Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Things I Knew But Have Forgottenhmmm... last nite i was talking to deardear... abt how i was very different... and he agreed with me saying that i am very quiet now... not lyk lat time during the skating lessons so frenly bubbly and cheerful le... i agree.. =(
anyway... then i was telling him how i think jolvin's not very happy with me and him being tgt... neither do darwin come to think of it... their attitude towards me changed alot when they noe me and issac tgt... but thats besides the point... i was saying that jolvin's a very nice person... well... cuz he was very nice to me... =) though it was only during the last lesson... previously he was more interested in the guys... =) they lyk... jolvin and chengwee teach the guys and issac was teaching us... and both grps were going at different paces...
then during the last lesson i was super bu shuang cuz darwin forced me to go down the slopes... then.... jolvin was nice... the whip potato... esp going down the last slope... he was really really nice abt it... and then the humps... forcing me to go over it... lucky i smart... =) i go faster than him while he was messing with the guys... wahaha....
when i was telling deardear all this he was lyk abit bu shuang or sth lyk tt... then i was still wondering y... until he told me in the end that they were saying that jolvin was interested in me!!!!
actually it din come as that much of a surprise... i think last time got ppl tell me the jolvin was interested in me... though i wasnt sure if that person was kidding not... and that reminded me that someone oso say that darwin was interested in me... haha... all these i knew but din give much tot to...
all these were said last yr in april lyk tt.... so i was lyk... if i were as materialistic(i think i spelt wrongly)as i guys said i was... i could have juz tried to seduce anyone of them ma... i was closer in fact to darwin than to issac.... and after that jolvin... i din really talk to issac til much later... i could have done a lot of things that i did not do...
shouldnt i have given myself a pat on my back on being able to wad... catch the attention of these 3 guys who are older than me? more mature? a mere 16 year old student catching the eye of 3 20 year old guys who are already working??? but i am juz saying that if these rumors are true... of cuz rumors have a basis in fact... a sideways glance and a word too much... gives birth to a rumor... but they are not necessarily true...
but my point is... along the way i lost someone impt to me... not precious... impt... and i'm tired...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
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