Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Playing Mey do u all always lyk to play me???
i hate being played..
u do things that make me feel that u actually care... u actually care enuff for me to make a difference.. but in the end... u juz trip me and laugh at me while i fall face flat in the mud for trusting u to keep me safe...
i hate this...
if u dun care... let me noe.. stop lying to me... stop pretending to care.. i can live with u all not caring.. but i cant live with people i care for lying to me..
please...
juz stop hurting me...
juz stop pretening to care...
juz stop lying to me...
juz stop making me cry...
there are so many things i wanna say to you... but wad can i say without sounding stupid and childish and selfish... when all i wan.. is for u to stop hurting me.. and start caring for me really and truely in ur heart..
i noe u all have ur own lives to lead... a life of which i may not be a part of.. but please stop making it all so fake.. if u dun care... u juz dun... u dun have to pretend... becuz none of u are good at pretending.. if u dun wan my in ur life juz say so... there's no need to make me suffer lyk this..
honestly... i should stop putting you infront of myself... itz time i lead a life of my own... a life that dun include u.. a life in which i can live in and get by and no one noes of u and no one will mention you...
i should learn now.. stop relying so much on u... start loving myself more than
i love u
i juz wish that there were someone...
anyone...
who can treat me more than
a fren
a good fren
a best fren
someone who actually loves me.. not juz tell me that he loves me.. but show me that he loves me.. let me noe.. thru his actions that he really loves me..
maybe u once did.. but i'm not so sure now.. maybe u need a break or sth.. i'm not the one who keeps throwing my temper.. ur the one losing ur temper at the slightest thing and i'm not complaining..
i juz need someone.. who will not break my heart...
maybe... that person... is me...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:58 PM
