Wednesday, November 29, 2006
What Are You Looking for in a Relationship?another tickle test... hehe my results
Soul MateWho needs a fling when what you want is the whole fairytale: long walks on the beach, up-all-night conversations, and watching sunrises/sunsets in each other's arms. You're probably a picky dater who doesn't connect with just anyone. Sure a strong intellectual streak, loyalty, and a great sense of humor are terrific selling points. But if your dates can't savor romance like you do, it might be the perfect match you're dreaming of. You're hoping to find your other half, that one person who can finish your sentences, someone who really 'gets' your inner emotions. And until you find them, you probably don't mind flying solo every now and then. That's because deep down, you know that being with the wrong someone is just an obstacle to being with your one-and-only. So even as you're reading this and thinking about how to find them, know that somewhere out there, they're probably wondering the same about you. It's just a matter of time.
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:17 AM
Quit Actingjuz stop acting as if u really care abt me.... becuz itz so obvious u dun.... all u care abt is him, him and still him... it would be much better if u were better at acting and concealing it all from me.... but everytime u slip up and try to cover up? itz juz so fake.... either way i lose... becuz no matter wad i say u will nv change ur mind abt me... itz not lyk i haven tried.... i gave up trying to make ppl who hate me like me becuz i realised that if they are determined to hate u nth u do will ever change their mindset abt u.... u taught me that.... i am still reeling from the injustice of it all.....
but on a happier note.... tml i am going for a job interview... and if i am lucky... i wun have to see u everyday le...... so there.... juz get lost ba...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:50 AM
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Sentosa!!!!okok... i finally went to Sentosa on saturday.... so fun!!!! hmmm... but nv take much pics... there wasnt much to take anyway.... basically most of the pics were of me and dear only... haha.... ZI LIAN!!!!!!
anyway... we go buy the tix for the cable car and the Tour thing... we wanted to buy Tour 1 which have Sky Tower, Cinemania, Underwater World, Dolphin Lagoon and the Jewel Box... then it was raining then the guy say we buy Tour 4 whihc have all the same things except that it dun have Sky Tower.... then cuz it was going to rain then the person say cannot take the Sky Tower if it rains.... then i so sad lo..... cuz everytime i go Sentosa oso cannot take the Sky Tower cuz raining... =(
anyway.... we got kinda lost there cuz we very long nv take cable car there.... then abit disorientated.... first we went to the Underwater World!
this is lyk one gigantic fish can? pretty too.... its abt half of me... =)
this is even larger...... scary fish.... i think its even longer than me.... and the fishes below it is lyk larger than me head......
haha... we saw a fish sort of yawn.... haha... and the mouth open SO BIG!!!! i think my head would fit comfortably inside.....then when to the conveyer belt thingy and see the fishes.... then got one big big blue fish... at first i see very nice lehz.. then i stand there and look at it... then it keep staring back at me and dun move de... only the eyeballs keep lolling around.... so scary.... and i pull dear dear away.... then we go another round.... then the blyue fish dunno go where le.... and then we oso get to see the workers feeding the sharks! so nice lehz..... then the sharks keep eating.... juz nice got a guy go pass us in the belt saying how they noe which shark they feed le.... should make a mark on the sharks ma.... then i whisper to dear saying that the guy very dumb... cuz the shaark eat le full le then wun eat le ma.... hor?
then we go to the Dolphin Lagoon..... nice nice nice... the dolphins haven changed... haha... itz still Hun and Splash and the last dolphin whose name i can nv rmb..... so happy!!!!
next we go Cinemania..... so fun!!! budden cuz i had abit of backache.... then after the thing my back hurt lyk crazy..... budden it was still very very vrey fun!!!!! hehe.... then got this bunch of gals next to us who KEEP screaming and screaming at the slightest thing... haha... budden without their sound effects it wun be to fun le ma... haha
then we made our way to the Musical Fountain.... where i got lyk really really really bored.... cuz we sat there for nearly an hour.... and poor dear dear had to entertain me all the time and keep talking to me..... haha..... then when the fountain started arh.... haah.... it was fun la.... budden not worth the wait..... and all these time it din change... they not sian of doing the same thing over and over and over again meh?
after that we finally get to take the Sky Tower!!!! so happy!!!! and we keep asking the lady who sells the ticket dumb questions.... budden we din do it on purpose lehz.... at fiorst when we juz got to Sentosa in the afternoon rite.... we wanted to noe wad tme is the last ride of the Sky Tower so we can visit later ma... so we ask lo... then she stare at us giving us a weird look while pointing at the glass screen separating us that says tickets sales from 9.30am - 8.30pm...... it was rite infront of us and the both of us... 4 eyes.... din see it.... haha... so paiseh.... then at nite after we bought the tix rite.... dear wanted to go toilet... the he ask if i noe where izzit i say i dunno so he ask her again.... and she pointed to the side and the toilet was juz rite there.... so diu lian.... =x
anyway... we went up the Tower... and the view was great!!!! very nice! hehe...... fun fun fun
and then we wanted to go Mount Faber to the Jewel Box for dinner..... then i was having gastric cuz i whole day nv eat anything cept for a sandwhich that dear's mummy make in the morning.... budden we kinda din noe wad to eat there.... so we went back to Harborfront.... eat yoshinoya and ten we when home lo.....
the day was really very very very fun.... lalala.... hehe
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:13 AM
Monday, November 27, 2006
Damn Itdamn it la... i noe u dun believe me... u keep wondering how i noe so much if i nv tried it b4.... all i can say that it is all instinctive... but if u dun believe me then fine la.... wadeva... juz fuck it.... i noe u dun believe me and wadeva i say is useless... but thats the truth and thats that ok? why do i care whether u believe me or not anyway?
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:15 AM
Sunday, November 26, 2006
So Sleepy...yesterday lynn darling called me... talk tlak tlak to erm... i dunno nearly 12??? then... after that i cant get to sleep... then i juz read a book.... by Dianna Wyane Jones.... i think this is how u spell her name la... the book is called The Merlin Conspiracy.... hehe... very very nice... at least it is to me la...
then.... i went to sleep at around 5 plus in the morning... i finished a nearly 300 paged book in a nite... i'm so pro... haha.... then... dear dear called me this morn at around 8.30... i was sleeping lo... i think he msg-ed me at ard 8 plus lyk tt... then i tot was my alarm... hehe... then i juz silenced my phone... haha... he say he 9.15 book out... budden i dun even rmb wad he say lo... is only i read the sms then i noe de... then..... i sleep til lyk 9 wake up go bathe... then rushed down... so sleepy now.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... hehe
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:48 AM
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Pre-Maritial Sexwoah.... sex b4 marriage is harmful lehz... it's not good wor... cos couples who have sex... wun be able to last long... even if they were to marry... they'll divorced in 10yrs time.... horrible rite? budden.... itz not exactly true la.... haha... cuz i noe... or i have relatives who did that.... haha... lyk lynnn say... my whole family is lyk drama serial lyk tt.... hmmm.... they lasted for more years than tt ma... and itz not juz one or two.... haha.... budden.... maybe they ar ethe minority.... or.... juz that the ppl din manage to interview them... hehe
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:54 AM
Let Me Tell You A Storyi shall tell u a story of 2 lovers.... and these are taken off their blog.... nice nice nice... so poetic
from the guy...one day.. i step into a forest.. to explore the forest.. as i was exploring the forest.. i realise that there are lot of very beautiful flowers.. it was like a pradise... den as i walk deep into the forest.. i spotted a rose.. a very special rose.. it is very different from other flower.. and i like it very much.. so i decided to take home and keep it as my favourite plant..A stranger you were once.Then, with a gentle look you took my hand.As our lives engaged,you lit my life and I held both your hands.Now that decades have passed,ours souls have indeed become one.How fortunate we are that we have found the love so truethat everyone dreams about.from the gali dont like you, cause i love you <3>
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:35 AM
Pass Few Days
pass few days i not doing much stuff la...juz stoning at home.... only yesterday.... i go out with mummy.... and bought LOTS of clothes..... 3 skirts and 5 tops.... so happy!!!!! n altogether i spend 70 plus on all of them....some were lyk damn cheap.... 5 bucks for a top.... happy happy happy.... and now i talking to jolvin.... and he is succeeding in confusing me with my 4 insturctor's age.... argh... and now he's talking to me abt flirting with gals on msn...... horrible guy.... so how old exactly r my instructors???? he even managed to confuse me abt dear deae's age.... dear is 20 rite? he's 20 ma........ ARGH!!!!
