Thursday, January 25, 2007
Fucking Get It Out Of Mei'm so irritated and this time blogging cant even get it out of me.... izzit juz me or r we having more disagreements than usual??? fuck la! i dun wann talk abt u anymore... why do i have to keep doing this to myself??? y cant i be lyk some ppl and juz get over with it? y the fuck does it keep playing over and over again in my head? y the hell muz ur mum keep nagging??? y muz she always make me feel inferior when i NOE that fucking hell i'm rite???
i wish i could juz sleep and not think of u... cuz until now i fucking cant go to sleep...
and y the fuck am i using the word fuck so often? y the hell do u alwys bring out the worse in me? i should have juz damn it agreed to go out with them instead of thinking of u and deciding to spend time with u..... next time i should juz fucked up plan my own time for myself without u in mind... cuz everytime i think and plan sth to do.... u are the one that always has sth wrong.... of cuz i wanna meet u... i always do wanna meet u and spend time with u... but sometimes u make me feel so tired that i dun wanna meet u cuz u make me feel lyk itz a hassle for us to meet... and too much trouble to make the effort.... itz lyk u say u wanna meet juz to humor me... juz to keep this little spoilt gal happy... and when i DUn meet u... u make me feel lyk itz my fault cuz i dun wanna meet u...
and now i have fucking no one to go out and i have to damninfly stay in this fucked up hellhole...
and i noe wad u are gonna say.... i ask u to come over le ma
u asked me to go over in such a tired tone... lyk u are juz trying to humor this little kid by giving in to her.... when u are so tired and dun wan to.....
and y the fuck am i complaining so much???
i hate myself... cuz i keep feeling that u deserve someone better.... someone older....
i juz miss u so much...
i wish i could stop crying over spilt milk
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:37 AM
