Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Nothing To Do...

actually i juz have nth to do so come and crap somemore.. tml got training.. i dun feel lyk going lehz.. yu yan's back.. happy or sad.. both la.. sad that she is back.. but happy that now we dun have to be so stressed and freaked abt everything.. happy oso that i dun have to consider to sign on or not.. or maybe now my decision is more chim le.. dunno la.. i dun wan go SNCO le.. so ya.. dun sign on. made my decision.. wun sign on.. i wun change my mind de.. really.. i going to sleep le la.. zzzzzzzz

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:16 PM

?Nikki?

oh pls.. some of josh's comments were too precious... i mean.. my bf? i think my closest dear is my pc rite now... whch is basically dead la.. and his english is so correct.. makes my head swim reading it..i think maybe thats why my compo is getting suckier.. and today my chinese o lvl.. wa.. i dun have time to check all the words i dunno from my dictionary.. so i got one whole page with missing words only han yu pin yin in their place.. i am lyk so screwed la.. i guess all the good luck msg-es were not of much use.. i ran out of luck and time.. ahhhhh... now at my cousin's hse anyway.. life is boring and life sucks.. oh.. and pls stop calling me nikki.. its not nice la.. my name is jie hui. it is so much better than nikki can? i dun lyk the name nikki so stop calling me tt la.. pls pls pls.. can call me hui hui lyk louisa or even xiao hui lyk shannon.. juz not nikki la.. u think its nice meh? i dun think so lo.. i really wun respond to the name next time le k? wonder how did issac's friendly go yesterday.. hope he din injure himself again.. hope that he won.. praying for u too k? jia you.. and camp going to pulau ubin.. nooooooo..... comfort me.. i am sad.. cuz the mosquitos there love me.. i think they miss me after i left them on the island last year.. i will find out how much exactly did they miss me on 4th of june lo.. i wan watch x men 3.. who will pei me watch? i think i am goign crazy.. miss my beloved..

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:26 AM

Monday, May 29, 2006

I'm Not Nikki

Well if you are such a crazy person like Nikki you will get someone to type out your blog entry for you. So first thing first, I am josh, and this is what nikki dictates to me. She is very unhappy about her hair now and she says she regrets cutting her fringe, but she always says that after she cuts her fringe so there is not much a difference. Well since I am typing her entry for her I can add in the comments that I wan to. She says she will edit post later. But if her dear sees it before she edits it then too bad. Anyway, if she is going to edit it later, why don't she type it herself later? She says its different on the different days it is typed out. But the dates can be changed right? Insincere she says, not good as memories. But honestly I do not see the difference. Complains that today her room and bed is dusty, moving furniture sucks. Warned me not to mention her dear. But I already did. Why don't mention him? You guys did not do anything wrong right? Hide so many things from your friends for what? However, she did not willingly reveal the fact that her boyfriend exist. I just happened to see her sms. by accident of course. This will teach you to remember to delete private messenges my dear girl. I think this is becoming more of my entry than hers. She refuses to let me continue typing for her. Says I am runing her beautiful memories. Well my dear Nikki, your password's safe with me, as always. Or you can change it too. Cheerios.

P.S. Your friends really do not understand that when your status on msn is set to away means that you are away, so they can stop IM-ing you. Also, when they are not replied they insist on IM-ing you until you get so pissed. Take your friends in hand please Nikki.

P.P.S. good luck for your O's tomorrow.

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:36 PM

Sunday, May 28, 2006

2346

my hard disk broke down again.. now using my fren's laptop to blog... time is almost 12 le... haha.. gonna blog thru the nite.. but i very sleepy le... hmm.. today was quite interesting... cant believe the first thing i did in my new hse was tt... wa... can die lehz... but anyway... was looking for beds today... but then cannot find one that i lyk..

oh shucks... time now is 2.05!!! i fell asleep! now i got keyboard prints on my face... oh... anyway... so now room is only going to have my mattress on the floor... no bed... haha... i shall go sleep le... cutting my hair tml... i meant later in the day... haha... wonder how i goign to look lyk.. hehe..

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:09 PM

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Tired

i am juz so tired with everything la.. suddenly everything that seems to be going great a few days ago... now seems to be going downhill all the way.. nth makes sense anymore... nth at all.. so confuse now.. did i do the right thing tt day when i agreed.. it was not so long ago... but it seemed to belong in another lifetime..am i regreting it so qiuckly? i hope not.. sian...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:23 PM

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Principal

hmmm... got to meet principal again lehz... L1R5 more than 39 i think... this time got study lehz... pek chek... lyk got study no study the same one... all go see the principal... stupid... so fucked up...

today sms-ed u twice no reply... msn oso... izzit supposed to be lyk tt?

hmmm... jolvin's life is fucked up... so is mine... reality sucks

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
9:16 AM

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Painting The House

painted the house til my arms going to drop.... so tired... haha... dun wanna blog much... arms too tired...

wanted to sms u today... but din noe wad to send u... so i din... starting to dunno wad to say to u le... u busy with ur stuff.. 226 seems very very very long ago... so does pasir ris park... almost lyk in another life... how weird... it seems a long time since we even sms-ed each other... i seem to sms issac even more than u... izzit supposed to be lyk tt?