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:55 AM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Juz For Fun
hmmm... i have nth much to blog abt today.... boring day.... go sch for PAE.... nv even listen... go for lunch with szeyan and meimei at Marina Square Yoshinoya... i forgot how to spell... go Esplanade library look for meimei ballet Grade 8 dance music... then go HMV at City Link find... then go home....
haha... everytime i think of Marina Square and Esplanade i think of dear... cuz we always go there for some reason... maybe cuz itz at city hall then kind of in between our hse.... who noes... definitely not me... haha
anyway... talking abt ballet made me wish i nv stopped my lessons becuz of St. John..... i really think after all that happened it wasnt worth my sacrificing sth i was passionate abt juz for a school CCA... and a school CCA that brought me so much heartache... i really miss all my frens from my ballet class.... when i lost my phone i lost their numbers too.... last yr i saw Mei Fong at our school anniversary... she's in Chung Cheng High (Yishun) NPCC.... she din recognise me... oh well.... really miss all of them lots and lots....
honestly... if SJ had not allowed me to meet my beloved nursings and my dearest..... i really think it would all have not been worth it... i might as well have joined dance and continued ballet....
oh well... you win some u lose some i guess..... if i had a chance to choose again... i wun noe wad to chose still.... if someone could tell me... assure me... promise me... that wad happened will not happen again.... i definitely chose SJ... thru it i found my BEST frens... and my most beloved.....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:04 AM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
My Wish Did Not Come True
today i did a very bad thing... i wished that dear will sweat alot and his rashes will worsen.... and then he can attend c and stay in singapore.... OOPS.... i'm very evil rite....
oh well... but my wish din come true..... he's now at tekong.... I'M SAD!!!!! oh well.... at least his rashes din worsen.... juz 15 more days then his POP le... HAPPY!!! i still duno if i should go.... hmmm...
anyway... this morning... on my way to school i saw a very eerie cat.... super scary... lyk walking in the dark along a miniature park under HDB block not scary enough.... muz have a cat sitting there.... then keep staring at u when u walk.... then even until u walk behind it it turn ard and look at u.... then the eyes is whole thing black de... i nv see cats lyk tt b4 lo... damn scary.... was freaking out....
then had the ppr... not very good but not very bad oso la... juz hope can do well lo.... "If you believe hard enough, your wish would come true." hope so ba....
then met darling carmen and we go parkway.... eat.... the beef noodles was ok la... but darling say not nice... oh well... i dun eat beef noodles often.... so i dun really expect anything much la... budden the taste abit... i dunno... u get tired of it after the first few mouths... lucky we got alot time to slowly finish everything... otherwise i wun finish it...
we went to Top 20.... i think that place really very fun... cuz the clothes there is very fun to play with.... haha... i dun really no how to explain.... the things there very unique la... and lyk.... stuff that u bought there can only be worn with other stuff bought from there... haha... and anyway i bought a top from there... nice nice nice... goes well with another fairy lacy skirt.... budden... the skirt is lyk super thin... then need wear another under skirt... hehe... so i din buy the skirt.... the top is nice can le anyway... lalala...
haha... and at parkway... me and carmen saw a reindeer deco for christmas.... and the funny thing was the wooden reindeer had an asshole.... and then it oso has testicles.... hhahahaha.... budden it doesnt have the antlers.... which all full-grown male reindeers should have ma.... and it has the full mount of hair on itz chest which means it is full grown.... then where's the antlers???? so izzit male or female? haha................
then carmen went back to school for a.math lecture.... and i go home lo... on my way home on the bus rite... i saw this super amazing guy... he stop the entire road so his wife can park the car at the Beach Road Prawn Noodle store.... haha... actually he only stop two cars la... cuz not many cars there.... hehe... and the road was a two lane road... haha
today i saw adeline's son... hmmm..... long time no see he become more shuai le.... haha
and the sec 4 dun have to go back school cept for the science students.... then why i keep seeing chung cheng students in home clothes at parkway??? they miss school arh? dots.......................
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:55 AM
Monday, November 20, 2006
What Your Name Represents
i koped this from zhi yang's blog... thats rite... the campus superstar zhi yang... who koped it from "someone important"'s blog... dun ask me who izzit cuz i oso dunno who izzit...
A-Damn good kisser.
B- Good all around person.
C- You're wild & crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E-You have a nice ass.
F- People totally adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You get hyper easily.
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things.
L- You live to have fun.
M- Success comes easily to you.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.
O- You're an awesome person.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Sexy!
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
Z- You're a little too hard to find.
J- Everyone loves you. (er... i dun really think so....)
I- You get hyper easily. (quite tru ba... hehe)
E-You have a nice ass. (no one has ever told me that b4....)
H- You have a very good personality and looks. (really?? hehe)
U- You really like to chill. (ya rite... i'm feeling very cold in zhu's room now...)
I- You get hyper easily. (i think so too!!!)
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
11:53 AM
Maybe I'm Right
hmmm... perhaps i'm really stupid... i have no idea....
i wonder wads their prob anyway? lyk.... so wad if i have a bf? 16 i'm too young? wad makes them think so? i really think they are such prudes.... i wish everyone will stop trying to live their lives thru me.... to make everyone happy... so that they will all not get disappointed i keep having to do things that i dun wanna... dun lyk to do.... juz for once in my life... i wanna make a decision that is mine... and mine alone... to be with someone i lyk... i love even... so that that someone will not pressurize me lyk u all have been doing... becuz i believe in the eyes of this someone.... he will accept me as who i am... and not who he wans me to be.... becuz he hasnt got a chance to noe a me that has ben untainted... and he wun try to taint me... i'm really really tired...
but in my simple choice.. i seem to fail to do even so... wads wrong with all of u? or izzit juz me? wad rite have u got to say that he's not good? u dun even noe him... juz cuz i go out with him and go home at 11 plus doesnt mean anything.... i go out with my other frens oso til 10 plus 11 ma... u are juz trying to find an excuse to dislike him... simply becuz i lyk him... is that why?
it really doesnt matter wad u say anyway.... as long as for one day he loves me... for that one day he still cares for me... i wun let him go... not becuz of u... u are not worth him.... becuz he lets me make my choices.... and my choice is to see him happy everyday... unfortunately i seem to causing him more troubles.... yet let me be selfish once again... becuz i hope he will stay next to me foreva... and as long as he doesnt state otherwise.... i wun let him go...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
11:24 AM
Tears, Tears And More Tears
i really wonder wads wrong with me... juz suddenly started crying for no reason.... actually oso not realy no reason... oh well... wadeva... i shouldnt ahve cried anyway... and make him so worried for me.... ridiculous.... hmmm.... dear's frens are over playing mj with his mother.. rite now he's outside with them.... and i'm in the room blogging... hehe... i'm so anti-social.... so no more Sentosa trip for me... dear say next week go... say he got something for me... but.. i dunno... dun really feel lyk going Sentosa anymore... it isnt that fun to go le... super sian.... ahroy say next week meet up with the SJ ppl... i blur til i ask him "SJ? so dumb rite? oh well... i'm juz dumb... reading back on my past post again... i think i was super stupid.... i really wonder wad the hell is going on with me... dear uz called his fren se lang.... horrible... and he juz say he scared herman go his blog and link back here to my blog and see that he call them se lang..............................
