we got a shock when we got to the temple... the people had to queue to get in to offer incense... so scary.... even got the police there... damn weird.... we din queue la... juz prayed outside then go le...
next stop... grandma's hse... met my Second Grandaunt there.... she was in a very very very good mood... cuz she juz won i think few hundred or thousand of lottery.... first day of new year win 4D not bad hor.... then waited damn long for my Aunt to come... then we all proceeded to my Third Grandaunt's hse....
wa... her cooking was super nice... except that got 2 weird things... she cook the chicken rce hor... smell damn nice lehz... even better than my fave Wen Dong Ji store... budden the taste.... lyk no taste lehz tt... i think cuz she always dun put salt in her food de... =( i was so happy when she took out her chilli... her chilli is damn spicy one... smells great... is the best oso... the second weird thing was her food... all very very big piece one... dun have small piece one lehz... i abit dunno how to eat lo... haha..
last stop of the day was my Grandpa's hse... then... nth much la... juz my bro keep playing the computer... my parents play majong with my Grandpa... and i juz stone and look at the tv...
19th Febtoday din do much la... first thing in the morn go my Grandpa hse again... then i stay awhile... then go over to deardear's hse.... dear was out with his frens at BPP so i met them there... they ate mac then we go over to his hse... hmmm his mum wanted to play MJ so he ask his frens along... then... i din do much la... basically stay in his room cuz i dunno them well and cuz... i dunno... i very anti-social de... dear stayed in the room with me... then after awhile his mum say she cook le then i eat lo... eat le then dear send me back my grandpa hse then nth le lo...
it really wasnt a happy day for me...
20th Febtoday we went to Seragoon Garden the Jumbo restaurant to eat... very nice.... then we go to Upper Thomson Road to the the monkeys there.... then my aunt called us to go my Grandpa Hse to play MJ again... so i go meet deardear lo... he go back to office to pack the skates for the Tanglin School lesson on saturday... then i sorta helped him lo... =) we then go to Great World City to watch Norbit... wad a revolting show... haha... but it was super funny... then dear send me to my Grandpa hse again... then he went back camp to book in....
21th Febmy Aunt say she wanna come our hse today... so she came and looked ard... then we all went to Changi Village to eat Bak Kut Teh... not bad la... we wanted to go to this temple at loyang to pray... budden cars were not allowed in.. then we drove to the temple where my grandma was laid to rest... the place was very nice... after that we sent my aunt home... and we went to another temple.... it was lyk a temple praying day lyk tt... zzzzzzzz
22th Febi finally had a nice sleep which was not interupted by my mummy waking me up... then... i laze ard the hse for awhile then met my frens to watch Just Follow Law... which turned out to be a mistake cuz deardear wanted to watch.... =( nvm dear... i buy the DVD to bu chang ok? =) talk to dear at nite.... then i went to sleep...
23th Febwhich is today.... well... nth mucht today lo... work up and blogged... and later go out with lynn and lishi and amanda and jean.... louisa and rujin gotta work... sad... nvm... lai ri fang chang... we WILL have a chance to all go out tgt de... =( even thoug after 4 years and this is the 5th year of us saying that it haven happened... nvm... there's always 0101 2010... and there can oso always be a 0202 2020 ma... since 2020 2020 is not possible... i was think we sould have agreed to meet on 2010 2010 ma... =) nice date... haha
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:38 AM
Friday, February 16, 2007
KPO Auntiehmmm... today my mummy went to NTUC the buy stuff... then she met Tony Tan's mother... not the minister or wadeva bigshot's mum ok? is Tony Tan Teck Wei... my classmate in pri sch and school mate in sec sch... =) currently 17 lyk me =D
anyway... my mum came home super pissed cuz Tony's mum insisted on finding out my results... even waiting for lyk 10 mins for my mum to
SLOWLY finish paying for her stuff... and when my mum said i got 10 plus she insisted on asking "10 plus is how much? 10 wad?" and my mum got so irritated.. juz to spite her my mum refused to say.. and his mum juz kept asking... damn funny...
but the point of this point is cuz Tony's mum said he has a GF!!!!
i was lyk WOAH....
