Tuesday, April 03, 2007
A Sort Of Campoh well... i spent the weekend and friday at zhu's hse... he din go jolvin's party in the end... hmmmm.... too far he says... overall i was very happy to have spent the time with him.... i found and read some things that made me pretty unhappy though... it felt lyk my heart juz died or sth... and well... dear's ex called him... and... i dunno... he din answer the phone call at first... but the second time... well... i sorta forced him to pick up... i was telling him if he din i would... we were still debating who to answer and when he was abt too answer... she hung up... =x then almost immediately she called again... and i juz answered it... but i din noe wad to say so i juz passed to zhuzhu... the convo was short but not really sweet lehz... she was asking zhu out...
as his gf.... well.. i cant say i am jealous... cuz well... itz really nth... juz a phone call... and well... zhu has refused to reply or answer her msges and calls... although i'm not really sure thats true... nvm.... thats beside the point... point is.... as a female.... i can totally recognize that she still really lyk zhu..... and well.... the feeling of being spurned is one i totally understand... =x if her reaction was that in the phone call rite... i cant imagine wad was her reaction lyk when she found out that less than a week after he broke up with her he went out with me... haiz... and if he did tell her that we were tgt a long time ago.... the fact that she expected us to break up by now... says volumes abt wad she thinks of issac.... and even the kind of person issac is... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........
but the thing that upset me wasnt that which was stated above... and that thing made me doubt everything u ever said to me... i dun see how it can be a white lie... i mean... u did not have to lie in the first place.... if that time i could ask u that question and give u that statement... wadeva made u think that i would mind... in fact... i would not even be surprised... but u juz had to lie... and i so naively believed u... actually... i wonder if it were naivity or stupidity.... wadeva...
i blogged in my previous post that i would be blogging less.... becuz wad is said here would only be things safe to be said.... others shall be seriously veiled... those that cant be veiled shall be drafted.. haha...
one more thing... tml i shall go for the CSCC camp... i'm not really keen on going... plus we cant bring our hp along there... so i shall be unable to contact deardear.... totally heartbroken.... haiz... at least it was lucky that lishi is going with me...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
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