THE DUMBSHIT NV EVEN LINK ME!!!!!!!!
angry... grrrrrrr....... ya ya... the link dardar is oso to audrey and not me.... dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb.... ANGrY!!!!!
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
9:47 AM
No More Sentosa
i dun wanna go sentosa le.... hmmm... dear is so tired... sleeping now.... poor thing... he nv have a good sleep last nite cuz of me... hmmm.. so deardear shall sleep.... and i dun wan go sentosa so he can sleep le.... now i'm juz sitting infrony of the computer with nth to do... cuz the pig is sleeping lyk a pig... haha.... i wan cake! i wan cake! i'm so tired.... feeling giddy the whole day... stomache cramps..... oh well... itz better that i dun go Sentosa anyway.... with me feeling this awful i cant enjoy the day either... futhermore itz going to rain le... all the better that i dun go....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:24 AM
Sentosa!!!
happy happy happy.... hehe.... going to Sentosa later... lalalala..... super sleepy... sleep lyk nv slp lyk tt... then i keep waking dear up in the middle of the nite.... SORRY!!!! tml got one more ppr... and i think blur blur baby nv go contact rujin... haha.... find a day and come to my hse ba gals... tml i shall have to go out with wenjie..... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............ sleepy... dear now calling for macdonalds.... breakfast for me and dear and his mummy.... haha... sleepy....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:05 AM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Poor Poor Dear
ahhh.....
dear got rashes from his field camp.... they look so scary... eeeeew....
and.... dear say wan go skating... then after that i got to rush home la.... budden he look so disappointed and he say tml go Sentosa skate.... HORRORS.... then i insisted that we skate today.....
actually lucky we skate today instead of tml..... cuz.... skate le then dear the rashes... OMG SO RED!!! lyk lobster lyk tt...then he go bathe.. then i apply the prickly heat powder for him....
the powder smell so awful.... dun lyk... then apply le my hands the smell very er xin... yuck yuck yuck... and then got the tingling feeling.... budden... see him lyk tt so xin tong.... really very scary lo...... lyk the pressure sore lyk tt.... budden got little bumps on it and dots.... eeeeee.....
thinking of it makes my hair stand.... i dun lyk dots.... esp those small small very close tgt dots... lyk those on his back..... =x
tml we going to sentosa..... dear muz really take care not to sweat.... or bring towel to keep drying off the sweat.... otherwise will very itchy de.... then ur back and ur neck will be red red....
tml go Sentosa.... SO FUN!!!!! i wan take cable car... go carlsburg tower.... see the PINK dolphin... gounderwater world... see the merlion..... and.... i dunno.... hehe
very long nv go le.... hehe... the last time was beginning of the year... for ST JOHN DUTY.... so sad lo... hehe... but i get to sit in the police van.... wahaha... and the policemen are reckless drivers... hehehehe.... tired.... super super tired...
dar u mz tk grt cr of urself.. reli miz u alot..
hehe... dear... if u ever read this... does the way i type look familiar??? hehe
i guess some bitches will always be bitches.... i dun understand how some gals can think that they are the only poor bastard in the world.... if u think i'm talking abt u? i'm not.... pls stop taking everything so personally idiot.... u are not worth everyone's time to think all the time...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:36 PM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
My Mistake I'm Sorry
hahahaha... i made the stupidest mistake in the world... and i am lyk really really really sorry abt it... esp to Kristin and Ken....
i din realise u were called Ken Tan oso... haha... how many ppl in the world are called Ken Tan anyway? i tot Kristin's Ken was Ken sth else....
my mistake.... i'm sry....
lyk.... haha... i tot only korkor and my cousin had the same name... who noes there r 3 ppl who i noe who got the same name.... hahaha... kor kor... change ur name la... call urself Zen... haha... lyk my other cousin lyk tt...
Zen Tan
better still.... change ur surname oso.... to Nneon
Zen Nneon
hahahahhaa
ooops... haha... or u wan Aen Ben Cen Den Een..... haha u get the drift.... got 25 names for u to choose from.... except for K of cuz.... hehe
HEN!!!! hahahaha... call urself Hen then... haha... my ahchris da sao will kill me...
i think Cen is a better idea... then ur wedding day u can put C&C on ur wedding car... haha...
lyk my father's cousin.... Millie and Melvin.... M&M.... hehe... and they got M&Ms to sponsor their wedding... hehe.. and they put chocolates on the front of their car.... hehe... erm... cotton filled chocolates... hehehehe
anyway... zhu msg-ed me this morning... and call me.... IN THE TOILET!!! hehe... tml... haha... dunno if can go out with him... daddy's bdae.... stay home celebrate.... actually no la... mummy say i juz need to be home by 6 can le.... lalalalala....
i'm free on monday.... any1 wanna pei me go out? i ask szeyan dun go school find me le then mummy say no more on monday.... grrrrr....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:28 AM
Friday, November 17, 2006
I'm Scared
woah..... had a talk with mummy juz now... deep deep talk... and she frightened me.... so horrible... budden she's rite la....
we were talking abt my wedding in the future.... and... i was actually thinking of a very very simple wedding....
i forgot abt my grandma though....
being the only gal on my father's side.... and the apple of my grandma's eye.... of cuz she wouldnt let me off with juz a simple wedding.... even the slightest achievement... lyk my PSLE score of 242... i dun think itz good... budden she was SO pleased.... she told EVERYONE!!! and i really mean everyone... lyk when i go to her workplace at bugis there..... nearly everyone near her store knows me as her grandaughter.... din help that i was the only gal with the surname Koh in the family cuz my only uncle have no children...
speaking of my uncle.... he oso wouldnt settle for anything less than a lavish wedding... the promise of a trip to wherever i wan in the world for a PSLE score of 250 and above... and in my failure to get that? he gave me a discman worth 300 bucks.... he even wanted to be my godfather at one point of time... can say i'm a spolit brat cuz of him.... he always pampers me... TOO MUCH....
my grandaunts oso lehz... i still rmb once they told me i muz have a nice nice wedding lyk their daughters at Fullerton or Pan Pacific so they can dress up nice nice for me.... and so i can please my grandmother...
my grandmother again... i shudder to think how many ppl she would wan to invite.... itz gonna cost a BOMB!!! lyk a huge huge gigantic bomb....
even my cousin whom i grew up with cuz my aunt, who is my mum's sister, who took care of me when i was young, oso say that i MUZ have a perfect wedding... and not a slipshod one lyk my other cousin... how evil rite? aunty say i should write a resume of my bf for him... and seek his approval... horrors....
that above stated cousin's sister... oso says i should have a perfect wedding.... cuz itz a once in a lifetime thing.... and i shouldnt regret it later on....
and their mother my aunt say that my bf muz have her approval too... cuz she watched me grow up.... and i cannot have juz any guy... the guy muz treat me well... treat my parents well... have a steady income... good personality.... in other words which are mine.... PERFECT LA! rite? she wans nth less than perfect....
my poor zhu.... besides the scrutiny of my parents he need to seek to approval of so many ppl.... suddenly i feel so loved my my relatives.... budden him how? i'm not afraid that he cant meet their requirements... becuz i think as long as i wan it they wouldnt object..... at least not too much la... er.... i hope.... scarly he get so pek chek then he dun wan me... SOBZ..... so much stress... if i'm the guy i dun think i can take it lo... scary....
later i JIA BU CHU QU how?????? then no one wan me!!!!! promise me darling... CANNOT leave me hor... no matter wad...