and the more shocking thing is she keeps calling him late at nite... and Tony says he is super stressed cuz her results not v good and he's worried abt her... his mum thinks she is in depression cuz sometimes the gal cry until lyk dunno wad... the gal is in sec3... i dunno izzit last yr or this year la... all these are according to his mum...
haha.... i was lyk wad?!!? haha... but oh well.. wadeva... i wasnt there.. juz shock that Tony... the small small cute cute guy who i noe in pri 4 has suddenly erm... i dunno... changed??? his bets frens had always seem to be gals la... i dun ever recall him ever being interested in any gal... and i din hear anything abt Tony having a gf... so... i dunno... maybe i am juz getting slower... i think my biological clock is going backwards... or maybe is forward but at twice or thrice the usual speed... ah... wadeva...
me gonna go have dinner at my aunt's house soon... =) not really looking forward to it... i wonder they are grilling anything... i think they are... ME! okok... thats lame... but i'm really bored... my bad... sry... lalalala
lalalala lalalala elmo's world! =)
sleepy..............................
oh... i need to give my grandps 30 bucks... =(
and i am proud to say my room is super duper clean!!!! =)
missing my dear dear alot alot alot... thanks for the necklace dear... it is very very very nice... but please please dun spend so much on me le ok? i dun mind if u dun buy anything de... ur allowance each month izzint alot....
for that beautiful diamond necklace... i shall upload the pic some other day... =) from CitiGems...
itz endorsed by Fiona Xie and Joanne Peh... i think... though i am really really really happy and glad that he bought it for me... i wish he hadnt spend so much money... =( now i will go bathe and dress up nicely again... and prepare to be grilled.... =x
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
8:11 AM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Dun Study Le La!!!damn irritating lehz... keep telling me to choose a course that i lyk... budden u guys keep telling me my choice no good... then tell me dun choose this dun choose that... is totally crap can? i wan put nursing as my last choice cuz i dun wan later my first few choices cant get in then i end up in some fucked up course... at least nursing not so bad can? u guys r so ridiculous... i v buay tahan u noe... is lyk... wads ur prob? mass comm mass comm... u think mass comm so easy get into arh? results dun matter my ass... of cuz they would choose the ppl with better results rite?
pek chek la!
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:14 AM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
I'm Tiredi mean wads my mum's prob? she ask me choose a course i lyk... so i choose Veterinary Technology... and now she's trying to convince me to take Mass Comm cuz she say its good...
why she say itz good? cuz my cousin say so.. and my cousin says results dun matter cuz for Mass Comm itz ur lingustic skills that matter.... and she believes it...
WTF
results dun matter then no need go for o's le la...
the cut off points is lyk 13 last year la... and the intake is only 185... lyk fuck i can get in can? itz a popular course...
plus itz at fucking NP which is so fucking far away...
wads her prob man... she keeps trying to interfer... lyk how she keeps interfering in my bro's CCA... who was the one who gave him so many options? at diff points of time ask him to join diff CCA... then now keep complaining he got alot of CCA... ask him quit... irritating...
u said i could choose then let me choose... why do u have to keep putting me down? lyk how u guys keep putting korkor down lyk tt... he's got a gf and he KNOWS his capabilities.. u dun have to put him down and tell him that he's old and got no career and shit...
y u keep expecting me to do the wrong stuff? lyk itz for granted i am bad and will do stupid things that put me in jeopardy? when minor stuff go wrong u jump at the chance to tell me i told u so... and when nothing goes wrong... u take it for granted that nth IS supposed to go wrong... itz so fucked up u noe?
itz no wonder ppl think i will have a shotgun marriage....
becuz even my own fucking mother thinks the same thing...lyk y cant u juz trust me? u keep thinking i will turn out lyk them... but in wad way have i been lyk them? juz cuz their my cousins and they got shotgun... they do drugs... and they fuck ard
doesnt fucking mean i will do the same fucking things!
u go ard telling other ppl no point i go Jc and later waste ur money if halfway thru i need... take note 0f the NEED to get married...
u think that is sth to be proud of? that u cant keep ur child in hand? that ur daughter is a fucking bitch who fucks anything that has a cock?
wads ur fucking problem?