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
11:23 AM

Monday, May 22, 2006

Men

wad is it with men are? have the men on the roads been living under a rock or sth? wads wrong with sleeveless black tees and jeans? why they act lyk i was wearing something very very revealing lyk tt??? i think i got lots of black sleeveless tees and jeans... haha... but tts besides the point... i was walking home today when two guys walking behind me started ji xiaoing me... they started saying stuff lyk... wa... eh... chio bu lehz.. then cuz i listening to my mp3 then got very good reason to ignore them ma... so i juz pretend nv hear them and continue walking... then they say wad... eh... chio bu so dao lehz... WFT!!?!??! then my fren call me then i talk to her la... then they say.. chiobu english very good lehz... she dun lyk us english no good low class wor... so kao pei leh them... then where i live oso their problem lehz.. eh.. girl live in condo lehz... so rich.. so wonder ignore us la... bunch of idiotic bastards... then all the way they were laughing la... very funny meh... assholes

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:06 PM

Moving House

today walk til legs going to break le... look for lights and fans and my bed... bought lights only... cannot find suitable fans... bed hor... i found one tt i lyked a lot lehz... 750 for single bed... if and mattress oso is 1050.. budden my mother dun wan lehz... so nice lo... haiz... oh well... nvm... see if got beeter ones.. oh... and abt the JNCO position... haha.. now i think i more lucky than wen jie le... hehe... i quite happy with my position la... hai hao... ahha..

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:53 AM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

JNCO Briefing

today is the JNCO briefing... hmmm... sir pia tat seems ok la... wa lao tt sir william... purposely go shoot us... cuz he saw us walk in shirt tuck out... i was running juz now la... then my short drop out i din noe ma... i tucked in my shirt le lo... kaoz... but anyway... pia tat talk more interesting for some reason... william makes me wanna sleep.. i oso dunno why.. my teams members hai hao la... team 5... hmmm... today feel weird... very not used to it.. painted my new hse today... so tired... today ate breakfast at 6 in the evening... juz finished my dinner... KFC!! haha so nice!! going to sleep le anyway... hehe

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:39 PM

Saturday, May 20, 2006

FaiLiNG..................

hmmm... lets see wad have i not failed at... i failed in studies... as a fren... as a daughter... as a student.. as a sister... as a niece.. as a galfren... wad have i not failed at? i even failed my life... this totally sux...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:30 PM

Friday, May 19, 2006

My SuckY Results

oh... my results are so terrible.... the only exam tt i got study for lo... and i only juz pass everything la... so sad lo me... haiz... if wan to be really really optimistic i will say tt got improve ment cuz i used to borderline fail everything now is borderline pass everything??? oh man... i really no mood go wad camp do wad thing le la... juz wanna sleep my hols away... so sad!!! but then cuz reaults so bad then muz start start studying lo... for prelims... then after prelims got to start studying for o's then tt means my whole life after this will be study study study... sian!!! is totally SIAN!!! totally!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh.....

Da Vinci Code

on a brighter note... the DVC totally rox!! juz watched it today... was supposed to go paint my new hse... but... haha... DVC is more interesting... hehe... go watch tt show is so troublesome lo... first we went to marina rite... then we booked 3 tickets for 3 ppl who r not there and we dunno de... wa... actually is me and carmen de.. then i ask christine... then after tt daryl say wan go watch... then chris ask if wan watch with us... then the whole gang went lo... chris jo xinxin yangyu joel jia hao daryl then they even ask karen along... who din go to sch la... then karen went... then jing ying say she wan go oso... and her fren oso go... i was lyk WTF!!! then cuz of them they go book tickets lo... in the end when the rest of us couldnt buy the tix at GV we had to sell the tix lo.. then spent so much time finding ppl to buy.. finally found 3 ppl.. so sian... then me and carmen pia to suntec... the rest walk so slowly lo... wa... was lyk... i wan quick quick go buy and watch... later no tix... time almost up le lehz... finally we got to watch... the show rox man... the ppl all come out looking wird...cuz they not lyk wad i imagined them to be lehz... haha... i tot the robert langdon for however u spell is name... was tall with slightly greying hair... and lanky probably... but definitly not tom hanks... and i tot silas would be this hulking fellow lo... cuz silas is supposed to have brute strength... and he is albino... albino is blue eyes one meh.. haha... i oso dunno actually... haha.. and then hor... they got this skinny guy who looks damn weak to act as silas... and then hor... i tot the jacques wadeva... hahha... forgot his name le... i tot he would be this skinny weak looking but quite string old man lehz... cuz museum caretaker ma... haha.. but he turned out to look stronger and more solidly built than silas... haha... i pity silas u noe... cuz his character is very sad... his childhood was very sad... lyk... his father din lyk him la... and abuse his mother... and he accidently killed his father trying to protect his mum... then when he got out of prison... the bishop wadeva guy looked after him.. and instead of saying that he was a ghost lyk his father did...bishop told him he was an angel... and i think he bishop really did love him lo.. i mean he was lyk totally sad when silas died... and silas totally loved the bishop oso... is damn obvious.. he was totally devoted to the bishop.. and he died for him... he even did the corporal dunno wad de... self inflicting pain to go thru wad jesus went thru... hmmm. is very sad lo... ya...