NONONONONONONO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
or maybe mummy is juz scaring me...............................
BUDDEN IT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE!!!!!!!!!!!
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:02 AM
Oh No...........
i juz realised that all my paragraphs have to start with a <>.... otherwise all willl stick together..... and the post only have the time for the latest post.... and not the rest.... so besides ending off with the "come live in my heart, and pay no rent" and starting with my headings i wouldnt noe when's the diff post....
seriously gonna change my template soon.... i cant stand these no matter how nice it looks..... argh... my html suck la....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
8:43 AM
New Skin!!!!!
hehe... got Goong skin.... juz for awhile... changing again soon... got sick of the red red old skin... budden this one is super small.... hmmmmm...... shall change to a full screen skin soon.... waahahhahaha
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
8:36 AM
A Message To Mr Ken Tan
hehe.... see? kor kor... u should be so honured... i dedicate a post for u lehz.... hehe got gan dong ma? hehe... gan dong is touched ok? i noe ur chinese super bad de.... wahahaha...
u dun chide me lyk that ok? i already said i would drop it... hehe... so u shall SHHHHHHH........ KEEP QUIET!!!!!!
stop nagging me le larh..... i wonder how my dearest da sao stand u.... hehe.... so naggy.... haha.... no wonder she always look so blur.... muz be u nag her til she blur le... hehehehehe.... da sao.... u poor thing...
u nag me rite? now i nag u le...
hurry up go get engaged and then get married and then give me a cute cute baby niece or nephew la! then u go nag ur kids and dun disturb me hor...hehe.... muz be cute and chubby baby niece.... with long long long hair.... then i will pull her hair... hehe... juz lyk u always pull mine... wahahaha... i;m so evil.... eh... have children then i wanna be the godma lehz... muz arh muz arh.... i dun care.....
hmmmm.... i so hungry.... and mummy haven come home yet.... argh!!! mummy quick quick come home... then i can cook maggie mee and we share share eat hor.... hehe...
kor kor... rmb to eat oso... then u can share share with ur wife.... wahahahaha....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:08 AM
Tickle Tests!!!
Your relationship destiny is to Find a Fairy Tale Ending
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haha.... ah... i do 2 then dun feel lyk doing le.. cuz i think the second one is lyk super not zun.... and.... my com keeps hanging.... argh.... so lag de lo.... sad.... hahahaha.... super sleepy.... i wan sleep!!!!!!! lalalalala
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xoxo nikki
5:17 AM
I'm Bored....
tired bored and sleepy.... hehe... i;m on Tickle... shall be doing the tests! cuz i got nth better to do... bored nored bored......
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xoxo nikki
3:48 AM
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Close My Eyes........
juz visited zhu's blog... and left a tag there... haha... no idea how coem i go anyway.... it hasnt been updated since august... and all the more there is no cahnce of him updating it now that he is in NS.... but i juz went there... and... read his posts there... i wonder where is his previous blog.... becuz i oso read his past tagboard post..... and it dates back to 2005.... hmmm.... wad the point of tagging there anyway? no one goes there anymore... HE dun even go back himself... wads the point of tagging whilst knowing that there will be no replies???
visited someone else's blog to... this person is in a way.... to be really general.... sort of impt.... cuz this person's blog has got to do with..... haha... i dunno.... i wonder why would i go there.... sort of crazy..... same lyk why would i want to read his past tags whilst knowing wad is inside...... ridicules........ ya... thats me... crazy and ridiculous.... wad can i say? forgive my stupidity.... but i am really curious abt this gal whom u cannot forget for 2 years....
ya ya ya... insecure.... thats wad i am feeling now... i thik u will be getting irritated by me soon..... i wish i wasnt so curous abt so many things.... or even observant abt such things.... i wish that i wun be so empathical sometime... becuz that only threw me into deeper confusion wher i hesistate to look for more to prove my theories.... becuz more often thna not... the only times i have ventured futher cuz me more injuries only....
i wanna close my eyes to so many things... juz to let it go.... i carry with me this burden of pain and hope..... that i dun dare to let go... pain.... in case i ever forget the ppl who hurt me... in case i ever forget how i got hurt.... in case i get myself into the same situation as in the past..... so i would learn my lessons... so i would get hurt again... but the hope... so that i wun juz stop in my tracks..... so that i would at least continue on this path... so that i can continue to believe that someone out there actually is the one for me... is the one who can finally rid me of the pain.... but the same pain is holding me back!!!!
i juz wanna let go... cna anyone out there give me the courage to do so?
everytime i'm in ur arms... for that one moment.... the world is fine and great.... is perfect... juz at the time when i am with u... each time u hold me close to u i wis time would stop at that point.... where everything is perfect.... til the end of time....................
closing my eyes while the tears fall....
juz hoping they can finally wash away the pain.....
juz only hoping.....
hoping...
a single simple hope
thats u....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
4:55 AM
I Miss You
i miss you alot.... alot alot alot... wondering if u are doing ok in camp..... and everything else.... u this big fat pig.... tml... tml's the last day of ur feild camp.... i cant wait.... may not be able to meet u on saturday... u oso not free after that.... i'm dead beat.... exhausted.... i should stop lamenting.... but i'm really really tired ... wish you were here...
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xoxo nikki
4:23 AM
War? No.......
as much as i would lyk to say that i dun care wad u guys say... as much as i would lyk to believe my words that i dun care... i really cant do that...
as to incidents? haha... u made urself part of it when u listened to their tales and turned against them.... and... haha... would u believe wad ur frens told u and wad u experience urself or sth that a person who hates u tells u? i think i would choose the former... and i did...
contuary to wad u guys think i dun go blog surfing... i only visits blogs that i feel i have a need to go... so besides my own blog and sometimes faifai lynn and some other more popular bloggers' blogs i dun really waste my time often reading other ppl's blog and flaming them even if i read sth that i dun lyk.... lyk some of the bo liao ppl that has been on my blog doing... i dun impersonate others or remain anonymous or do any of the underhanded things....
i dun even bother going to dear's blog le... haha... see le make me angry only... not only he nv update... the link dardar is not even leading to my blog.... but some other gal's blog... GGGRRRR... hehe
there will be no war or wadsoever tat u think that is going to happen.... becuz really that is so childish and wadeva..... the previous post on Don't Worry I Hate You Too has been in my draft for a long time... and i have been hesistanting on posting it til the need to post it has gone... wad i found out juz prompted me to tweak it a little and post it.... so dun worry... no war.... unless.... u can successfully carry out a war urself.... then i have got nth to say.....
i din sleep the whole nite.... and i cried the whole nite... so now i have got a terrible headache and my eyes hurt and i am tired mentally and physically... later still got geog ppr 1... oh well.. thank god for ms lai who trained me to do 40 mcq in and hour maybe i can get in abit of slp during the exam.... dear is going to get so angry with me.... SORRY
argh.... want everything to end... wish deardear was here with me... and itz lynn's bdae today....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNN DARLING!!!
