Monday, December 28, 2009
Project S. L. Y.I think I had enough. I feel that I'm being played. If you wanna go out with other girls fine. If you wanna go fuck other girls, also fine. But I wish you will juz stop lying to me. Why ask me stay over if all you wanna do is stay away from me? Why tell me you love me when all you wanna to is get away from me? If you don't want me by your side you can juz tell me. If you don't love me you can juz say. You don't have to lie to me at all. If I'm your burden, I'll gladly get away from you. I am no one's burden but my own. I am not a burden. I juz stopped being someone's burden and I wun let myself be yours.
Setting myself up again and again to get hurt. Everytime I try to put a wall up around me you do everything that pulls it down. And then you hurt me. Why? Is this like a game to you? See how long Nikki can last? The Lets-Kill-Nikki game?
Everytime I look at you, I fall deeper in love with you. Everytime you hold me in your arms, my heart cracks abit more. Becuz I know you are not mine. You will never be mine. All these I don't mind.
I juz want you to stop lying to me.
Project Stop. Loving. You.
My World. My Life. My Rules.
xoxo nikki
3:28 AM