People Who Dun Exist

y ask 3 non existant ppl to go? lyk WTF?!?! and jing ying go for wad? ask her fren for wad? in the end she nv even sit with us la... dumbshit... lyk who was the one who say dun lyk when the class go out ask extra ppl along who the rest dunno... is she say she wan come de... then she come le ask her fren along..is absolutly duh... i noe tt jo they all noe tt "fren" of hers la... but c'mon... i am not invisible la... so pissed lo... and she lyk always dress to impress karen they all.. go out with me jeans and spagetti straps... go out with them? tube... damn short skirts... pls... i noe u always tot they higher class than me but c'mon... the skirt u wearing today totally sucked... u might as well dun wear anything... and wan wear lyk tt then wear lyk u mean it... walk with more confidence can... dun slouch... karen wear only jeans and tee has more class than u la... for goodness sake lo... walk and wear ur clothes lyk u mean it... so no confidence then dun wear... u juz look plain weird... and ppl are looking at u not cuz u look nice cuz u look weird... ppl look at karen cuz she got class.. u? juz fuck off.. u complain to everyone tt i am lyk so bad to u... this is wad i call bad k? in this post i am being plain mean... and i noe it!! ok? look at my previous post abt u... if tt is treating u bad wad is this... gal... u totally fucked up... absolutely...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:31 PM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Sucky Day

wa... today my results were juz totally lyk shit man... so irritated... then sylvia over there keep saying her results very bad... wa lao eh... noe she damn good la... no consideration for ppl's felling's de... knn... so pek chek lo... feel lyk killing her.. hmmm... tml going to watch da vinci code... so fun!!! hehe.. cant wait... hmmm... i found a present for issac le... happy happy happy.. hehe... oh... and yu yan may be coming back lehz... i very sad lehz... =( hmmm... but ahroy most lykly not coming back le... he going to NS in september... sianz...hmmm... oh.. the new hse is so troublesome... tml they going to start painting... sianz.... hmmm... haha... i hope the com gets to be in my room.. and the tv too!! i dun wan the stero set le... got my hi-5 can le... love the song yi zhi hen an jing.... ahha... when to eat pasta manis today... haha.. prawn and fish roe... make me pok le... haha... but very nice!!! hehe... hmm... i wan go sleep le anyway... very sleepy today... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

loving u
thinking of u
wonder wad u doing now
hope u having as much fun as i am

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:12 PM

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Not Regreting

i had been thinking abt it all this time... and i realised that no matter how sorry i am to u... i cannot regret wad i have done... it doesnt matter wad happeneds in the future but i wun regret... but i really din mean to do it... i really hope u will forgive me if u ever find out... i think i made the wrong desision... but i will not regret making it... i am really sorry...

where are u? the one i gave up her for? it seems lyk in only 2 weeks we have dirfted apart... dread ad is goignt o happen in a few more weeks... even days... i am counting the days dear...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:34 PM

Am I Wrong Again??

am i wrong again.. i dunno whhy but recently i keep doubting myself... maybe its got to do with POP.. pls dun let me be wrong again... i am so afraid this mistake might juz do it... where are u when i need u? so far u have always been there for me... when i need u... but where are u now? i need u... but i canot tell u y... i promised i wun... its getting diffcult.... i am so sry... really so so sorry... do u understand how sorry am i? can u understand why i did it? will u be able to forgive me for not heeding u? and thinking u childish and immature and not trusting enough? oh no... if only i listened to u... but i dunno why... can anyone understand how i feel? am i being selfish? much too selfish? pls tell me... can anyone tell me? i cant even tell anyone... who can i tell? no one is supposed to noe... i love u being trueful to me cuz it means so much too me... really... i hope u will always be as trueful to me... really... i will really always love u... honestly... foreva...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:57 AM

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Sad sad Sad

hmmm... supposed to be sleeping now de... but then i dun feel lyk sleeping lo... jiu shi thinking of something... but dunno is wad lo... then... i keep having this dream tt i keep saying mei shi jian le... it juz keep recurring... but i cannot rmb wad happenes.. i juz onyl rmb tt there is no time... but no time for wad i dunno lehz... itz very disturbing... sth is bothering me but i dunno wad... juz keep thinking of this thing tt makes no sense at all... juz wish i noe wad izzit.. or juz froget abt it... itz really confusing me... but i feel so alone once again... lyk there is no one i can turn to again... i oso dunno why... haiz... goign crazy again... for 2 weeks nv feel so lost le... itz coming back again and i dunno why... so sianz...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:38 PM

