Thursday, March 25, 2010
A Rare Almost Perfect DayEarly this morning while I was freaking out and studying on the train to school, a bat flew into the train. =X
I heard a weird
gulping yelp and I thought someone vomited or something when an auntie jumped up. Then the whole stretch of seats cleared out except for some sleeping people and I thought 'Huh? Someone farted?'
Haha...
Then I saw the bat.
Apparently it flew into the door, straight at the glass and flopped on the auntie. All of a sudden it flew up and obviously tried to get out of the train with no success seeing that the doors were closed already. It spent the next 2 stations terrifying people out flying over their heads. It was amusing to see how when the bat flew up into the other side of the cabin, there was a rush of people fighting for seats -.-''
The poor bat was flying all over the cabin with is vaguely panicked look on its face.
Hmmm... Maybe I imagined it but I feel that it looked pretty distraught with its crinkly face. Couldn't fly well due to the train moving and the shit with the movement of the pressures
everytime the train started up or slowed down.
Even though we sorta knew that the bat wouldn't fly into us because it was doing a pretty good job of avoiding us other than when it flew into the window, everyone instinctively ducked when it flew over their head. It was kinda like watching a screwed up version of the
Kallang Wave.
Haha...
Eventually it flew out of the door and everyone gave a sigh of relief.
Haha... Gave me a very good distraction and calmed me down somewhat. =D
Reached school at 7plus and sat outside The Retail Place studying. I wondered if I will ever come back here again.
Hmmm... Started to freak out again.
Went for the paper and predictably I didn't remember a single thing.
Had a talk with Mrs Angie Tang after. I think I'm going to pass
afterall.
Sooo...
Goodbye Singapore Polytechnic. Good
riddance to all the horrible people.
I'll never have to see you again thank god.
<3<3<3
Thanks to Mr Roger Lee for giving me so much help and advice through this horrible time.
Thanks to Ms Chloe Tan for always being there to listen to me, not judging nor flinching.
Thanks to Mrs Angie Tang, Mrs Sarah
Lim and Mrs Patricia
Moreria for believing in me and giving me a second chance.
I'll definitely be back to SP to see you all. This time as part of the working society and no longer as part of SP. But I'll always be your student.
Called Mr Lee up to update him and to thank him for everything and he told me to keep him in the loop about my life. Lots of love. Tried calling Ms Tan but couldn't get her maybe she's off counselling someone else or on a course again or something. I'll call again.
Every single teacher here has offered me help and advice in the future if I ever needed them, and eventually I will. Thanks for everything.
I'm lucky to have great teachers if not great friends. At least in school.
From all these, I've learnt that no one is worth me doing or sacrificing so much for because they will not be reciprocated. I should learn to open up and trust more people but less in each person.
I believe I have become a smarter and better person from all these. Never let myself over-rely on anyone.
I am no longer reliant.
Coming out of the room knowing I passed my paper gave me the sudden realization that all these time, I was never truly happy. Despite feeling relieved that I did not have to take the paper and that it was a worry for next time, it has always been pressing at the back of my head without me knowing. I guess that worry was evident and obvious to the people around me if not to me.
Stepping out of school and feeling that huge burden lifted from me knowing I have finished my education literally made me feel so light. I finally understood that it was truly possible for the world to become brighter and more beautiful when there is nothing holding you back. That feeling I will always treasure but I will never want to experience it again. Because the stress that I have to be under before feeling this incredible feeling is too high a price to pay.
But it is possible for the colors in the world to become brighter, the hot sun to feel warm and feel a gentle breeze while walking.
I'm sorry to all my friend whom I have been short with especially Qiyuan who had to endure my sudden mood swings. I do know that I have been very emotional during this time but I did not understand why. I guess you were right in say that I have been partly venting my frustrations on you without realising it.
From now on my life will be more fulfilling than before.
Lots of love.
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:29 PM