do u have brains? i so fucking hate u u noe? y cant i have some normal mother who cares... or at least a mum who doesnt put me down ALL THE TIME?
wad kind of fucking mother EXPECTS her daughter to have shotgun?
wad kind of FUCKING fucked up mother goes ard TELLING EVERYONE she expects her DAUGHTER to fucking get a shotgun marriage?? at fucking reunion dinner no less....
arent u embarrassed at all?
ur sick u noe? sick in the head... bitch
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
9:17 AM
Huge Huge Headache=(
i am totally lost... lyk wad course am i going to choose???? argh!!!! gonna go crazy... talked to issac abt it... talked to weien abt it... and all the ppl who are rushing to give me advice...
and i STILL endup being confused... =(
well... issac was no help... juz keep telling me to choose wad i wanna choose... but thats the thing.... i DUNNO wad to choose...
choose sth i am interested in but dun think can get into?
or sth i not so interested in but should be able to get into?
choose sth i am interested in but future looks bleary?
or sth that i not so interested in but future is juz abt sure to get sth?
then i got the question marks all over my head...
take Veterinary Technology??? cuz lyk it sounds damn fun... and it involves ANIMALS!!! maybe i will go work at SPCA after that... haha... rite... lyk my mum will so allow that... i can juz imagine her saying...
"VET??? r u crazy?? WHERE"S THE FUTURE IN THAT? and animals are SO disgusting."
=) thats my beloved ever supporting mother... haha
then my cousin will go...
"u SIAO arh? go take sth that is reliable can? or sth that HAVE a future"
hmmm.... the ppl ard me are REALLY supportive huh? haiz.... now it seems my result for poly izzit that bad... cuz i have alot of courses available to me... but wad i am worried abt is whether i can study anot... ppl tell me
"if u put in effort u can do it de... if u nv study nv study can score lyk tt for ur o's then u muz be smart de ma... so if u put in effort u can do EVEN BETTER"
but seriously hor... after my prelims... itz not that i dun wanna study... budden i really couldnt study... i dunno is cuz i feel that i have no hope le... or cuz i simply wasnt interested.... so ya... thats crap ya?
hmmm... this makes me feel sorely tempted to go MI.... juz cuz i dun have to choose a course til 3 years later... thats a crappy reason... but i dunno la... i wun do it anyway... i sure cant survive in MI...
so ya... maybe i take wad royston took... Chemical Engineering... sounds fun the way he described it... but.... there is always a but... sounds too chim for me oso...
=(
i'll see how later lo... i still got one more day... =(
i wish i could talk to ahroy abt it... but he's in camp... i miss his logical reasoning... the way he always try to influence me to do wad he tells me gently... then i can always argue with him... yet after everything i will find my way out of the mess.... i miss ahroy so much... not seeing him... not arguing with him... not getting pissed off with him... not having him tell us to watch our front and chest out stomach in... not having his lame lame lame jokes.... hmmm.... thats sad u noe...
anyway... my dearest had night out last nite... and he says tml maybe got nite out oso... today he cant come out cuz he on duty... tml... tml is vday... i really do hope he can come out... this shall be my first vday to be spent with my beloved... and i really hope to spend at least an hour with u.. juz to see u will be good enough le
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
4:17 AM
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Reunion Dinnerunlike most families rite... i am having my reunion dinner today... cuz my grandma was too lazy to call earlier and the closest date to CYN Eve was today la... so too bad lo..
hmmm... and... well... the other day i went to visit my grandma and i gave her $30 dollars cuz mummy say have to give cuz i got my first pay... -_-" i'm seriously sad... cuz mummy refuse to give me my nets card... so is out of my own pocket money... which oso means i have no money le... i'm using this chance to get her to give me back my card... =)
and today Sze Yan is going to Australia le... i'm gonna miss ler lots... no more Sze Yan to eat Pasta Mania with me... =( when u come back rite gerger... U r gonna be my ATM... =p cuz i am so nice to treat u to so many stuff... should tell ur bf to treat me nicer k? cuz i treat u so good... =p or otherwise can ask him to pay me back!! =D
typing abt Australia reminds me of Dan... the guy who erm... keeps telling me i am cute... i think it is juz pure weird la... but nvm la... i dun even noe him well... in fact... i dun noe him AT ALL.... he was juz one of my customers when i worked at Robinsons thats all...
