Friday, December 01, 2006
A Phone Callthe previous nite.... zhu was out field all day... at abt 11 plus i sms-ed him good nite..... and i switched off my phone.... i juz had a feeling that he wun call... so rather than give myself hope and wait.... for the first time in years i switched off my phone to avoid someone....
true to it... he din call me.... sms-ed me at 12.30 saying he was too tired....
last nite.... i couldnt bring myself to do it again... to switch off my phone.... i could get to sleep... i sms-ed him good nite at 10.45.... sat on my bed staring at my phone.....
this time he did call me at ard 12..... but when i did pick up the phone... i was so tired.... with myself... how can i allow a phone call to influence me to such an extent? i think itz really pathetic for someone's happiness to be hinged on a mere phone call.... we didnt even talk for 5 mins and i asked him to hang up....
partly.... he was sick and wanted him to get to sleep soon.... but mostly cuz..... i dunno.... i juz missed him so much.... tot he point where i cant bear to hear his voice.... to even think of him... cuz it hurts so such.... knowing that he is there.... but not there at te same time..... i guess itz not only tough for the guy in NS to worry abt losing his GF.... but the gal out there wating for him....
i'm juz so damn tired.....
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xoxo nikki
5:04 AM
