Wednesday, June 30, 2010
How Can It Be?I don't understand why none of you can see it. It seems glaringly obvious to me.
When I look in the mirror all I see is the scar. I know I'm rutting. But seriously. I don't see why you can't see it.
Sometimes I wonder how can I live with myself like that? Trudging through life. I cannot step out of my own shadow.
It hurts to see him happy. Not cause I'm jealous. I just don't think he deserves this happiness. I don't think he deserves to be happy. If he don't suffer, I feel like it's unjustified.
I'm suffering. For his actions.
I'm I getting back into depression again?
Seems like it. But I don't think so. My life now is perfect. The only flaw is the asshole. Now if I can get him to return me my money...
Perfectness can only be so good.
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
8:06 PM