Thursday, December 27, 2007
I Miss Blogging!!!omg.. i spent so much time wit baby that i din have time to blog!!!
and wad i CAN blog abt is all abt him.. and him.. and still him..
and of cuz.. christmas!
hmm... my christmas was not very eventful... i spent christmas eve with baby... and we wanted to go Eatzi to have dinner which was where we went for dinner last year... but we too lazy to go.. haha... so we had dinner at Issac's Place..
hehe... nice dinner! very very nice... very very perfect.. tho... well... we both have lousy culinery skills.. so the food was.... not perfect... but very nice...
we armed ourselveswith $20 and went to Shop and Save to buy the food... and we exceeded our budget by a dumdum 10cents... lucky i cheated and brought extra money... hehe...
then on christmas... i spend the morning with my parents at my uncle hse.. and erm.. we had popiah there... my aunt made the ingredients and me make our own popiah is damn nice la... but... got one arh... i oso dunno why.. damn spicy!!! make me have diarrhoea...
afternoon i meet baby and we go out lo... at orchard... we walk from Plaza Sing to Shaw and back... juz for fun... haha... dumdum of us...
and today.. i'm alone... and bored...
anyone wanna buy online stuff???
go
www.nicesmockedtubes.blogspot.com and if u wan u can send ur orders to me...
any of my nice nice frens...
it confuses me when ppl tell me they wanna buy things from there at different times...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:36 AM
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Playing Mey do u all always lyk to play me???
i hate being played..
u do things that make me feel that u actually care... u actually care enuff for me to make a difference.. but in the end... u juz trip me and laugh at me while i fall face flat in the mud for trusting u to keep me safe...
i hate this...
if u dun care... let me noe.. stop lying to me... stop pretending to care.. i can live with u all not caring.. but i cant live with people i care for lying to me..
please...
juz stop hurting me...
juz stop pretening to care...
juz stop lying to me...
juz stop making me cry...
there are so many things i wanna say to you... but wad can i say without sounding stupid and childish and selfish... when all i wan.. is for u to stop hurting me.. and start caring for me really and truely in ur heart..
i noe u all have ur own lives to lead... a life of which i may not be a part of.. but please stop making it all so fake.. if u dun care... u juz dun... u dun have to pretend... becuz none of u are good at pretending.. if u dun wan my in ur life juz say so... there's no need to make me suffer lyk this..
honestly... i should stop putting you infront of myself... itz time i lead a life of my own... a life that dun include u.. a life in which i can live in and get by and no one noes of u and no one will mention you...
i should learn now.. stop relying so much on u... start loving myself more than
i love u
i juz wish that there were someone...
anyone...
who can treat me more than
a fren
a good fren
a best fren
someone who actually loves me.. not juz tell me that he loves me.. but show me that he loves me.. let me noe.. thru his actions that he really loves me..
maybe u once did.. but i'm not so sure now.. maybe u need a break or sth.. i'm not the one who keeps throwing my temper.. ur the one losing ur temper at the slightest thing and i'm not complaining..
i juz need someone.. who will not break my heart...
maybe... that person... is me...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:58 PM
Lost Handphones, Tempers, Hearti lost my hp on saturday... so depressing.. i think the cab driver dun wan return to me... but nvm i guess... it cant be helped.. sianz... jzu woe to whomever who took my phone.. poor me.. zzzzzz
and i lost my temper at krystle.. cuz... she juz got on my nerves being so irritating and all.. say wad.. u lost ur phone arh.. i bought my phone ytd... knn.. people lyk her should be hanged.. tactless fidiot...
i think if we keep giving and dun receive... we will end up with nothing to give anymore... and i'm so so tired of giving.. cuz i really dun get much back... i'm so pathetic that i'm even glad for the little bit that i get... but it still hurts.. nevertheless... it still hurts alot.. i dun think we understand each other much... i feel that u dun really care to understand... and no matter how much i try to understand u... u dun seem to care enuff to reveal how u feel...
y do the people i care most about always end up caring for me the least...
if my life were a picture... it would be an empty space with a few stars in the air.. stars bright enuff to light up my life... but far enuff.. to not make much of a difference..
who will be the sun?
who CAN be the sun?
time and again... i tot i found mine... yet... they always turn out to be juz another tiny star..
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:20 PM
Monday, December 03, 2007
Of All The Peoplefuck it la!
why of all people who buy the same stuff as me it muz be u? i dun even lyk u! and u have to buy the thing that i wanted...
i was rite to hate u...
ur digusting and ridiculous.. and u bought the thing that i wanted...
of all the fucking people...
it has got to be u... y din u stick to ur 5700?? ur digusting and irritating...
u say u wanted this phone but din u say u wanted 5700 in the beginning?
i'm so fucking irrtated by u.. itz not enough that u muz irk my in sch..but now everytime i look at the fuckign phone and think that i share the same fucking thing as u...
i'm so pissed
if u were a nicer person lyk anyone else in school i wouldnt mind so much... in fact i would probabl be excited that we are using the same thing... but it had to be u.. irritating you...
itz no wonder i hated you from the beginning
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:29 AM
