Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Because I CareIt is easy to say that I'm not bothered about what people think. It's true that I don't. Whether you approve of what I do, I don't care. Especially if I don't know you. But I DO know you. You are one of my closest friends. Thats why I want you to understand. Because I care.
I don't want you to misunderstand our relationship because it matters to me what you think. But you don't even know the full picture and you insist that I am wrong. Once again, I'm not even given the chance to explain myself.
I'm quite sick and tired of people assuming things about me. Especially since you know me so well. Or maybe it is because you know me well and you think that you know what I think. But the things that happened? Do you even have the vaguest idea? But yet there you are condemning my actions. The request you asked was so unreasonable but still I'm forced to comply. Because I care for you as my friend. But as my friend, why are you asking me to do such things? Why don't you even bother to find out the truth? You who know him better than me should know the difference better than me.
Lets juz say that I am wrong, he's family is wrong, he's wrong. But so what? There is nothing going on. Even if I want something to be going on. Why do you think we have not? Because he doesn't thats why. Why am I not just one of his girls? Because that is not what I am. But still, you won't believe me. And this is the last time I will try to make you understand.
I give up.
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
2:44 PM
