Friday, December 25, 2009
Christmas Past, Present, FutureAs Christmas draws to an end, so does my hopes for the future. Right now, I realised that I have never changed. I'm just the same as before. Always waiting, never getting. Juz hoping to get a morsel of care and concern. Itz not that other people don't care. I have wonderful frens. Frens who will do anything for me. But itz not the same.
Girl, grow up. This Christmas your spending it alone with Bumbum. Let it forever remind you of who you cannot be, what you cannot do. Otherwise, Christmas for the rest of your life will be juz like this.
Itz time to put on that mask again dear. And this Christmas will serve to remind you to never take it off again. Not for anyone. If you do, then on your head be it. If you think itz worth all the hurt to get when you shed your mask for anyone, think again.
I'm back. And better than before.
No one is worth me feeling like this. Now all I have to do is to remember this.
Last Christmas, I gave him my heart.
This Christmas, I gave you my heart.
Next Christmas, I'm keeping my heart.
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
7:52 PM