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:22 AM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Weird Dreams..............
i've been having weird dreams recently... abt alot of things.... abt dear.... food... money... stuff that i tot i din really care but unknowingly has been on the back of my mind.... this morn when zhu sms-ed me and told me he was going for field camp le and that he will call me when his field camp is over.... when my phone rang i jumped out of bed..... lyk i juz got a fright.... usually i would juz rouse gently reply whoever sent me the msg and fall straight back to slp...... this few nites... ya i slept... but contuary to wad dear tot... it wasnt lyk peaceful slp.... i've been slping lyk a zombie..... jumping awake at the slightly creak of the aircon or wadeva.... i'm stretched so thin i rather i din slp at all... gonna break anytime.... tired....
argh.... when deardear read this post he's gonna scold me again.... but how can i tell him now abt my problems and risk him getting worried and distracted in camp lyk he did abt loui the last time?
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:36 AM
Thanks To You, Thanks To Me
ahhhh....
thanks to my beloved fren's info.... found out some really interesting stuff... hehe... budden i shall not blog abt it as i promised i wun... lalalala... budden i muz say i oso very smart cuz through my own sources i managed to find out more!!!!!
loving the internet....
hehe.....
hmmm... so sad i shall not see zhu on saturday nite... he going clubbing with his frens.... I'M UNDERAGED!!!!!! sobz sobz.... hehe... budden i shall be nice and sweet... haha... zi kua.... cuz for the past weeks his bunkmates has been asking him to go out with them but he din go if i'm not wrong... so.... hehe..... i shall be nice then... furthermore he dun have to book in on sunday nite ma... ya... hehe...
bored and sian
kor kor yesterday found out that i got bf... haha... then he say i so qiang so young got 20 yr old bf.... 4 years only ma.... dun say til he lyk pedophile can?
going to eat lunch!!! sheng cai bao fan!!! nice nice nice!!! fried rice wrapped in erm... i dunno is cabbage or lettues... hehe... lykt he same to me lehz... hehe...
i realised zhu is not the only guy to bake stuff for his gf... i mean i always knew guys lyk that were out there... i;m juz upset that the other guy is him... and is for her.... ruins everything... wish i nv found out...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:24 AM
Bad Taste Bad Taste Bad Taste.... YUCKS!
i cant believe there are ppl out there with such bad taste.... eeeeee yer..... but wadeva... i'm inno place to say anything!!!! hahaha...
i;m going crazy le lar... not only cannot see dear for for one week... from today to thurs oso cannot talk to him... field camp... SUCKS!!!!!
sleepy bored and tired... good luck for the ppl taking amath hor.... i dropped my amath le... lalalala....
sian....
i still cant believe the world has such xia lan ppl... anbd i am so tired of pretending that nth is wrong...
JUZ FUCK THE WORLD
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xoxo nikki
4:53 AM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Lost My Mind
i am seriously depressed.... argh.... i dunno la... juz a flood of emotions in me... each fighting to outdo each other... each feeling more ridiculous than the last.... fear jealousy hatred pain anger.... all the most horrible feelings in the world are possesing me rite now... but of the 4 i rather pain.... becuz there is nth that anyone in the world did to deserve my jealousy hatred and anger to be directed at.... and wad i fear most is fear itself... but each of them inevitably lead to each other... really really tired out by them....
i should stop blogging abt these kind of unhappy stuff le lar... later dear read my blog then he get upset again that he now in tekong and cannot be here for me... and i wear his ring everyday til now got alot scratches le... xin tong...
i should stop brooding abt la... but am i really so evil? i noe i can be super malicious at times.... but thats only when u piss me off......... the world's really unfair cuz while those ppl can bitch abt me with no fear...... i dun even feel good when i try to defend myself or try to bitch abt them back.... in fact i already regreted my previous post abt the relationships.... thats the reason why i took lyk..... a year to actually post a full acct abt it....
this world is really evil awful and horrible...
and dun ask me if i ever tot that i caused my world to be lyk tt.... cuz i did... and maybe i'm rite...
SHIT!
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xoxo nikki
1:55 PM
Girls Are Not So Cheap
one asshole juz added me the other day on msn asking lyk if i was interested in sex and if not can intro gals... i was so pissed i block him on msn.... i NEVER block any one on my msn list lo.... he's the first la... then today i forgot abt it and i was juz thinking how come got a person blocked on my list and i unblocked him.... and he immediately IM-ed me asking if i got gals to intro.... and HE'LL PAY..... 50 bucks... i asked him to go fuck himself... and slowly increased his price to 200 bucks... and i told him no gals will be so cheap.... i was thinking this sec 2 boy muz be lyk really screwed up or sth... cuz he say he got my email off friendster.... and his profile showed he's from cat high sec 2..... and i was pitying him all the way until he told me the gal can name any price she wans..... i was lyk.... fuck sec 2... this muz be some desperate lao ti co sitting in front of his computer masturbating to the tot of a gal hving sex with him.... or juz the tot of proposing sex to an underaged gal.... he became the first person i deleted off my list....
otherppl whom i dun really lyk i juz ignore... usually they ignore me after awhile oso.... but this fucker is totally irritating... and relentless...
this is truly a horrible world....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:29 PM
Don't Worry Cause I Hate You Too
hmmm... well well well... if i am lyk... not wrong... someone flamed me on her blog... hahahaha... lyk i blogged the other day la... to be perfectly honest... i juz hate the ppl who hate me for no reason.... becuz as far as i noe rite.. this gal has not been lyk really awful to me til some certain things happened... or at least her din so balantly dao me til she quarrelled with her... i supposed... best fren.... and me with my other fren being quite close with the "best fren" kena oso... "best fren" is in inverted commas cuz even though her fren treated her as her best fren.... we are not so sure that the feelings were mutual...
i would say that i dunno wad everything is going on cuz i have not been part of them... but i muz say that these are only my views... purely my views... u can do very well to disagree with me... but i would trust my sources... unless they too... turn their backs against me as this bloggersphere has turned out very well to prove that the most horrible ppl exist
anyway... things between she and her "best fren" was on the rocks already... then along came a guy... ahhh... guys... root of all problems... hehe.... he jokinly... according to him... say that he lyk her... cuz in his words "she keep sticking to us" us meaning him and his frens... budden he turned out to really lyk her "best fren" after according to him oso, "she rejected me" and he sort of became one reason for her to hate her "best fren"...
and then there was another guy whom she seemed to be really interested in... and kept talking abt.... budden this guy nv said he lyk her according to his fren.... and he actually lyked my fren who was oso frens with her "best fren" and she in turn started to dao my fren...
at that time the 3 of us.... me my fren and her "best fren" was quite close tgt though admittedly i did not contact all that much with them after their o's drew nearer... previously the gal in question was still quite friendly to me... i say this in very general terms as we still greeted each other when we see each other... budden after the above stated incidents... she started to ignore me everytime i see her and say hi... to the extent of rolling her eyes and looking away....
