Monday, June 19, 2006
Picking Up Piecesi really hope we can patch u noe.. budden i noe everything is all on my side.. i dun think u wan ba.. haha.. and now that u have got her.. i dunno if u lyk her or not la.. budden it seems to me tt she really lyks u.. i realised that in camp already.. maybe i should start being more truthful to myself.. once again i'll tell u that u should make the choice that would make u happy.. cuz i made my choice already.. that is ur happiness.. so pls dun disappoint me k? it doesnt matter who u choose between the 3 of us la.. cuz i believe one way or another the 3 of us love u in each our way.. u really dun have to worry abt me.. haha.. all of u.. thanks for ur support through this difficult time.. a time when i was really mentally exhuasted u gave me the strenght to carry on.. to wen jie for being there for me regardless of everything.. and then to gerald who was willing to go out with me juz to accompany me cuz i din wanna be alone.. to faifai for his invaluable advice and for opening my eyes up to the truth.. but i am sorry to say that i have still disappointed u guys cuz i still cant let go.. but i really will.. i will really try.. besides these relationship probs.. there is sj.. haha.. i really am at my wits end for this.. becuz it seems nothing i do can change anything.. becuz none is willing to admit they have a prob.. they juz keep saying that there is nth wrong.. i dunno wad to do.. budden i muz still thank jianwen for a day's advice and giving me a lot more hope on wad to do for my corp.. even though it did not work out.. at least i can tell them i tried.. i dun have the courage lyk gerald to stand by my corp til the day it falls.. if that day ever come.. cuz i dun think i can take that.. to all my sj frens i will nv forget u guys.. no matter wad.. from day 1 in sj it has been the 15 of us.. now when it ends there is still 15.. i am proub to be part of this 15.. even though not all of us are going to carry on our journey physically in sj.. i believe that no matter wad 15 will still be there in each other's heart.. haha.. oh no.. me getting sentimental le.. and i haven apologised to yu yan.. haha.. i promised i will so i will do it.. wheeeeeeeeeee...... life's great when u are in control of ur emotions.. hehe
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xoxo nikki
2:25 AM
