Saturday, June 17, 2006
Terriblei juz quarreled with yu yan.. i noe i was downrite rude la.. budden she really juz caught me at the wrong time.. i muz apologise i and i will.. i am really sorry i talk to u tt way.. budden u guys didnt treat me really nice too.. u noe u shouldnt have scolded me.. when u lyk me have nth else to lose cuz u lost everythign already u wun have qualms abt defending urself and fucking everyone else who try to be funny with u.. especially when u guys were the ones who pissed me off in the first place and it was taking everything i had to be civil to u... and then u come and crap with me.. i really juz lost it.. i feel lyk i am losing myself already.. its lyk being in the ocean and the currents dragging ye underwater.. no matter how i struggle to get to the surface i cannot fight against this strong force that is killing me.. and.. its lyk god dun even let me die.. its lyk he has disappeared and my prayers are left unanswered.. alone here i'll do anythign to get out of this thing thats killing me.. i am losing my mind..
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
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