i mean put anyone in my shoes... how would u feel? u wanna hate me? fine.... i dun force anyone to lyk me... in fact tell me u hate me and y u hate me... perhaps i would try to change.... but juz only perhaps.... not many ppl can have everyone they noe to love them... i dun expect everyone to love me... so similarily... when u are hostile to me.... pls expect me to hate u too... i dun care that i am the first on ur bitching list... i would be the first to admit sj is the first on my bitching list... and i have hardly any time to bitch abt anything or anyone else... cuz sj actually has quite a large bitching scope...
and i dun think itz quite fair to flame me for hating u... becuz u hated me first darling...
and u flirt too... dun say u dun.... in fact on that point u are worse than me... and i have ppl bringing that up to me even before i had told anyone of my views of u ok? i wun say i dun flirt.... but when i am attached as i am now i dun... i love him too much to risk losing him in any way....
i would reiterate that this are only my views and the stuff are mostly told by to my by other ppl... BUT the part where she dao me is experience by me and if u hate me i hate u... simple as that... i not so kuan hong da liang go love ppl who dun love me hor... my love is reserved for all the ppl who loves me....
and ya ya ya.... flame me on my tagboard if u are her supporter... itz on the link that is on the top rite corner ok? no doubt the gal in question will noe who am i talking abt... and well.... if u are not talking abt me... hmmm... i dunno... haha... too bad.... lalalala... i felt lyk blogging abt this topic for a long time anyway.... and her professed bf is omiously missing...............
i'm bored...... seriously... by boring ppl... the internet is a horrible place.. i wun pretend to be lyk... unshaken by all these insults hurled at me.... to be perfectly honest... i hate this... becuz i dunno wad have i done to incur such wrath in ppl.... i admit that i haven been all smiles and happiness for everyone.... but i dun go out of my way to piss anyone that i remotely lyk in any way.... and i did lyk u.... in the beginning and all the way til u started to dao me...
but wadeva.... wadeva wadeva wadeva........... this is such a depressing place.... despite the ppl who showed me that they cared for me....
and i keep typing such as suck.... wth..................
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:51 AM
Tell Me What Is Love
i have no idea wads love... i cant put it into words... itz sth that can only be feel when it is there... but cn nv be understood... i guess everyone's view of love is different... wad u experience and deem as to be love is different... for me... i dun think love is rational... itz not something that u can ask urself... i look at her... i feel happy... i say i am in love with her... i dun think it works that way... i believe true love cannot be missed... true love meaning two ppl deeply in love with each other... if it is missed then it is not true love.. ur true love is still out there some where waiting for u to find it.....
who the hell am i trying to convince? myself? crap.....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:39 AM
My Weekend
my weekend was actually quite boring... hmmm... haha... cept for the fact that i broke the record
saturday... wanted to go vivo to watch The Guardian....... budden no tix... then forget it lo... hmmm.... then went to Sushi Tei to eat dinner.... food was nice... hehe... hmmm... then we went onboard the Doulos... i think is lyk tt spell de la... the oldest ship in the world that is still in use... and the largest floating book store..... after that we wanted to go sentosa... actualyl is he wanna go de... then i dun wan.... i dun really lyk to take the cable car when itz dark...... budden he wanted to go see the musical fountain... then i agreed lo.... budden we realised that the last show was over... so we din go over... next week ba....
sunday..... actually i went over to his hse and basically slept the whole day there lo...... then he packed up to go over to tekong.... and then.... he got slightly agitated.... cuz.... he wanted to take MC but wasnt sure if the MC from private clinics would be accepted... then his mum keep wanting to look at the handbook... then he got irritated cuz he keep telling her that he not going to take MC le but she keep wanting o read the handbook to find out... and then he's bro's L-torch was malfuctioning... but his bro tot the torch was juz for show so he nv tell dear that the torch was not working... then i got a shock man... the way his whole family lyk...... juz keep helping him... take his dinner out for him... he say dun wan eat dinner cuz only got chicken then he dun wan eat chicken and his mum straight away fry an egg for him.... scary... and i tot i was lyk very stubborn and... i dunno... super pampered with a horrible temper... to think that my bf is oso lyk that... haha... if we ever quarrel... we will lyk die tgt or sth...
dreamt abt him last nite.... abt everything ba.... i dunno.... he was juz on my mind in all my dreams...
i dunno wad am i doing... muz be crazy... think i am successfully irritating him le... haha... and... i dunno wad to say to him some times... lyk when his fren left his phone ont he cab and i found the phone for him... and i went back there to find them to pass him the phone.... and.... i look at him and realise suddenly that there are still so much i dunno abt him... and he looked so much lyk a stranger to me... scared the hell out of me....
i broke my record.... 10!!!!!! in two days some more..... woah... thats no mean feat.....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:56 AM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Totally Fucked Up
i'm lyk so going to flunk my math... and then i can go die... and then.... i oso dunno wad will happen..... ah fuck la... life goes on rite? goes on so cruelly... arhg.... dun wanna blog le too heart broken...
FUCK IT LA
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xoxo nikki
1:48 PM
Nature Is So Complicated
hmmmm.... was doing geog ppr yesterday rite... then i got this sudden thought during my ppr... then i was wondering if i was lyk crazy la... cuz rite... the question was abt whether singapore should protect itz coast or sth lyk tt... then i do do do... then i suddenly tot hor...
why protect the coast? if the waves have always been destructive then how did the coast come abt in the first place? muz have been constructive first then become destructive rite? then if nature suddenly decides to change itz mind then there muz be a reason for it... thats the way nature works iznt it?
which led me to think abt singapore's population... if all that yrs ago the govt din implement the desincentives to reduce birthrates that brought abt the sudden decrease in birthrate then we would have an aging population now rite? if they had juz let nature take itz course and as the country becomes developed and the ppl's mindset would change and they now would have a perfect birthrate no? if they allowed the birthrate to slowly decrease instead of a sharp decrease they wun have the problems now rite?
so i guess things happen for a reason ba.. and if human dun try to interfere nth would happen... lyk the hunting of animals... if human juz hunted lyk the animals only when they need the food instead of excessive hunting that endangered all the species then many animals wun be extinct and in danger of extinction rite? perhaps human are too meddlesome....
anyway i was tellingt his to szeyan and she was saying that i was thinking too much... i oso think so... maybe this was why i din finish question 7bii budden is i nv see got 10c and i tot still got time to do 7bii after i finish 10b thats y no time de... then in the end finish 10c nv finish 7bii... sad...
and itz alicia and lester's birthday today.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!
anyway i removed the password script... i decided that i shall make things easy for my aggressor... and anyway i got lazy of having to key in the passord everytime anyway.. haha
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:28 AM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Upset And Pissed And Goong And Happy
today's physics ppr was lyk... a real flop... was totally horrible... i din noe half of wad was going on and crapped my way through the whole damn thing.... totally sucked... argh... maybe miracle will happen and i get full marks for my ppr 1.... lalala... juz fuck it
and i am seriously amazed at my aggressor's stupidity... lyk... i believe that that person is a singaporean cuz he or she seems to noe me... budden... it doesnt seem lyk it... or maybe he or she juz failed to rad the parts i blogged abt that zhu was in NS... cuz lyk... that person.... AIYA!!! i shall juz type HAH to stand for Horrible Ass Hole... and ass hole is two words cuz i wan it to... so there... juz shuddup la HAH... anyway... unless HAH is lyk in an overseas country... i dun see y HAH dunno that guys in NS get their heads shaved... lyk... itz common knowledge can? unless HAH has been lyk living in a hole or sth... hmmm... sounds rite hor.. hmmm... or maybe is ASS hole to be specific... small and tight... maybe thats y HAH is lyk so narrow minded... cuz lyk HAH's hole is lyk so small and no place to lyk expand... so narrow minded... hahahaha
okok... that was lame... anyway i still dun understand y u so enthu read my blog so often... care to share ur reason?
and i bought gong's OST... nice nice nice
super super nice!!!!!!! haha... happy happy happy... budden that means i am broke...