and recently there was this guy who sent me a smile on friendster.... totally weird oso... since he noe that i worked at Robinsons... then i blur blur dumb dumb still wondering how he noe... until he tell me to read my testimonials... -_-" it was stated there alrite... so paiseh..
anyway... now i gonna go bathe and dress up nice nice and prepare myself for the onslaught of... erm... i dunno.... kpo-ness???? wadeva la... i so dun look forward to it... =x
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:08 AM
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Itz Not Too Badhmm... to say i was shocked doesnt really descride how i felt when i got my results... the only thing miss lai said to me was...
"u qualify for jc"
no one but me would have any idea wad that sentence meant to me... and how of an impact it has on me...
shock.. surprise.. amazment.. dissappointment..
it all ran thru me at once rendering me speechless... until i came to terms with it... i didnt really talk much abt it to anyone... but damn was i worried... i mean for the past 4 years i had done obscenely badly in my subjects... to the point where i failed everything xcept for my english...
in my third year... i should have been retained... but for wadeva that has blessed me thus far in my life.. i was given a chance to be promoted to sec 4... against my better judgement i took up the offer and found myself struggling to even pass my subject or obtain a juz failing grade... for someone who had once tot that 60+ was already a lousy grade to have to struggle such for a 'juz fail' grade.... my mortification was sth not many ppl can understand...
for someone whose L1R4 was 30+ rite up to her prelims.. a score 10+ now was an amazing feat... at least that is wad i feel...
i guess not many ppl would sympatize with me.... most would feel i brought it upon myself... but i think i would give myself a pat on my shoulder for this result...
undoubtly i would have done much better if i had actually come to my senses earlier... or if i had retained... but since wads done is done and the future has no patience for 'wad if's and 'maybe's... i shall juz congratulate myself...
i muz say that i wasnt as cool calm and collected as everyone seemed to think... or as i appeared to be... =) haha... juz that... i was trying damn hard not to think abt it.... so damn terrified that i would get 30+ lyk my prelims... or that i would get 20+.... i dunno how would i live la... lyk... so many eyes are on me.... =(
and my phone is still ringing i am taking ages to type this cuz lyk everyone is a asking my results... i got big family ma... bo bian.... =(
anyway... i absolutely REFUSE to reveal my results on my blog... becuz i noe that there are awful ppl out there who will yak yak yak abt me somemore... and that there are ppl whom i do not wan to reveal my results to who will read in here... SO THERE! go guess how much i have got...
although i noe that soemhow some of them will find out la... thru SOME PPL.... budden thats ok la.... i guess... i shall go off now... another phone call...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
11:55 AM
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
I Dun Like Thisi dun lyk the fact that ppl find my and broadcast it to their frens and have their frens criticize me... i mean wth? i dun even noe that freaking person... ya fine... wadeva... i noe this is the internet and ppl have got the freedom on it to find my blog and criticize me and i am dumb to record my tots down here and i should be open to critisim...
BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN I HAVE TO FUCKING LYK IT
damn.
deardear... i'm lyk really really really damn nuts over u... and i think we are both glad for that... becuz i noe u are juz as nuts over me... tml is our 6mth anniversary and nth will spoil it...
if we ever do sth wrong rite deardear? and sth wrong happens becuz of our mistake.. hmmm.. i dun wan a shotgun... i dun want to get married BECUZ of the baby... we will get married but not becuz of it ok? muackz... love ya lots... and looking much much forward to the 10th... anytime spent with u is prefect...
and i shall continue obssessing over him... i dun care if u lyk it or not... dun lyk it dun come here la! =p
DUM DUM!
