Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Confused....wad the hell la... how come lyk whole world noe u guys broke up... wtf... promise u wun say u go say... heng is not i tell u de la... u ownself go account to her u freaking brainless kou shi xin fei guy... damn freaking dumb u are man.... so fucking dumb la... u lyk tt treat her one arh... u think u very great meh? i htink u and him the same lo... all two face de... think u all very great... so wei da... go around bo qu tong qing... only lishi and louisa tian zhen enough to believe ur lies la... then act til u so ke lian... i dint hate u guys so much one lo... i din even bother abt u guys la... is til u drag lishi and louisa in then i hate u de lo... juz cuz u caninfluence them u think u really tt great arh? there are stioll ppl out ther who dun believe ur lies la... and i am not the only one hor... so pls... stop thinking that the whole world is dumb lyk u k? juz stop it... its irritating...
i damn sian le... today talk abt u lehz to them... then... oso dunno la... maybe should meet up so much ba.. i dunno lehz.. wad if i get sick of u??? gasp... then how? cannot lyk tt de... actually i juz kididng nia... tml u going to school? if not pei me ba.. cuz i nowadays bit stressed up getting... my english today is horrible... hope this wun happen on wed... or i die arh... exam so freaking stressed sia...
kor say he wan teach me how to go down slope lehz... haha... think he will succeed? i oso dunno lehz... i juz dun dare la... nth i or anyone can do ma... i wan go down but jiu shi dun dare lo...
JNCO and sec 1 camp may clash lehz... how? so sian lo.. haiz.. if i tio medic for JNCO i dun wan go le... haha.. i go for the sec 1 camp... dun lyk medic la... cannot sleep de... then muz remind ppl eat medicine.. so dumb... hmmm... actualyl nth in JNCO is appealing lo.. logistic muz look after all items... then any lost muz acct for it... then ration muz do food... so ma fan... think everyone can lyk ahroy lyk tt meh... got cheap and good food... he lyk noe lots of ppl got damn good connections la... then can do this kind of things.. wan cheap good food so easy meh... otherwise the ppl complain complain complain.. sianz...
thinking that maybe we shold stop doing tt lehz... its not very appealing to me lyk... actually i dun lyk it at all la honestly.. whether is u or me doing it i oso dun lyk lehz.. i dun mind if i do it... but can u not do it? lyk i juz dun feel comfortable lo.. 226 dun seem so fun le.. hmm... i shld be more firm lehz... should so xin ruan anything oso ok to u ppl... lyk tt i very xin ku lehz..
yin zhi signing on.. haha.. so wei da... i dun think i so wei da lehz... see first ba i think... haiz.... dunno la... i hate my mum la... dun lemme go SNCO last yr.. even though i wasnt very keen on going if she lemme go i wun now so difficult dunno wad to do le... sianz.. damn confused la... lyk everything dun make sense le... study so ard everthing oso lyk shit lyk tt... still this dunno how to do tt dunno how to do...wads the point la... i oso dunno... sianz...
yesterday watched when a stranger calls not bad la the show... to me is thrilling enough.... to him lyk nth lyk tt... depends on the ppl ba... poor gal in the end go crazy after being tramatized... then the stranger very bian tai.. beginning i think he chop the ppl up one lehz... the police bring out the body is one bag one bag de... and is got lots of bags lo.. got another part he kill the main character's fren then leave her on the ground lehz.. and then he put the hp next to the fren's face and call the phone.... then he phone keep ringing and lighting up the fren's face... so disgusting lo... and then at the same time his phone oso ring lehz... xia si ren... got another part the main character keep asking him wad he wan then he suddenly say he wan her blood all over him... disgusting lehz.. another one is the stranger suddenly appear behind her... then xia si ren oso... beginning of the show jiu start scaring ppl le... till the end... the suspense is kept up throughout the show.. at the end of the show my nerves were so strained that i finally understood the meaning of nerve wreaked... he still laugh at me.. so bad lo.. if i the gal in the movie i rather die la... lyk tt tramatise is even worse lo...
shouldnt have mentioned my blog... u coem see le so paiseh lo... wa... then read all this post.... i jiu shi countign on no one coming then very happy post all my entries here de... then u lyk tt i xin tong lehz... got ppl come... then later i post sth not very nice then someone gets angry... then on my blog oso need to gu lu dao ppl's feelings when this is supposed to be where i vent my feelings de... haiz... thats y here most of the times very sad de... cuz this is my only outlet for anger.. this is my way of anger management... otherwise i will bao zha de... then even more ppl will get hurt de... k? ya....i crapping again... making no sense... but oh well... nvm... thats juz me ba... this is my blog and i will do wad i lyk with it... i dun care u lehz... wad u going to do? heng... nah nanee poo poo.. lalalalala... this is my heaven.... cuz only god can tolerate my crappiness..... bitchiness..... unfeelingness..... rudeness..... shityness..... nonsensicalness..... wad elseness..... i dunnoness......