BAH!
the inside... super nice rite? then the CD below with the cartoon of Cai Jing is the MV.... got four in all... so fun rite?
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:37 PM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Juz Some Pictures To Pass My Time
went to MPL to study with lynn after day after zhu went to NS... which is on 27 Oct la...
treat u to a cute pic of lynn... hahaha
then a super chio pic of me... hehe.... ok la...... itz very ugly actually.... i juz lyk the ring anyway... =p
and then lynn pretended to be a ghost.... haha... scary wor!!! haha
and then on 3rd nov i went to the SAME library with lynn... and this time with lishi oso... haha...
me and BABY!!!! she look so chio... i'm so UGLY!!!!! budden i am self deluded lyk the asshole on my tagboard says i am.... so i shall insist that i am chio... juz as the idiot says i am erm... "nehneh less" or wadeva... haha
me with my VERY VERY VERY unflattering hair... haha... so ugly... i pinned up the fringe and bun up my hair... haha... oops... mnonono.... is so super CHIO!!!! lynn says i look lyk a shrewd business woman... haha.. i say i look lyk a shew hai cha bu duo...
anyway... see the books? we really got study de hor.... =p haha
and then on 4th nov... haha... i took MORE PICS... this time with zhu...
shall show u a SUPER DUPER UGLY photo of myself....
damn damn damn ugly.... then zhu got more of these kind of ugly pics in his phone lo.... ARGH! haha
then we go to dolby ghaut... hmmm... haha... i dunno how to spell... to watch the show that zhu wanna watch which realeased on the day he go to NS... haha... The Guardian... ont he way we took pics again... haha
this is zhu with his new hairstyle... hehe
haha... us! on the bus....
we missed the show... so we go take neos!!! hehe
i decorated this and this is my fave!!! cuz... i dunno... i juz think it looks great!!!
this one oso i deco de... my next fave... Fireworks Of Love... that was wad i was thinking of when i added the hearts... i think itz damn nice!!!
this is zhu deco de.... i think the little ghostie is lyk really cute la... haha
haha... this one cuz i think i look nice... hahaha
this one oso zhu deco de... cute house rite??? hehe
hmmm.... this oso zhu do de... hehe... the pink part repeats the words i love u... nice nice nice...
hehe... the exact time and date we took the neoprints... hehe
hmmm... then the next day... on 5th of nov... i went to zhu's hse... he was going back to camp at 8pm that day... sad...
hehe... me wearing zhu's NS cap.... haha...
hahahaha... zhu looks really sad... cuz he lost his nice hair... and he's going back to NS later that nite... hahaha.. poor thing... hehe
sth i felt really bo liao that time do de... i think itz nice... hehe
this is one freaking long post... anyway... zhu is not no long pikachu le... he's raichu... cuz his platoon mate say that since now he excuse one more thing... cannot stand still for more than 5 mins... he has evolved to the next level le... hahaha... i shall juz end it here...
one last thing... yesterday was our 3 mth anniversary.... then... i spent the day alone... with zhu in tekong... sad.... =(
BAH! wad a long long long post with lots and lots of pics...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:12 PM
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
I Hate It And You
hmmm... firstly i juz realised that last time i used to keep forgeting my blogger password... now its lyk stuck in my head cuz i keep logging in recently... haha... and my post increased le... haha... now there's a flow of post lyk last time le... haha
anyway... i'm pissed...
b4 u start to accuse her of misappropriating or however u spell it funds... pls think of the money she put in can? in the first place after putting in so much money without expecting to get it back, i dun think she would swoop so low as to steal the money... and wad proof do u have to accuse her of such? and after all the money she throw in rite.... she has every rite to get it back ok? but she's not attempting to... juz becuz u got some bigshot behind u doesnt mean u can juz slander ppl lyk tt... he was rite u noe... she could sue u... AND SHE SHOULD!!!! treat her lyk crap and now humiliate her... how fucking dare u la... u think he can rite letter then very big izzit? u protest against her not enough har.... wan to slander her somemore izzit? i dun think he actually really noe abt the funds lo... more lyk is u go talk cock to him and make him believe u... he oso very dumb... believe u... i used to respect u.... then i dun respect u so much... but now i dun respect u AT ALL le.. low downs lyk u dun deserve a shred frrom anyone who has a heart... u are so wrapped up in urself... all u think of is urself... how great u are.. how much effort u put in.. u think others nv put in effort izzit? u think u got connections u very big arh? go fuck urself la... if they all find out u so xia jian think they will still lyk u? or maybe juz all the bigshots xia jian de...
ok... i feel better le... to more mundane things...
today i smsed sha jing jing... hmmm... haha... is GRADE (VI) officer... sir sha!!! haha.... so funny... mdm xu call him sha jing jing... so cute... anyway.... i got very curious abt him la... i realise he lyk to send msges lyk... tAKE CARE WOR... MIZZ YA... really lehz... his miss is mizz... so cute de... and he lyk to call me sweeti... haha... and itz spelt with i de... so i was wondering if he got a gf... cuz wad kind of gal will tolerate the guy calling other gals sweeti rite? then i ask him... he dun wan tell me... CRAP.... then after that he tell me... hmmm so he DOES have a gf... i wonder if his gf noe he msging other gals lehz? hehe... i';m so evil.. lalalala... budden... i really dun think he does... cuz.............................. his msn nick very diff from last time when everyone noe he got gf... this time very very very vague... but wadeva... WHO CARES???
one lat thing... I HATE SJ.... hate yu yan... hate kristin.. er.... oops... i got juniors reading my blog.... BUT WHO CARES!?!?!?! they all noe i hate them... hate chin chee wah.... y dun juz say? trying to protect the person arh? walao... fucked up... anyway... i juz dun lyk sj in general... budden... sj oso got nice ppl inside la... actually... to be really realy really honest... i thin chin chee wah is actually a very nice personn... lyk really really nice... he shouldnt be in sj... he's too nice... the same for faifai jianwen lynn louisa hui chin gerald yuan zheng etc etc... i cant really think of much names... but in my mind... i really think these are the rare genuine ppl in sj... who sincerely wish to help.... perhaps itz becuz of the hierachy thing in sj... i dunno... corrupts alot of stuff...
anyway... i'm not in sj le... and i'm glad... no doubt it has brought me alot of joy... i got to noe my beloved nursings... faifai... and through them alot more ppl... budden prolong involvement will bring more unhappiness than happiness... my not being in sj doesnt mean dunno anything... despit my not being in there... i will not allow anyone of my frens who are there to get hurt in anyway.... no mercy for whoever who gets in my way.... anyway all the best i am not in sj... i can have no qualms abt insulting anyone... no responsibilty or anything...
all the best to u... and to ur departure... i would say there is nothing better than it... u dun have to be jealous abt me anymore~!!!! CHEERS!!!!