Evil Ex-Owner

the old owner of my new hse very bad lehz... we give him free extention of 3 weeks to stay he still take this thing take tt thing... then leave so many holes all around the wall... very ugly lehz... i very sad... then... hmmm... this few days he got sms me lehz... oso dun really noe wad to say to him la... hmmm... but i oso cannot tell ppl... not tt i wanna tell.. is lyk... erm.. weird lo... oh... my next door neighbour is very nice!! jc de... dunno how old... he see us locking up then ask if we are the new owners... then he say welcome to us!!! so sweet lo... haha... hmmm... i oso very sad cuz of my results... i only juz passs english... i oso dunno wad happened lehz.. i keep doing very badly for my languages... haiz... dunno wad happened..so sian lo.. and erm... guess tts all la... and i found a present for issac le... but i no time go buy... maybe sticking to owing him a movie is better.... and i robably going to watch him play for his bball tornament... he train til so hard... hmmm... wonder how he will play... esp when he is lyk going to be s seriously injured... i so worried for him la... hmmm... u din sms me today... did u hurt urself badly today? i ate my dinner as promised... relly... dun hurt urself k?

still thinking abt u... wondering if u are hurting bad...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:36 PM

Bad Day/Good Day

yesterday i was very very sad lehz... i dunno why... juz feel very sad... then keep wanting to cry... today arh.. not very happy... but hai hao la... hmmm... later going to get the keys to my new hse.. hmm... now got bigger room le... shld i be happy? hmmm.... dunno lehz.. i keep wondering wad the feng shui master said yesterday... abt me waiting... maybe he is rite... i dunno lehz... cuz maybe i shld wait... then i wun feel so bad... i not really looking forward to my POP... wad if she comes? i dunno how to face her... i feel so bad... how can he lyk not feel anyhtin... i dun even dare ask izzit becuz of me lehz... i dun wanna noe... later the answer is ad i dun wanna hear.. wadeva i wan to hear i oso dunno... i dun even wanna think abt it... haiz... how lehz... i oso dunno... post more later.. going to take keys le...

care for you...
comes deep from my heart...
so no matter how rarely i will be seeing you...
you will always be in my heart...

()""()
( 'o' )")

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:45 AM

Monday, May 15, 2006

My Fortune...

today got a feng shui master go view my new hse and see if it is suitable for us.. he soon bian see our fortune la... he say i got the duan zhang.. hmmm... supposed to be a good thing ba... but i dunno good for wad... he say tt i shld not get a bf too early.. cuz it will not work out... hmm.. he muz be very smart... i get bf early wun work out oso noe... but he oso say i can only get married after the age of 27 or my marrige will not work out... izzit true? i wanted to get married b4 25... when i still rmb wad izzit lyk to be a kid... a teenager.. so i can understand my kids better... i was looking incredusly at him... then he say if i wait dun need to worry wun be able to get married... by tt time i will be picking from a bunch of guys... haha... sounds nice? i dun think so lehz... i feel very sad rite now... i wanna cry... but once again i dunno y... i tot i was over tt already... sth juz made me very sad... i dunno wad izzit... do i really not noe or do i not wanna noe...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:56 AM

Poseidon

went to watch it with my cousin yesterday... and his fren who kanna paiseh by the gf... the gf very funny... at nite confirm say wan go out with him then next day tell him she going out with her gfs hahha... and tt that show is quite nice la... hmmm... dun have very drama stuff... but keeps u interested til the end la... people die... lots of ppl... haha.. the fren look quite shuai lehz... then baby heard his voice and say he sound lyk royston.. haha he more shuai than royston lo.. lyk honestly... he oso very sweet to his gf... but he keep saying til lyk his gf not romantic at all the... sad lehz.. he buy this big bear for his gf tts so cute lo... then he say he go her hse see the big white bear become very dirty... then she tell him she lazy wash the bear.. then my cousin say tt means she every nite hug the bear to sleep ma... haha... then he say he wan buy one of the couple figurine haha... then my cousin say why not buy the guy for her and say he nv buy the gal... then see if the gf will zu dong go buy a guy one for him not... haha.. then the fren say she will buy cai guai... haha... then cousin say go make puzzle for her la... then the fren say she give tt look arh... forget it.. haha... she wun lyk de... so funny lo.. then they go play pool... keep asking me to play... i dun wan... then they play play play then i juz stand there watch.. haha.. after tt i say i wan go home then they walk with me to city hall mrt station.. then they go makan... i go home watch xian jian qi xia zhuan... haha... chinese paladin very nice!! the ling er very chio!!! haha... me so jealous... where got ppl so chio de... haha... but last episode le... no more le.. haha...
oh.... and today he lyk very not happy... dunno y... i call him he nv pick up... sms oso nv reply... wonder wads wrong with him... he juz say he not happy with his mother only... haiz...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:07 AM