hmmm... i lyk the song ru guo de shi... haha... oso dunno y... the title very nice... cuz everything is all ru guo... no one can honestly say they noe wad they wanna do in the future or wad is going to happen in the future cuz lots of factors contribute to the futre... any difference in any of the factors will cuz a change in ur future,,, i oso dunno wad is going to happen in the future... how do i promise u anything? i can say this say that but who can really make sure that that is going to happen? no one la... if sth comes up then how? i dun lyk vows.... becuz more often than not they dun come ture... they only give false security and false hopes.... stop promising me things that might not come true becuz u and i noe tt it is difficult...
this thurs exam end le... u pei me go out k? can? friday we go out.... can? pls? who am i asking? i dunno lehz.... anyone wan go out with me on thurs or fri oso can de... i really damn bored le.. 27th or may going out with sj ppl i hope... celebrate ahroy and tian qing's bdae... then 9th of june got nursings outing... finally!! we say nursings wan outing from sec 1 say til now still dun have... muz cheng we haven pass out yet go out as nursings... then later.... dunno who will sign on oso... most wun de la.... haha.... i hope u gals dun forget that 2015 lst day of the year we goignt o meet again u noe... reuion of the 2003 batch of nursings.. haha... then later see how we all changed.. wonder id anyone will be married or have kids by then.... hmmmm haha..
tml i finish school at round 9 lyk tt lehz... so boring... nth to do de... study chem? dun wan la... its boring... wanan go out... but everyone else studying for exams de... then no one goign out... if ask any of my frens they oso ask me go tudy... but i so early finish school la... 9 lehz... even if i go out til 4 oso got time to go home study de ma... damn stupid sia...
study so hard oso no use de... oso do so badly... worse arh... study for chem oso always fail de... and is borderline fail la... always fail by 1 or 2 marks only... fail by more i not so xin tong la...fail lyk tt little bit very sad de lo... y i cannot borderline pass arh? pass jiu shi pass ma... fail jiu shi fail... borderline pass jiu shi pass ma... in the report book is nv underline de... fail by 1 mark oso fail... will have the line the... so sian la... study le oso fail... dunno study for wad... study to fail arh... so dumb sia..
i crap so much today that i am confused abt wad is going on le... and i am more confuse than b4 i type these stuff... wad to do lehz... i oso dunno... damn stress lehz... haiz... sianz.... stress arh... dumbshit...
stupid-freaking-idiotic-bastardic-fuckup-of-nature-and-reject-of-society-that-have-no-life-but-to-throw-it-away-and-iriitate-others-with-ur-presence-while-taking-up-valuable-resouces-of-the-earth-that-could-otherwise-be-given-to-the-poor-also-hogging-up-space-that-could-be-used-for-other-stuff-lyk-shit-which-is-more-useful-that-u-along-with-breathing-in-the-oxygen-that-could-help-reduce-greenhouse-effect-all-the-time-disgracing-ur-poor-parents-who-have-to-suffer-having-u-as-their-child
that was totaly lame... but felt really damn good... who am i refering to? is for me to noe and for u poor-fucks-who-have-nth-to-do-but-come-read-my-dumb-blog to find out... lallalala.... so fun.... hate u hate u hate u.... wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...................................... i dun care abt u or anyone else for that matter... life's goo lyk tt... reall good.... honestly... i sound lyk i am lying? maybe i am... how would i noe?
my freak of a mum keeps scolding me.... it's irritating me... lyk i nv study.. keep asking me to study.... wads the meaning of tt... freaking dumb la.... u nv get a chance to study cuz u got weak body and always sick so cannot attend ur lessons often is not my fault la... u dun have to force studying on me to fulfil urself can? do that to ur son... not me... k? not me.... dun irritate me... stop trying to live ur life thru me... stop trying to restrict me to stop doing things that u wun do or got no guts to do... becuz i am me and u are u... i am who i am and stop trying to change me into who i dun wanna be... i wun be ur puppet lyk he is...torture others if u wan but not me.. ok? get off my back and stop trying to kill me.. if i wanna die i will kill myself... i dun need ur help in ending my own life.. u gave me a life and i thank u for tt... but i am in my own rite a person... i will repay u for giving me a life as best as i can but that does not involve me letting u live ur life thru me cuz we are completly different and will nv get along well with each other... yes... so thats juz abt it... now u shut up
this muz really be the longest post ever ba... oh man... i dun think will have anymore post to rival this post le.... dun think i will ever have the energy again to type so much things at one go again... hmmm... budden i oso dunno.... later i next time got post even longer than this on... then jiu funny le... very funny meh? i oso dunno... juz crapping le... haiz.... dun wan study le... so stressed and sian la... bored...
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xoxo nikki
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