baby baby... i only wan this all to be over.. in the blink of an eye, we realise tt we have been going thru this for almost a year le..
in the beginning, i really did not think that i will be able to go thru this with you. i hoped with all my heart that i will be strong enough. i know that despite all the things that you do, i will still love you no matter what. but wad i am afraid of is that i wun be able to support you anymore. i know that my love for you is definitely strong enough. but am i?
a year has past, and i have proven not only to u or myself, but to the people around you that despite everything, i have truely stuck by you and have been by your side. many times i tot that i wasnt good enough, wasnt strong enough, wasnt simply good enough for you. many a times i sincerely tot of breaking up with you becuz i felt that i was a burden to you and becuz i felt that ur life will be easier without me by ur side. and time and again, u have also proven ur love to me. and thats y we have been together for so long.
our 2nd anniversary is approaching soon and u are finally getting out of NS. i really cannot wait. i noe i can be demanding at times, but sometimes, u really dun take me seriously until i throw a tantrum. u dun listen to me when i ask for something from you, until i throw my temper. as with the sbo thing, u promised time and again to stop and the timestop came and went and still u din stop. all you did was promise me that you will stop one day in the future. u finally stopped for all of a month after i threw a fit at you. but u never really stopped til i threatened to breakup with you. i guess all this resulted in me getting into a habit of demanding things from you rather than asking. i really hope you will forgive me.
in the months that come, i really hope that you will make good ur promise to me. perhaps when u finish NS, and get down to settling ur company things will be better. but rite now, i guess the only thing i can do is scarifice the time we have tgt and work harder and hope that things will improve soon.
i know that you dun feel good abt this too. i know the situation u r going thru oso. i really hope that you will be honest with me and dun keep me in the dark abt so many things, especially such things.
i juz wanna tell u that i love you baby. no matter wad we go thru, no matter wad you do or say, i still love you. i love everything abt you right down to that ugly scar on ur tummy. heez... itz all going to end soon rite? all this horrible things are going to end soon rite? i hope this meant tt our relationship can endure anything...
P.S. I love you. P.P.S. Wish you were here.
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:55 AM
Welcome to My World...
my love
my never ending journey
and i am here to tell a tale to you.
wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you.
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you.
Itz My Life...
`~ jiehui.nikki
`~ 10.10.1990
`~ libra
`~ Naval Base Primary School
`~ Changkat Primary School
`~ Chung Cheng High School (Main)
`~ Singapore Polytechnic
`~ forgotten_luv@hotmail.com
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