Thursday, June 08, 2006
Disillusionized..hmmm.. i really din wanna talk to u last nite.. i really din.. the biting comments i made? well.. i am sry.. but i could have said worse things.. i dun wanna see u later.. i really dun.. god i dunno wad to do.. why do u wan to make me go for this stupid badge? i am so tired.. haiz.. why r u nv there for me? do u noe how much i need u each time but hesistate to approach u? y izzit that he can noe so much abt me that u dun.. whenever wanna tell u sth i feel u distancing urself from me.. yet i can spend less than an hour with him and let him noe more abt me than u dd all these time.. need to reach hq at 4.. gtg le.. otherwise i'll be late.. i cant find my mp3 charger.. tired.. juz wanna breakdown and cry.. but i cant do that.. i hate ths loneliness and hurt that make me so weak and unable to do so much.. how much i hate you for causing me to be lyk this.. can anyone understand my pain and release me from it.. i need a Savior..
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:09 AM
