Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Rationally... Emotionally...rationally i noe i should let u go.. but emotionally i cannot control myself.. its so difficult.. i dunno.. too much things runningt thru my head at a time.. had sexuality education... erm... was interesting? but nth i din noe already.. i dunno la.. why first day of sch muz tell us these things.. and i was thinking abt the last time when i was in this sch we were still together... pathetic... i am really pathetic.. u probably dun even care anymore.. i feel disgusted.. i mean evrything that i ever did.. this sucks.. the sex edu didnt help much.. all the disgusting stuff.. hmm.. if u are reading this.. if u get a gf muz tell me wor.. i mean.. its lyk i will get pissed lyk her or anyting.. but i juz wanna noe.. so.. at least i will be easier for me ba.. budden.. we dun even talk now le.. dun call me stupid kkz? cuz i noe i am.. and honestly.. if u fuck him tts ur prob kkz? i really dun give a damn wad u do with ur bf.. thsi is not the first time le.. dun start crying to me again professing how hurt u are.. becuz its so fake la.. u asked it from him one la.. wad the hell.. wad kind of guy will refuse when u throw urself at him.. u irk me.. so dun tell me the stuff i did with him was stupid becuz i wasnt as stupid as u.. i cant say that i regret do wad i did becuz i dun.. perhaps memories hurt.. but memories are all i have now..
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
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