Monday, June 26, 2006
Sorryok.. so now u noe abt it.. i dunno wad to do now honestly.. i am so pathetic.. u noe y? becuz at least she's ok with it.. at least she was able to let go.. i cant let go even noe.. even when i noe that u were not that good.. even though i noe that if u can do that to her u can very well do it to me also.. but dumb pathetic me juz had to believe that perhaps becuz u can let her and your one year relationship go for me u let anyhting go for me also.. i dunno wad i wan anymore.. its pathetic.. becuz until now i still lyk u.. and dumb stupid me is even hoping that one day we can still be together.. i wish i could let u go.. becuz it was wrong from the beginning.. becuz of u i lost 2 of my best frens.. and now i have also lost u.. i dunno anything anymore.. this kind of life sucks.. i wish that i had been more firm on 1st may and waited.. then i would not feel guilty... and i would still have my best frens.. but then i could have lost u.. i dunno.. theres so much wad ifs that could happen.. but things have already turned out this way.. theres no way to turn things back around.. accept the thigns as they are.. and take things step by step.. easy to say hard to do.. becuz until noe i am still thinking that if i still have u nect to me it all would be better...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
6:13 AM