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Orchard Road Sux

orchard road totally sux... there is lyk nth! u juz can walk walk walk... nowhere to go... lest u wan to go windows shopping... cuz for ppl lyk us we have juz no money for most of the things there!!! even though bugis is lyk damn small compared to orchard... me prefer bugis la.. more affordable stuff for me.. today for buy presents... with lynn... wa... walk til leg now damn pain... haha... and i think ppl think we lesbians lo... cuz i talking to my fren on the phone then lynn keep asking who is it.... then i ask her she jealous arh... then got this guy keep staring at us... then very funny... but i nv tell lynn.. haha... anyway... staring... i nowadays go out muz wear jacket de lo... if dun wear i feel very weird... lyk very exposed lyk tt.. so jacket better... then lynn lyk think i crazy lyk tt... my mummy oso... say singapore so hot still wear jacket go out... hmmm... i really getting paranoid... lyk always feel got ppl star at me de... oh well.. hope its juz a phase be... hahha... hope it will be over soon... its putting a strain on me... my poor nerves... hhaa

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:05 PM

Friday, May 12, 2006

Exams Is OVER!!!

ooooo.... me is so happy!!! the exams over le... i so stressed i dropped 2kg le lei.... so cham... aiyo... haha.. now no need so ya li le.... only mid yr i drop 2kg.... wa... then prelims how? 4? 5? haha... then o lvl even worse... 10?!!? hahha... goign out tml... buy baby's presents with lynn... and then i go out again... haha... so happy... then on sati going out with my kor kor... watch poseidoon with his fren.... he got his pay and is treating me!! haha so happy... oh... and i am JNCO ATC lehz... so sian lo... haha... but better than medic... wen jie so shuang.. training NCO... i oso wan... then i can slack.... cuz sounds more slack than JNCO ATC lo...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
8:40 AM

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Aikido

me starting to not lyk aikido le... u cannot lyk tt de la... u lyk tt fall fall fall hor.... back pain le lehz... later u hurt urself seriously how?ask u look after urself properly u dun wan.... go join aikido... then come out all here pain there pain.... cannot lyk tt de la... haiz... then issac another guy dun noe how to look after himself de... practise bball til left ankle left shoulder rite knee and back all swollen... then both of u still say can take it... dun u noe ur boby noes itself better than u noe urself... the moment it starts protesting u noe sth wrong le la... trying to stretch ur limits is fine... but dun overreach can? haiz... and ppl still say i dun noe how to look after myself... look at these two guy... once there was a ballerina who was a raising starlet in the dance arena... there was a huge performance coming up that could make or break her career... she trained very hard for it... budden one day she sprained her ankle... she refused to take a rest insisting that she could take it... that she knew her own body best... on the day of the performance.... she took her first jump out en pointe... she broke her ankle... she couldnt ever dance again... where she could have taken a 2 weeks break... she now had to take a lifetime's break... i dun wan u to be lyk tt... do u noe how worried am i for u... i noe u love wad u are doing... u do it cuz u enjoy it... u do it cuz u wanna be in tip top condition.... u tell me u can take it... that i stop worrying.. that u noe ur body best... but it is that sentence i am afraid of... i dun wan u to break ur back becuz of a fall... or break ur leg cuz of a jump.. promise me u will look after urself... if u hurt ur back u will regret it lo... please dun make me worry... kan dao wo xin tong le...

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:40 PM

Lesbians

personally i got nth against homosexuality.... but i do have sth against PDA... hugging and kissing is fine... but when u start giggling loudly... or when u start to make loud noises abt sensitive parts... it gets irritating... it doesnt matter if the sesitive part u refering to is ur ear k... its juz damn irritating... and when ur gf ask u to stop it... or when she is sqeauling too loudly please stop... u are on a bus for goodness' sake.. normal couples dun do tt... if u say u lesbians are not normal couples doesnt mean u can irritate others or make them feel uncomfortable... afterall they are ppl u taking the bus with de..

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
11:56 AM

10 Days

hmmm... 10th day le... haha... til now i still bit shock lehz.... lyk dun relly noe wad is going on... me very happy la anyway... but i still feel abit bad lehz... am i very selfish? er.... dunno la... i noe sometimes i abit lyk blow hot and cold la.... so sorry... haha... bear with me a while can? haha... i abit dunno wad to do la... i really hope i dun ever see her again... dunno how to mian dui her lehz...

anyway... today we go eat pastamania... creamy chicken... really creamy lo... but very nice... i going broke le... cannot spend so much le... haha... hmmm... the rest i commit to memory le.... wahahha... is locked in moi heart... lalala

My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:53 AM

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Confused....

