Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Who I Was...i wish i could go back to who i was... the one who juz din care... i wish everyone would juz think tt i'm a horrible person and leave me alone... my biggest mistake was to ever open myself up to anyone... to ever tink that i would be able to find my own happy ending... tt someone actually cared.. tt i could for once be the first in someone's life... not second or third or even first with someone else.. i juz wanted to be someone's one and only.. i din realise tt the more u care abt someone.. the more u show tt u care for tt someone.... the more likely u will be taken for granted... i once tot tt i found tt person.. the person who will be there for me no matter wad.. the person who will at the very least trust me and care for me..
maybe i'm juz too demanding... i really hate myself... i wish tt i can simply dun care... wadeva happened to the girl who believed tt she would rather hurt everyone in the world rather than let someone hurt her once? she may not be the happiest person on earth.. but at least she wasnt hurt by the ppl she cared for the most...
my biggest mistake was to have ever trusted or hoped... or even to have ever loved
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
5:12 PM
