Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Problems And More Problemsmy bdae is coming soon... but i am so not looking forward to it... cuz this year... it means that o's are coming... it means that zhu is going to NS.. itz means that i am not going to be happy... i feel lyk it's my death day instead of birth day...
i dunno wad happened to me yesterday... i kinda ignored zhu... i din mean to do it.... i really din... juz that while he was sleeping... i juz suddenly felt that... i dunno... very very afraid... i dunno wad the future would hold... i nv believed in foreva... i always told my bf not to tell me foreva becuz i myself have no confidence that we would be together forever... haiz... i juz dunno...
i am running out of time... i still dunno lots of stuff for my studies... i have no idea how am i going to score for my o's... but whilst i am fretting abt the little time i have left... more time is passing by... i dun wanna disappoint anyone... becuz they have had faith in me... i dun wanan let them down...
i dunno if i have no confidence in myself or in u.. i really have no idea...
it seems that everything is happening at once... i am so so so tired... worrying abt everything.... things that i have supposely no cause to worry abt...
i feel lyk i am in this long dark tunnel that has no light at the end... i can feel ur hands in mine but i dun see u... beginning to doubt my senses... to doubt whether wad i feel is real... or am i losing my sanity... losing myself... hallucinating...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:22 AM
