Friday, December 25, 2009
Who I Am.Everytime you complain that I go out with guys. So I stopped going out with them. You said I always attract many guys. So I tried hard not to. I didn't know wad I did to attract the guys that you say. But I did wadeva I could to stop.
I made myself unappealing to other guys. I felt that I was unappealing. My confidence level was zero. I hated myself. Everyday I wondered what happened to me? Why am I like that now?
And now. I've found myself again. I still have it in me to attract the guys. I'm not as disgusting as I thought I was. As YOU wanted me to think I was. Look at the guys around me now. Not appreciating me was your loss. I had so many people after me but I chose you. I changed myself for you. Knowingly and unknowingly, I changed and I became different person. A lesser person.
I dimmed myself so I wouldn't outshine you. I made myself less shiny so you wouldn't feel uncomfortable. I made myself look bad so you could look good.
Now, view me in my glory. View me in my element. This was what you gave up. This was wad I gave up to be with you. I may have lost touch. But I have not lost it.
This is what I am. Without you, I'm still whole.
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
10:36 PM
