Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Huge Huge Headache=(
i am totally lost... lyk wad course am i going to choose???? argh!!!! gonna go crazy... talked to issac abt it... talked to weien abt it... and all the ppl who are rushing to give me advice...
and i STILL endup being confused... =(
well... issac was no help... juz keep telling me to choose wad i wanna choose... but thats the thing.... i DUNNO wad to choose...
choose sth i am interested in but dun think can get into?
or sth i not so interested in but should be able to get into?
choose sth i am interested in but future looks bleary?
or sth that i not so interested in but future is juz abt sure to get sth?
then i got the question marks all over my head...
take Veterinary Technology??? cuz lyk it sounds damn fun... and it involves ANIMALS!!! maybe i will go work at SPCA after that... haha... rite... lyk my mum will so allow that... i can juz imagine her saying...
"VET??? r u crazy?? WHERE"S THE FUTURE IN THAT? and animals are SO disgusting."
=) thats my beloved ever supporting mother... haha
then my cousin will go...
"u SIAO arh? go take sth that is reliable can? or sth that HAVE a future"
hmmm.... the ppl ard me are REALLY supportive huh? haiz.... now it seems my result for poly izzit that bad... cuz i have alot of courses available to me... but wad i am worried abt is whether i can study anot... ppl tell me
"if u put in effort u can do it de... if u nv study nv study can score lyk tt for ur o's then u muz be smart de ma... so if u put in effort u can do EVEN BETTER"
but seriously hor... after my prelims... itz not that i dun wanna study... budden i really couldnt study... i dunno is cuz i feel that i have no hope le... or cuz i simply wasnt interested.... so ya... thats crap ya?
hmmm... this makes me feel sorely tempted to go MI.... juz cuz i dun have to choose a course til 3 years later... thats a crappy reason... but i dunno la... i wun do it anyway... i sure cant survive in MI...
so ya... maybe i take wad royston took... Chemical Engineering... sounds fun the way he described it... but.... there is always a but... sounds too chim for me oso...
=(
i'll see how later lo... i still got one more day... =(
i wish i could talk to ahroy abt it... but he's in camp... i miss his logical reasoning... the way he always try to influence me to do wad he tells me gently... then i can always argue with him... yet after everything i will find my way out of the mess.... i miss ahroy so much... not seeing him... not arguing with him... not getting pissed off with him... not having him tell us to watch our front and chest out stomach in... not having his lame lame lame jokes.... hmmm.... thats sad u noe...
anyway... my dearest had night out last nite... and he says tml maybe got nite out oso... today he cant come out cuz he on duty... tml... tml is vday... i really do hope he can come out... this shall be my first vday to be spent with my beloved... and i really hope to spend at least an hour with u.. juz to see u will be good enough le
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xoxo nikki
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