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:01 AM
Time Pass So Quicklywa... b4 i noe it tml is our 6mth anniversary le!!! happy... =) hmmm... dun be too sad la deardear... i promise we wun quarrel le kkz? lalala.. too bad we cant spend the day tgt tml... hmm... maybe u will have night out? then at least got 1 or 2 hours with u... =) dunno wad u have for my on the 10th... hmmm... but wadeva u plan for me sure is sth great de.... correct? muackzz.....
but i cant believe i still cant find the thing... =(
anyway... now szeyan got a bf!!!! gal u v bu gou peng you lehz... nv tell me... walao... WHO WHO WHO????? dun lyk tt la... muz say one kkz? =))) u noe who my bf is i muz oso noe urs... i v kpo one ma... u noe de...
and lynn dearest... dun be too upset abt not being able to leave... juz do wad i say... DUN CARE!!! but i dun think u will la... =) juz ignore him ba... i mean... pity the poor guy cuz his big intestine bleed and he muz be in alot of pain so he very cranky lo... forgive the cranky old man and if u really cannot tahan for the few months then juz give in the LETTER!!!!
finally the rashes that i suffer from the dusty storeroom at robinson's is fading off!!! took them long enough... but i dunno why i have pimples suddenly popping up all over my face!!! =((( i'm sad...
loving my new blogskin... lalalala
korkor keep asking me go DXO or MOS!!! =( he trying to dai huai me... i shall not fall into his trap! i shall NEVER step in to any of those places!!!! lalala... haha
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:19 AM
Time Pass So Quicklywa... b4 i noe it tml is our 6mth anniversary le!!! happy... =) hmmm... dun be too sad la deardear... i promise we wun quarrel le kkz? lalala.. too bad we cant spend the day tgt tml... hmm... maybe u will have night out? then at least got 1 or 2 hours with u... =) dunno wad u have for my on the 10th... hmmm... but wadeva u plan for me sure is sth great de.... correct? muackzz.....
but i cant believe i still cant find the thing... =(
anyway... now szeyan got a bf!!!! gal u v bu gou peng you lehz... nv tell me... walao... WHO WHO WHO????? dun lyk tt la... muz say one kkz? =))) u noe who my bf is i muz oso noe urs... u v kpo one ma... u noe de...
and lynn dearest... dun be too upset abt not being able to leave... juz do wad i say... DUN CARE!!! but i dun think u will la... =) juz ignore him ba... i mean... pity the poor guy cuz his big intestine bleed and he muz be in alot of pain so he very cranky lo... forgive the cranky old man and if u really cannot tahan for the few months then juz give in the LETTER!!!!
finally the rashes that i suffer from the dusty storeroom at robinson's is fading off!!! took them long enough... but i dunno why i have pimples suddenly popping up all over my face!!! =((( i;m sad...
loving my new blogskin... lalalala
korkor keep asking me go DXO or MOS!!! =( he trying to dai huai me... i shall not fall into his trap! i shall NEVER step in to any of those places!!!! lalala... haha
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:19 AM
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Ok.. No Prob.. Cuz I Cant Say Anything Elsehe juz msg me telling me to have dinner... and to msg him when i wake up cuz i say i was going so sleep... rite... that is IF i cant get to sleep... if i have to msg him when i wake up then i rather i nv wake up...
i honestly dun even noe why the hell am i treating and talking abt him so coldly... i noe that it isnt his fault and he dun wan things to turn out this way either....
but i guess he is juz in line of the fire... cuz it is becuz of him this happened... so even though i noe itz not his fault... i need a place to vent my anger...
surprisingly now i am being very passive cuz i have no idea where to release my anger...
and i wish my bro would stop aggravating me.... seriously... otherwise HE would be where i release my pent up temper of the whole day
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
11:05 AM
Rite... I Dun Care...juz went to his blog... and the first thing i see is him saying that i dun care... ya ya ya... i dun care... wadeva... i dun care how long ago that happened... but it pisses me off to see u saying that i dun care abt u... that i only keep saying that i care... but that u dun see that i DO care...
rite... wadeva... i think i really ought to not care... then life would be easier...
not care abt my parents as they keep saying i do...
not care abt my frens as they say my time is all spent with him
not care abt him as he says all i care abt is my frens
i think life would be much much much easier if i dun care... even abt myself... becuz as far as i can see... no one really cares too!!
i really dun care oso that rite now i am generalizing... lalala... see? i already proved that i am on my way to not caring...
so ya... as they say... life's lyk that...
so fuck everyone and everything...
i really juz dun care
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:57 AM
Juz... I Dunno...
