Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Lost My Mindi am seriously depressed.... argh.... i dunno la... juz a flood of emotions in me... each fighting to outdo each other... each feeling more ridiculous than the last.... fear jealousy hatred pain anger.... all the most horrible feelings in the world are possesing me rite now... but of the 4 i rather pain.... becuz there is nth that anyone in the world did to deserve my jealousy hatred and anger to be directed at.... and wad i fear most is fear itself... but each of them inevitably lead to each other... really really tired out by them....
i should stop blogging abt these kind of unhappy stuff le lar... later dear read my blog then he get upset again that he now in tekong and cannot be here for me... and i wear his ring everyday til now got alot scratches le... xin tong...
i should stop brooding abt la... but am i really so evil? i noe i can be super malicious at times.... but thats only when u piss me off......... the world's really unfair cuz while those ppl can bitch abt me with no fear...... i dun even feel good when i try to defend myself or try to bitch abt them back.... in fact i already regreted my previous post abt the relationships.... thats the reason why i took lyk..... a year to actually post a full acct abt it.... this world is really evil awful and horrible...and dun ask me if i ever tot that i caused my world to be lyk tt.... cuz i did... and maybe i'm rite...SHIT!
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
1:55 PM
