Saturday, February 03, 2007
Juz... I Dunno...
haiz... juz now deardear msg me to say that he wun be meeting me today.... cuz he can only book out earliest at 11... ya fine... wadeva... i feel so tired that i dun even feel pissed or irritated anymore... my entire day is juz ruined lyk tt.... and now i have no dinner cuz this morn i told mummy not to cook my dinner... and she din buy my dinner so either i take instant noodles again for the second time today... or i go hungry for the nite cuz there's absolutely nth to eat le... besides junk food... and they wun even make me full.... wadeva... gonna have a sleepless nite again... i'm tired of only being able to go to sleep at 4 or 5 plus in the morn then wake up at 11 and cant sleep anymore... then the whole day i will be lyk a zombie from lack of sleep... cuz even if i sleep... i keep waking up in fright only to close my eyes and fall into another nitemare... and the worse is i have no idea wad juz terrified me.... all the way til 11 when i cant even close my eyes... to noe morning has arrived...
really dun feel lyk meeting him tml anymore... too tired to go anywhere... juz wish i could rot at home.....
even spending time to find and change my blogskin doesnt give me the satisfaction as it used to...
juz receiced his msg telling me he finished his dinner and going to start nite training soon.....
so wad? i really dun care...or rather i really dun wanna care.... it doesnt make a difference wad... i feel so tired and lethargic....
i so wish that tonite when i sleep... maybe one of my nitemares will take me away..
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:37 AM