haiz... juz now deardear msg me to say that he wun be meeting me today.... cuz he can only book out earliest at 11... ya fine... wadeva... i feel so tired that i dun even feel pissed or irritated anymore... my entire day is juz ruined lyk tt.... and now i have no dinner cuz this morn i told mummy not to cook my dinner... and she din buy my dinner so either i take instant noodles again for the second time today... or i go hungry for the nite cuz there's absolutely nth to eat le... besides junk food... and they wun even make me full.... wadeva... gonna have a sleepless nite again... i'm tired of only being able to go to sleep at 4 or 5 plus in the morn then wake up at 11 and cant sleep anymore... then the whole day i will be lyk a zombie from lack of sleep... cuz even if i sleep... i keep waking up in fright only to close my eyes and fall into another nitemare... and the worse is i have no idea wad juz terrified me.... all the way til 11 when i cant even close my eyes... to noe morning has arrived...
really dun feel lyk meeting him tml anymore... too tired to go anywhere... juz wish i could rot at home.....
even spending time to find and change my blogskin doesnt give me the satisfaction as it used to...
juz receiced his msg telling me he finished his dinner and going to start nite training soon.....
so wad? i really dun care...or rather i really dun wanna care.... it doesnt make a difference wad... i feel so tired and lethargic....
i so wish that tonite when i sleep... maybe one of my nitemares will take me away..
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:37 AM
A Walk Down Memory Laneoh well... last nite deardear tell me he booking out at lunchtime ard 12 lyk tt... so ask me leave my hse at ard 11.30... then this morn he call me at 9.30 to say he booking out at 11.30 and ask me to gauge the time i leave my hse to meet him at cck... at ard 11.30 i msg him i reaching cck... he tell me his coach come back and talking to them... so he'll be late... i said it was fine and i would wait... afterall it was only at most an hour i would have to wait... he msg me at nearing 12 that he was booking out soon.... and juz after 12 he called me to say he kena confined and most prob cannot come out til 5... i said i would go home he insisted that i dun..... so i said i would wait for him at cck and when he book out to call me.... at ard 12.15 or perhaps even later... he msg me to ask me to go home cuz he maybe cannot come out til tml....
i have got nth to say... i am at freaking cck which is so darn far from my hse... roused from my sleep so early in the morning to travel so far only to find out everything was for naught.... i feel so indignant and pissed but i cant throw my temper cuz there is no one to blame... wadeva...
first i tot i would go to CP... budden totally lost my mood to go out with anyone... plus i was so sleepy... so i decided to go home.... taking the mrt.. i arrived at Khatib.. which is in Yishun... on an impluse i decided to get off the train...
Khatib was where i used to live b4 i moved to Simei... i would say i have alot of memories there... afterall my childhood was spent there... even though i moved to Simei at the age of 9... cirumstances there cuz me to grow up within 6mths... and hence of my childhood... wad i could rmb of were all linked to Yishun...
besides the street name... Yishun Street 81... i had difficulty rmb-ing anything else abt there... promises made by me and others to myself to come back had nv come true.. so this time i took a walk down this familarly strange road alone...
walking down the streets and finally arriving at my old block 874 brought back memories half hidden by time..the overhead bridge... the two storey Macdonald's.... the market where the fishmonger still has his store.... the stall where they used to sell durians... the upstairs which used to be the hairdressing salon where those years ago i cut my long tresses to chin length and went straight home to cry... the curved road where i used to cross waving my hand in front of me causing my mother to rebuke me saying that taxi drivers may stop thinking that i flagged down a cab and they would be very angry with me to noe i was only playing... my block number 874... the nursery at 874 where i used to study.... that lift that i always pretended to sleep when we took a cab home so my dad would carry me home up the lift... and finally my house.. door number 10-199...
going back downstairs... i found myself walking along that familiar road to my old primary school... and the school has changed alot.... turning to go back to the Mrt station.... i reflected upon the torrid of emotions that overcame me on this impromptu walk down the memory lane...
i came to terms with myself that time has washed away all the bitterness and unhappiness that these places used to hold.... leaving only the beautified memories that i have...
so there is no use looking back to the past and wishing wad it had been... for all u noe... these may juz only be wad u wished it to be...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
9:04 AM
