Saturday, December 26, 2009
Changes...After today, I think everything's different. I have truely gone to where I cannot return. Last night's and this afternoon's mistakes will be carved in my heart. This is wad i understand now.
Qiyuan, you were right. I've juz been too used to being dominated by Issac. I'm sorry Shearn, that your efforts have been for naught. I won't betray myself or my heart, but what you saw last night is who I am now. No more guilts Qiyuan. Now we are truly one and the same.
There is no more confusion as to what Nikki feels and have to do. I am no longer accountable to anyone but myself. Even to you baby, I love you, and you're right, this is an easier life to live. And I'm sorry, I really am loose Grace. My heart only belongs to you, but my body to myself and my satisfaction.
Life has never looked better than today.
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
8:39 PM