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:22 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Juz Shut Up
lyk seriously la... itz not lyk u din lose things b4... i noe i should have lyk lost the house key... budden that time u oso lost the keys... then no one say anything... u dun have to lyk... keep scolding me la... u juz go on and on lyk i purposely throw the key away lyk tt... i'm not saying that i am not at fault... budden u dun have to keep going on and on abt how irresponsible i am can? u very ridiculous la.... lyk u lose the key u not happy... then u can juz lyk keep quiet and no one says a thing against u... then i lose the key u got to go on and on abt it... very mo ming qi miao u noe... lyk i already noe that i am wrong... itz not lyk i am cheering over the lost of the key or sth... u dun have to keep scolding and scolding me de k? even at nite i oso hear u complain to daddy abt it... u very guo fen lo... u noe when u lose the key it was not on purpose.... then wad makes u think that i did it on purpose... u oso got lose things b4 ma.... so juz shut up and stop scolding me le kkz?
juz shut the fuck up
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
9:37 AM
Friday, November 03, 2006
I Cant Wait
yea!!!!
zhu's booking out at 9.45AM this saturday....
i think so la....
but WADEVA
itz juz two more nitez...
later i shall go study with loui... then go home slp
tml study with dearest lynn n baby... then go home slp
THEN I GET TO SEE HIM!!!!!
so happy happy happy
lalalalalala
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:01 AM
Thursday, November 02, 2006
I'm Bored
wa.... so sian.... besides staying home study 24/7 wad else can i do? no one else can go out.... =( all so guai study...
I'M BORED!!!!!!
budden again... if someone ask me go out i oso no mood go out... sian...
WHEN IS SATURDAY COMING!?!?!?!
last thursday feel lyk months ago...
bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
12:47 PM
Juz Remembered.....
"dar aka junlin ... the angel owaes b ter guidin mi in silence ... beta not fall sick .. endure thrg ... "
got this off audrey aka issac's dardar... or so he says EX-dardar...
but wadeva...
she oso put a password script on her blog... and i oso bypassed it...
BAH!
actually i tried lyk abt 7 or 8 blogs la... and i got pass all their scripts lo... and got into their blog....
SAD....
only one i din manage... cuz the source is SO MESSY!!!!! cannot find the password script inside... i see until my eyes got crossed... hahahahaha... wadeva... anyway i was telling zhu that his dardar ask him take care of himself... then he say "why? u jealous arh?"
actually to be perfectly honest i dunno la... cuz lyk... very bo liao to get jealous over these kind of things..... budden to say i wu dong yu zhong oso abit not rite...
BAH!
wadeva la... anyway when i read it the first thing i tot off is "SO FUNNY!!!" and then the next tot is "SIAO ARH ppl call ur bf dar u still say funny" hehe... maybe i am schizophrenic....
WADEVA!!!
anyway sb is probably going to complain abt all my today's post being very erm... i dunno... self centred? cuz itz all abt me me and me... budden... this IS my blog ma... dun blog abt me then blog abt U meh? and then why i blog abt my bf then.... hmmm... allow me to be very vrey BHB and say...............
CUZ HE"S PART OF ME!
=p hehe
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:14 AM
More Cute Pics!!!
hmmm.... quite true lehz... i think i becoming more naggy le.... hehe 
this one is so cute..... itz not i dunno how to do... itz juz that i want to give u a chance to love me more.... hahahaha... can use as an excuse hor... hehe
hehe... which bf will be so nice lehz... hahaha... sweet sweet sweet
hahahaha.... izzit true??? i dunno... haha... dunno dunno... *act blur* hahahahaha
this reminded of the conversation i had with zhu yesterday... he ask me... "everytime u tell me u talk to ppl lyk wen jie and ur that faifai... u not worried that i will scared u leave me for them?" haha... even though itz not really relavant to this pic la...but it juz reminded me of it thats all... hmmm... well... itz better that i tell u i talk to them instead of pretending that i dun rite? and... well... i seriously din think that u will worry... cuz i think the only chance of us breaking up is when U leave me... ya...
i guess thats all la... go to www.princessdiane.com for these pic lo...
and i told zhu dun have to call me le... cuz he left with one battery only... save it and call ur mummy ba... lest she worries ya? juz send me a msg at nite can le... love ya lots... mizz ya alot alot tooo... cant wait for saturday to come...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:10 AM
Princess Diane
nice pics wor!!!!
this is my fave pic.... hehe... a decade of love... hmmm... BIG BIG diamond stone wor... heheh
cute rite??? hehe... zhu say he cannot do anything in camp... cuz he excuse lower body activity for the whole camp and upper body for two weeks hehe so he getting fatter le... hehe... so i found uses for his growing tummy!!!! hehe
talking abt zhu hor... haha... in camp his frens call him pikachu.... cuz he pai ka pai chu... excuse lower body and upper body ma... hahaha....
gtg have lunch!!! fish and chips... happy... shall blog later....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:47 AM
Nice Pizza Place!!!
hehe... if i ever go New Zealand... i wanna go to HELL!!!! hehe sounds lyk a really nice pizza pizza place.... hehe...
http://www.kennysia.com/archives/2006/10/welcome_to_hell.php
check it out at kennysia.com... hehe
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:21 AM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
A Nice Poem
You walked lightly into my life
Captivating and lovely to my mind,
At first, I never cared who you were
Now I dont know who I am without you,
You kissed me
I felt my world change,
You held me
I heard my heart awaken,
You loved me
And my soul was born anew
You walked lightly into my life
Now my heart knows who you are
And with every breath
And every step
I take down lonely roads,
Your hand is my staff
Your voice is my guide
Your strength my shelter
Your passion my awakening.
You walked lightly into my life,
And all my pain
You took as your own,
And all my fears
You cast into the sea,
All my doubt
Lost in your eyes,
You walked lightly into my life
And no matter if you choose to stay or go,
My life is forever changed,
Just because you loved me
For a moment in time.
And because I choose
To love you
For the rest of mine.
i got this off raymond's blog... he started a blog cuz his gf asked him too... his gf is shihui... who is oso weien's godsis... nice poem... and they super en ai...
(this is taken directly off his blog hor... i shall not post his blog add here cuz itz rude without his permission... budden credits to him... or his blog designer)
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:22 AM
Food For Thought
anyway... this thought juz occured to me la... they always say gals would give themselves to their bf to prove their love rite? then wad abt guys? do they do this?
"dear... u wan to do it arh? ok lo... i love u"
weird rite? how come they always say gals dun say the guys one?
anyway this was prompted from a dream i had last nite... hmmm... weird dream la... haha... i dreamt abt ahroy... then i wake up rite... i rmb a talk last time i had with ahroy... so ya... then i was thinking abt the talk which prompted me to wonder whether guys whould have sex with their gf to prove their love oso not...
and i keep wondering how ahroy looked lyk now... hmmm... very long nv see him le.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i'm bored....
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:05 AM
Am I Supposed To Be Angry?
hahaha... seriously... hmmm... i think i noe this person lehz... haha... and is the same person as the last one wor... cuz he put the nick as dardar... and we dun call each other dar anymore... so u abit lag la hor... haha... ur checking my blog EVERYDAY wor... and u lyk to reread the comments that u post up rite? funny guy... makes me feel lyk i wanna remove the password script... cuz useless ma... and i oso abit lazy everytime need key in the password... hehe... budden... aiya sian... i oso lazy remove it....
BLAHBLAHBLAH... maybe i should use the same tagboard as lynn... the one where need u enter pass or sth? cuz the last time u go need to enter password wor.... budden i vry lazy lehz... see how la... sianz.. budden i might miss the guy lyk i did the last time i put the password script up... cuz my tagboard abit boring hor... hehehe....
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xoxo nikki
6:35 AM