wad the hell la... how come lyk whole world noe u guys broke up... wtf... promise u wun say u go say... heng is not i tell u de la... u ownself go account to her u freaking brainless kou shi xin fei guy... damn freaking dumb u are man.... so fucking dumb la... u lyk tt treat her one arh... u think u very great meh? i htink u and him the same lo... all two face de... think u all very great... so wei da... go around bo qu tong qing... only lishi and louisa tian zhen enough to believe ur lies la... then act til u so ke lian... i dint hate u guys so much one lo... i din even bother abt u guys la... is til u drag lishi and louisa in then i hate u de lo... juz cuz u caninfluence them u think u really tt great arh? there are stioll ppl out ther who dun believe ur lies la... and i am not the only one hor... so pls... stop thinking that the whole world is dumb lyk u k? juz stop it... its irritating...

i damn sian le... today talk abt u lehz to them... then... oso dunno la... maybe should meet up so much ba.. i dunno lehz.. wad if i get sick of u??? gasp... then how? cannot lyk tt de... actually i juz kididng nia... tml u going to school? if not pei me ba.. cuz i nowadays bit stressed up getting... my english today is horrible... hope this wun happen on wed... or i die arh... exam so freaking stressed sia...

kor say he wan teach me how to go down slope lehz... haha... think he will succeed? i oso dunno lehz... i juz dun dare la... nth i or anyone can do ma... i wan go down but jiu shi dun dare lo...

JNCO and sec 1 camp may clash lehz... how? so sian lo.. haiz.. if i tio medic for JNCO i dun wan go le... haha.. i go for the sec 1 camp... dun lyk medic la... cannot sleep de... then muz remind ppl eat medicine.. so dumb... hmmm... actualyl nth in JNCO is appealing lo.. logistic muz look after all items... then any lost muz acct for it... then ration muz do food... so ma fan... think everyone can lyk ahroy lyk tt meh... got cheap and good food... he lyk noe lots of ppl got damn good connections la... then can do this kind of things.. wan cheap good food so easy meh... otherwise the ppl complain complain complain.. sianz...

thinking that maybe we shold stop doing tt lehz... its not very appealing to me lyk... actually i dun lyk it at all la honestly.. whether is u or me doing it i oso dun lyk lehz.. i dun mind if i do it... but can u not do it? lyk i juz dun feel comfortable lo.. 226 dun seem so fun le.. hmm... i shld be more firm lehz... should so xin ruan anything oso ok to u ppl... lyk tt i very xin ku lehz..

yin zhi signing on.. haha.. so wei da... i dun think i so wei da lehz... see first ba i think... haiz.... dunno la... i hate my mum la... dun lemme go SNCO last yr.. even though i wasnt very keen on going if she lemme go i wun now so difficult dunno wad to do le... sianz.. damn confused la... lyk everything dun make sense le... study so ard everthing oso lyk shit lyk tt... still this dunno how to do tt dunno how to do...wads the point la... i oso dunno... sianz...

yesterday watched when a stranger calls not bad la the show... to me is thrilling enough.... to him lyk nth lyk tt... depends on the ppl ba... poor gal in the end go crazy after being tramatized... then the stranger very bian tai.. beginning i think he chop the ppl up one lehz... the police bring out the body is one bag one bag de... and is got lots of bags lo.. got another part he kill the main character's fren then leave her on the ground lehz.. and then he put the hp next to the fren's face and call the phone.... then he phone keep ringing and lighting up the fren's face... so disgusting lo... and then at the same time his phone oso ring lehz... xia si ren... got another part the main character keep asking him wad he wan then he suddenly say he wan her blood all over him... disgusting lehz.. another one is the stranger suddenly appear behind her... then xia si ren oso... beginning of the show jiu start scaring ppl le... till the end... the suspense is kept up throughout the show.. at the end of the show my nerves were so strained that i finally understood the meaning of nerve wreaked... he still laugh at me.. so bad lo.. if i the gal in the movie i rather die la... lyk tt tramatise is even worse lo...

shouldnt have mentioned my blog... u coem see le so paiseh lo... wa... then read all this post.... i jiu shi countign on no one coming then very happy post all my entries here de... then u lyk tt i xin tong lehz... got ppl come... then later i post sth not very nice then someone gets angry... then on my blog oso need to gu lu dao ppl's feelings when this is supposed to be where i vent my feelings de... haiz... thats y here most of the times very sad de... cuz this is my only outlet for anger.. this is my way of anger management... otherwise i will bao zha de... then even more ppl will get hurt de... k? ya....i crapping again... making no sense... but oh well... nvm... thats juz me ba... this is my blog and i will do wad i lyk with it... i dun care u lehz... wad u going to do? heng... nah nanee poo poo.. lalalalala... this is my heaven.... cuz only god can tolerate my crappiness..... bitchiness..... unfeelingness..... rudeness..... shityness..... nonsensicalness..... wad elseness..... i dunnoness......

hmmm... i lyk the song ru guo de shi... haha... oso dunno y... the title very nice... cuz everything is all ru guo... no one can honestly say they noe wad they wanna do in the future or wad is going to happen in the future cuz lots of factors contribute to the futre... any difference in any of the factors will cuz a change in ur future,,, i oso dunno wad is going to happen in the future... how do i promise u anything? i can say this say that but who can really make sure that that is going to happen? no one la... if sth comes up then how? i dun lyk vows.... becuz more often than not they dun come ture... they only give false security and false hopes.... stop promising me things that might not come true becuz u and i noe tt it is difficult...

