Sunday, January 13, 2008
Mask 1, Mask 2, Mask 3, Mask 4, Falling Off The Building, AloneMask 1the happy crazy gal who hates studying, loves online shopping and is a spendthrift
Mask 2the unfilial gal who is lazy and only noe how to talk back and spend money
Mask 3the happy gal who loves her bf alot and is happy even when his mother shout at her cuz when he tells her to forget sth and dun think abt it... she juz does it..
Mask 4the happy crazy unfilial gal who loves her bf alot who lyk to lie in bed at nitye convincing herself that she is very happy and can simply dun think abt unhappy stuff and forget abt them and juz simply be happy.
i feel lyk i am standing at the edge of a very tall building being crowded out my my own feelings... in serious danger of falling off the building becuz there is no other place her feelings can go to... becuz there is no one she can confide in cuz her unhappy matter concerns not only herself but of other people too... and it is out of respect for them that she cannot divulge any...
yet with my feelings crowd me out... and push me off the building... i do not wan anyone waiting to catch me at the bottom of the building... becuz i dun wanna owemy life to anyone... i dun wanna see anyone... becuz the last thing i wanna do in my life... is to feel myself fly to a place that i wanna go... where no one cna hurt me... where i can finally take off all these masks and be myself... and i dun wan anyone to stop me...
rite now... i juz wanna be alone...
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
9:34 AM