Thursday, December 24, 2009
A New BeginningThanks dear, for everything. For helping me get over him and encouraging me to eat when i couldnt. Thanks for holding my hand in case I fall and holding my hair when I vomited. Thanks for saying the right things at the right time and helping me through the week.
If it wasnt for you I dunno wad would have happened this week. If you hadnt make me eat I think I would have juz starved myself. Thanks for making the effort to choose the food that I like and for cooking for me juz so I will eat more. To be very honest I still can't eat now actually. I still have no appeitite for anything. I would have gladly gone a day without food. But I force myself to eat for you.
Itz cuz of you that I do not have scars on my palm. The times when i clenched my fist without knowing when I'm stoning or sleeping, thanks for trying so hard to pry my fingers open. Thanks for putting your hand there so that I will dig my fingers into your palm instead of mine. I'm sorry that I've hurt you. But thank you for keeping me from hurt.
I do not know if I didn't have you by my side through this week how would i have gotten through. If I didn't have you supporting me how deep into depression I would have fallen. It took me only a week to stand up becuz of you. Without you, I would probably still be murking my way through the aftermath of the ruined relationship.
Thank you. I love you.
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
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