this thurs exam end le... u pei me go out k? can? friday we go out.... can? pls? who am i asking? i dunno lehz.... anyone wan go out with me on thurs or fri oso can de... i really damn bored le.. 27th or may going out with sj ppl i hope... celebrate ahroy and tian qing's bdae... then 9th of june got nursings outing... finally!! we say nursings wan outing from sec 1 say til now still dun have... muz cheng we haven pass out yet go out as nursings... then later.... dunno who will sign on oso... most wun de la.... haha.... i hope u gals dun forget that 2015 lst day of the year we goignt o meet again u noe... reuion of the 2003 batch of nursings.. haha... then later see how we all changed.. wonder id anyone will be married or have kids by then.... hmmmm haha..

tml i finish school at round 9 lyk tt lehz... so boring... nth to do de... study chem? dun wan la... its boring... wanan go out... but everyone else studying for exams de... then no one goign out... if ask any of my frens they oso ask me go tudy... but i so early finish school la... 9 lehz... even if i go out til 4 oso got time to go home study de ma... damn stupid sia...

study so hard oso no use de... oso do so badly... worse arh... study for chem oso always fail de... and is borderline fail la... always fail by 1 or 2 marks only... fail by more i not so xin tong la...fail lyk tt little bit very sad de lo... y i cannot borderline pass arh? pass jiu shi pass ma... fail jiu shi fail... borderline pass jiu shi pass ma... in the report book is nv underline de... fail by 1 mark oso fail... will have the line the... so sian la... study le oso fail... dunno study for wad... study to fail arh... so dumb sia..

i crap so much today that i am confused abt wad is going on le... and i am more confuse than b4 i type these stuff... wad to do lehz... i oso dunno... damn stress lehz... haiz... sianz.... stress arh... dumbshit...

stupid-freaking-idiotic-bastardic-fuckup-of-nature-and-reject-of-society-that-have-no-life-but-to-throw-it-away-and-iriitate-others-with-ur-presence-while-taking-up-valuable-resouces-of-the-earth-that-could-otherwise-be-given-to-the-poor-also-hogging-up-space-that-could-be-used-for-other-stuff-lyk-shit-which-is-more-useful-that-u-along-with-breathing-in-the-oxygen-that-could-help-reduce-greenhouse-effect-all-the-time-disgracing-ur-poor-parents-who-have-to-suffer-having-u-as-their-child

that was totaly lame... but felt really damn good... who am i refering to? is for me to noe and for u poor-fucks-who-have-nth-to-do-but-come-read-my-dumb-blog to find out... lallalala.... so fun.... hate u hate u hate u.... wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...................................... i dun care abt u or anyone else for that matter... life's goo lyk tt... reall good.... honestly... i sound lyk i am lying? maybe i am... how would i noe?

my freak of a mum keeps scolding me.... it's irritating me... lyk i nv study.. keep asking me to study.... wads the meaning of tt... freaking dumb la.... u nv get a chance to study cuz u got weak body and always sick so cannot attend ur lessons often is not my fault la... u dun have to force studying on me to fulfil urself can? do that to ur son... not me... k? not me.... dun irritate me... stop trying to live ur life thru me... stop trying to restrict me to stop doing things that u wun do or got no guts to do... becuz i am me and u are u... i am who i am and stop trying to change me into who i dun wanna be... i wun be ur puppet lyk he is...torture others if u wan but not me.. ok? get off my back and stop trying to kill me.. if i wanna die i will kill myself... i dun need ur help in ending my own life.. u gave me a life and i thank u for tt... but i am in my own rite a person... i will repay u for giving me a life as best as i can but that does not involve me letting u live ur life thru me cuz we are completly different and will nv get along well with each other... yes... so thats juz abt it... now u shut up

this muz really be the longest post ever ba... oh man... i dun think will have anymore post to rival this post le.... dun think i will ever have the energy again to type so much things at one go again... hmmm... budden i oso dunno.... later i next time got post even longer than this on... then jiu funny le... very funny meh? i oso dunno... juz crapping le... haiz.... dun wan study le... so stressed and sian la... bored...

