Friday, January 01, 2010
RuinationI loved you so much, and I gave you wadeva I could give. So much so that now, wadeva I feel, pales in comparison. I can't seem to love anyone else as much, and wadeva I do don't seem to be enough. Part of me is reluctant to fall in love again. And wadeva that I do with other guys, seem to be somehow detached from myself.
Somehow, I feel like just letting myself go. I do not care about wad others think. But I do not want to go back to who I was. I dun wanna look back again and realise my life has once again lost itz meaning. I feel torn.
You tore me. Apart. At the seams.
They say you are fine now. And that proved me right. Wadeva that happens is no long er your business. You say you dun owe me anything. And true to your word you act like you dun. I could ruin you too you know? I could tell them everything.
But I wun. That would mean lowering myself to your level. If you have any conscience at all, you will know wad to do. If not... I have already resigned myself to the fate of a fool.
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:19 AM
