Saturday, February 10, 2007
Itz Not Too Badhmm... to say i was shocked doesnt really descride how i felt when i got my results... the only thing miss lai said to me was...
"u qualify for jc"
no one but me would have any idea wad that sentence meant to me... and how of an impact it has on me...
shock.. surprise.. amazment.. dissappointment..
it all ran thru me at once rendering me speechless... until i came to terms with it... i didnt really talk much abt it to anyone... but damn was i worried... i mean for the past 4 years i had done obscenely badly in my subjects... to the point where i failed everything xcept for my english...
in my third year... i should have been retained... but for wadeva that has blessed me thus far in my life.. i was given a chance to be promoted to sec 4... against my better judgement i took up the offer and found myself struggling to even pass my subject or obtain a juz failing grade... for someone who had once tot that 60+ was already a lousy grade to have to struggle such for a 'juz fail' grade.... my mortification was sth not many ppl can understand...
for someone whose L1R4 was 30+ rite up to her prelims.. a score 10+ now was an amazing feat... at least that is wad i feel...
i guess not many ppl would sympatize with me.... most would feel i brought it upon myself... but i think i would give myself a pat on my shoulder for this result...
undoubtly i would have done much better if i had actually come to my senses earlier... or if i had retained... but since wads done is done and the future has no patience for 'wad if's and 'maybe's... i shall juz congratulate myself...
i muz say that i wasnt as cool calm and collected as everyone seemed to think... or as i appeared to be... =) haha... juz that... i was trying damn hard not to think abt it.... so damn terrified that i would get 30+ lyk my prelims... or that i would get 20+.... i dunno how would i live la... lyk... so many eyes are on me.... =(
and my phone is still ringing i am taking ages to type this cuz lyk everyone is a asking my results... i got big family ma... bo bian.... =(
anyway... i absolutely REFUSE to reveal my results on my blog... becuz i noe that there are awful ppl out there who will yak yak yak abt me somemore... and that there are ppl whom i do not wan to reveal my results to who will read in here... SO THERE! go guess how much i have got...
although i noe that soemhow some of them will find out la... thru SOME PPL.... budden thats ok la.... i guess... i shall go off now... another phone call...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
11:55 AM