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xoxo nikki
9:10 AM

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Long Absence...

i so long nv blog le... everyday go out til 10 then go home... haha... no time to go online... no time to blog... no time for anything le... wa... i now is lyk very tired.. only slp for 15 mins on thursday nite... then go exam for physics and history... can pass my papers i very lucky le... i today slp til 12 plus then wake.. cuz my mummy switch off my air con... : ( wake up i was feeling so hot lyk my body in oven lyk tt... then got headache somemore... so uncomfortable... i go brush teeth then eat bread... then vomited my food out... wa... then i go slp again... wake up so hungry... but i still dun feel lyk eating... then i take my temperature cuz still very hot... 38.1 degree lehz... then i go drink water and slp again... i dun dare tell my mum later she tell me go see doctor then v sian... slp le wake up... see see look look around my room.. and slp again... til 5 plus... take temperature again... 37.2... heng arh... tml jia feng teaching me emath.. haha... test on monday lehx... today nv study at all lo.. damn sian.. haha.. after that i going out again.. cuz jiafeng got tuition at 11 hmmm... hahah... had so much fun in the last few days... haha... cept for the exam part... i pangseh-ed carmen on friday lehz.... then i go out... in the end we took the same bus lehz.. but dunno if she got see me.. dun think she will regconise me anyway... i look v diff.. haha.. hope she din be... i feel so bad ps-ing her... i had a weird dream... loads of weird dream... tt involves mei ying kristin and shearn chong... then got another one got shearn chong kenny and another guy and loads of other ppl.. is juz all very weird... haha... funny thing is all got shearn chong.. haha.. but in them he nv talk one... haha.. dunno why.. so sian... still got headeache... i going to slp le... today din study at all... oooo... later got elections results!! i cant wait!!! hahaha....

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xoxo nikki
9:26 AM

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

2359-010506

hmmm... haha.. the best number!! me so happy now.. today had so much fun at 226... haha... shld have juz left u lyk tt... then see how u jie jue ur prob... haha... me is evil... wheeeeee.... but i very happy! haha... nth can ruin my happiness.. haha.. i forgot abt him le... i got butter! hahah.. my butter rox!! wheeeeeee...... i dun wanna go for camp lehz... need wake up so early de... and then so dirty... sianz lo... and shld i sign on? i dunno lehz.. i dun really wanna get jia zai zhong jian le lehz.. haiz... butter... tell me wad to do ba.. ahhaha... so happy!!! oh well.. memories are for me myself and butter... haha

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xoxo nikki
12:41 PM

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Don't Try To Put Me Down

kanna ps-ed by him again.. haha... i think my blog is getting filled with him... no one can put me down lyk tt... or make me feel inferior... i dun allow u to do it either.. hehe.. i wun bother abt u le la.. tml in class better not look at me... go look at ur shui jing... dun look at me k? cuz i not going to bother abt u le... i cannot allow anyone to hurt me lyk tt la... damn sian... i think i am going crazy... i atually told landis wad happened to me last tme.. am i crazy or am i crazy... fancy telling him... oh well.. wads done cannot be changed.. so... twinkle twinkle little star... i am really honestly crazed.. and u cuz me to be lyk tt de... me wanna say i hate u... but cannot lehz.. haiz... haha... me is really sot sot le... llalalalallal

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xoxo nikki
2:32 AM

Monday, May 01, 2006

Hate/Love

i dunno to love or hate u... haha... erm.. well.. i guess bit ma mu le la... how can u say dun lyk and tell me things lyk if u ask then i can dun one.. as if i am really that impt? y? doesnt tt mean that u lyk me? for me to be able to get u to do things lyk tt? tell me now i can try to make u lyk me? why would i wanna do tt? i guess my feelings for u have been pushed so far back into my heart that i dun feel anything for u anymore... no love... no hate.. no nothing at all.. haha.. how absolutely dumb of me!! haha.. i think i am better of lyking sb lyk issac... at least i can delusionalize myself.. haha.. at least i dun have to see him everyday in school staring at me in class and along corridors.. haha... how absolutle pathatic of me... bleahx :x

Dirty Old Man

wads wrong with singaporean old men? wad a disgusting bunch of ppl? i wear school uniform oso stare stare stare... so disgusting la... masturbate staring at me wearing uniform... old men got fetish for inform izzit? then i yesterday go out with carmen then i wear jeans and a sleeveless tee... oso got old men when i walk pass say wa so sexy arh... pls lo... not lyk i damn pretty or sexy lyk tt rite? bad taste lo.. then on the bus got this uncle keep staring at me again when i go home.. so freaky lo.. i quickly run to the back of the bus then got another uncle there stare and stare at my butt... so disgusting... y recently so many disgusting old men keep staring at me.. i oso nv wear anything very revealing or wad... jean and sleeveless tee only lehz... very revealing meh... bian tai one... even chung cheng uniform oso wanna stare... uniform cant even see anything lo.. no figure no nothing.. not lyk i got figure oso lo... wa lao... then keep looking... even masturbate... so bad taste.. crazy diry old men..

Mid-Yr Paper One

wa... ppr damn crappy.. this time i sure do til damn cham one.. dun even noe wad i riting.. disgusting... haiz... anyway... after that i go Icon with carmen.. haha... go take neos.. i so happy... went to eat pasta mania... haha... so happy.. hmmm.. we goign esplanade on wed... cant wait.. get issac and jolvin's present.. haha.. oso dunno when can give them... erm.. worse come to worse i next year give them lo.. haha..

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xoxo nikki
3:13 AM