Sunday, July 02, 2006
Hmmm...haha.. ig et wad u mean faifai... budden.. haha.. wad i wan is not St. John Ambulance Brigade.. haha.. wad i wan is St. John Ambulance Brigade Zone 8 Chung Cheng Corp... becuz thats wad impt to me.. haha.. i look at the crisis that Bedok South is facing now and i think.. few months ago.. that could have been us.. if royston and yuyan they all did not come back.. that could very well be us now.. i look at my sec 3s and i think.. omg.. they are relying on the officers for everything.. wad are they going to do if royston disappears lyk he did last time.. even though that will not happen.. i believe not in SJAB.. but in SJAB Chung Cheng Corp.. even though it all boils down to the same thing.. becuz without SJAB.. Chung Cheng Corp would oso cease to exist.. but ultimatly my loyalty lies in Cung Cheng Corp... and i dun lyk the way things are lyk in my corp now.. the promises they made to me seems very far away.. actions show otherwise.. i look at the CMC-to-be in my batch and i see royston in them.. i wonder.. if this carries on.. wad will my TIC do? the two new TICs dun seem to be very concerned abt SJ.. i seriously doubt the future of their cooperation.. no one understands.. i tot some of them did.. but they din.. they make me feel lyk i am very selfish to leave.. the words said to me make feel me guilty.. if they fail to understand each other.. i dun see how long this forced.. tensed cooperaton of theirs is going to last.. i think of my previous TIC who left SJ to join the Green Club.. i wonder why would she leave.. i cant help but think that stories spread.. that she heard of our previous treatment of our TIC and decided that she dun wanna go thru that.. even though we dun do that anymore.. at least i dun think so.. u ppl think i am making a mountian out of a mole hill.. but how many can understand the consequences of these actions of urs.. the small eye rolling movement and that snort of disbelieve and been noted by ppl who should not see them.. its lyk a vicious cycle.. i wonder when will it ever end... officers are very important in a corp.. but the TIC is more impt... without officers.. the corp can suvive with a good CEC and a good TIC.. but without a TIC.. no matter how good the Officers are.. how good the CMC CEC can be.. the corp cannot survive.. cant any of u see that.. why do u all fail to see this???
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
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